"Speaking out is better than keeping everything in a box"

What does this line means?

Am I suppose to spill everything out?

I know these few days my blog is all about complains and life through waves and hills.

But these few days everything seems to be wrong, there are so many ups and downs that I couldn't even handle. A simple down could make me so depress that tears starts to leave my eyes and nights seems to be endless.

Even if I tell someone about it, what's the point? You'll give come and tell me that everything will be ok the next day. For a moment I will feel better but after a while the same 'emo-ness' comes back.

"I'm so sick of my life and I just wanna scream 'HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME'."

"I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare"

Everything seems to be harder as the days pass. Even now its hard to talk to others. There seems to be a wall between us and a distance that separates us.

I know a worser nightmare is about to arive. REPORT CARD DAY! I'm so dead on that particular day. Like I always say after every single exam, 'I promise to do better next time!'

Well..maybe this time I really will do better. I don't wanna go tuition! Really!

Anyway, I found this website that has all the F4 Sejarah notes. I linked it to my profile page. Go open it. Its kinda useful for those who spend more time on pc than books.

Today Teachers' Day. Was kinda happy this morning. But when get to know Chem 2 marks. Haiz. Mood from heaven above fell to hell below. Damn shyt man my result. Feel like dying. How can I improve. I was thinking bout it the damn whole day. When I reach home I on msn. I felt so lazy to chat. I have no idea why. Was........til I fell asleep. Even when I fell asleep it wasn't really a sleep. I keep waking up every single 10 minutes. Shyt man!! What the hell is wrong with me??!!

And whats the point of telling it to you? You don't take a damn! You don't understand what I'm going through.

"Cause we lost it all, nothing last forever, I'm sorry I can't perfect.

Now its just too late, And we can't go back, I'm sorry I can't be perfect!"

"All the world is a stage,

And everyone has their part,

But how was I to know which way they story'd go,

How was I to know...

You'd break my heart."

Hema's word of wisdom - "Practice makes perfect, but no one is perfect, so why practice."

Correct right? Why bother practising when no one can be perfect. Haiz. Guess what. I'm listening to all old songs now. From an album called 'The Power Of Love'. All damn nice songs. Today me and Yang played guessing lyrics.

"Unbreak my heart, say you love me again.

Undo these hurts you caused when you walked out of the door and walked out of my life.

Uncry these tears, I cried so many nights.

Unbreak my heart."

Sien lorh whole day. Morning go school. First was Chem 1. 9 Wrongs!! sad! After chem recess. Didn't go for recess. Lazy walk down. But at 10.50, me, van and shagee went to the toilet and to the canteen. Bought 'keropok lekor'. Eat on the way up. And also in class xD

Then all 'kheng gai'. Cos got nothing to do marh. Not that we gonna read for Pj rite..its just a dumb and irritating subs. Hmm, then exam started. Did like for half an hour then bed time =)

But the weather was damn hot. Was sweating and DAMN sleepy. So i slept, as usual. Then suddenly heard the sir shout.

Anda tidak dibenarkan membaca bahan bercetak. -.-

Den..

Jika anda ingin melanggar peraturan peperiksaan, sila tanggalkan pakaian unit anda.

zadao!! That sir damn strict man!

So then finish school. Normal larh, me, Shagee and Uthaya will talk like no one's business xD

haha...

Then reach home. No lunch. Online. Til 4pm beh tahan d. Cook 2 packet of maggi goreng. Then continue online. Til 7 sumthing went and bathe. Again no dinner -.-ll

Mummy and daddy went for prayer. Haiz. Ate bread.

Sien lorh whole day.

"Hurting leave scars, scars leaves memories"

"Sometimes it wrong to walkaway, though you think its over"

I can't believe what I've done but all of it is coming back to me. I didn't know what I did would hurt so many people. You don't tell me but I know I'm the cause of it.

Ni bu yao kan zhe wo suo ni yi jing zhi dao zhen me zhuo.

Haiz.

Do you think hurting one person would be better than hurting 4 people? If it is better than I'll be better off that way. I can't stand looking at myself hurting others for the sake of myself.

My mind is somehow blocked and kinda disturb. Wanting to know what you think. It's somehow driving me nuts. Guessing and not asking. What do I get from that? CONFUSSION!

Can someone tell me that what I'm doing now is the right thing? No right? I don't know what to think.

Something is really irritating me now! You know sometimes people just come and complain like their whole damn bloody life to you. I just can't take it. When you give them advice they just push it right back at your face. They not only don't accept that piece of advice but they shove it back to you like you're the one to be blamed for every damn thing they are feeling or going through!

Btw, if I don't ask please don't tell me anything. I hate it when someone just come along and tell their whole damn diary to me like I'm that person's blog or something. If you wanna spill something out please get a blog man! I'm not your diary that you can write on or just vomit everything out.

Haiz. Just forget bout it larh.

Btw, what TK say was kinda true. Its a real story, not a fake story. I didn't make it up for fun. Its real life! FACE IT! ITS REALITY! I don't know why. But it has been on my mind since the day u you told me that you have feelings towards me. You really really treat me damn nice. I remember one day when I was really upset and cried, you were there to cheer me up. On top of that, sending me bubble talks and also made a funny picture of yourself.

Haiz. I just don't know what to say larh.

Okay. Theres this other thing that keep bothering me. You know sometimes you wanna complain something to someone surely you'll find someone close to you right. So one day I found this really close friend wanting to spill something to her. The moment i begin complaining, there she was complaining bout the same thing. But after my first complain, there was no more second. I started with one complain and she ended with 1001 complains!! Damn man! Here was I wanted to find a comfort zone, and there was I NEEDING to comfort someone else! Shyt man!

Btw, for this holiday got 2 peepz' birthday! Shagee and also Gurv!! My 2 best buddies!

I LOVE GURV'S HUG!! Its so warm!! She just makes me feel comfortable in her arms. And I always know that she will always be with me no matter what happens. Well for Shagee, although she's a bit harsh at times. But damn she's a good teacher. And she's kinda like an elder sister. She gives like damn good advice and takes care of people properly. So here, we wanna make a surprise party for both of them. Hehe...Kavi's idea though. Just informing my blog readers. As in those who are close to them larh. Those who don't know them just buzz off. lolx. So here the plan.

Shagee's party.

On 27th May. Not sure what time yet. Will inform ya'll asap. THEME:BOLLYWOOD! xD

Gurv's party.

On 1st or 2nd June. If its on 1st June then is in the evening cause I can't make it!! xD ANNUAL CAMP KACAU JE =x But if its on 2nd then not sure what time. The THEME: I've decided to do R&B, Pop, Rock or Hip Hop. Hehe..My idea man!! xD

That's all for now. Gotta get all things done by this week larh. Can't afford to do last minutes preparation. All your cooperation is greatly appreciated! =)

I think thats all that I can complain about in this bloggie this time. Others still in my mind. Don't wanna spill out too much. haiz. How i wish i can reverse back time.

Lets do some recall.

Yesterday slept at 2am!! walao. So long didn't try d. Damn shuang! xD

Then this morning wake up at 1o something. At 1pm start online. Then xl sms me ask want go swimming bo. Then ma go lorh. Nothing to do also. Then sms with lois. Shuang. Haha.

Sementara ada credit xD

Then online chat with Lynn and HJon. Until 4, Hj sudd say wan cycle go church worh. He ask me go church puii him -.-ll

So early merh!! Then I suggested he come my house lorh. He came then after a while go church.

On the way CH stop then I naik car, Hj cycle to church.

Then went Lynn's house. We lepak there while waiting for her dad to come back to pass to us the card.

Then off to GOLDEN HORSE! hehe. First time going there lorh!

Then swim lorh. After finish, washing up. Walao, jes and lois take so long man!

Me and Lynn like 10 minutes gau tim liao -.-

I bathing time hor. Sudd they pull my towel lerh. -.-ll luckily that time I finshed liao. Haiyo.

Then after that went mcD. Ate burger, nuggets and MCFLURRY!! =)

Then Sir Tan got that 4 secs thingy..Was fun larh. Me and Lynn tried.

Mine 3.5 secs! hehe. Geng lerh.

We all panicked in the van cause of Lynn's hp -.-ll

Then in van Sir say go home study til 2am -.-ll

Haiyo. I where got that rajin xD

I after a while want sleep lorh. Lazy read larh.

Then after I reach home, my dad reach liao.

He bought a few souvenirs for me lorh.

Normal larh.

I happy lorh.

But duno why my gor and mum bo happy eh.

Haiz. Duno what they want larh.

Because of them now my mood ruined liao.

Now I'm tired, sleepy, kinda hungry and upset.

Haiz.

Want go eat and sleep liao.

Tomorrow go school study x_x

Back again =)

Today Sunday hor.

Didn't go for mass -.- ponteng.

Went for SS.

Suppose my mum send me. But want go out Uncle Harry pass my house. So tumpang him.

Reach church, he ask me whether want tumpang home.

I say yea..but he gotta inform my mum.

Cause if not she will come and fetch me.

Just as i expected. He didn't tell her.

I knew something was wrong.

Some more I didn't bring my 'sot sot' hp -.-

From there everything gone wrong d.

Today SS was fun.

NO STUDY!

Only discussion for like one and a half hour xD

Discuss what owh??

Lucky wasn't late for SS.

While waiting for the door to open. Saw Fr Val. Greet him.

My friend say HEY GIRLFRIEND! haha. U rox gurl!

Then from there she got addicted to 'hey gurlfren'

Until go inside class also still with her 'hey gurlfren' xD

Then no opening prayer -.-

Hmm, then Jacky was asking bout the prayer partner thing.

Rufinus didn't know he already have a prayer partner so he ask for a new one xD

So he had 2.

But then A FEW MONKEYS din had people to pray for them.

That time was like 12pm d.

So we did the whole 'picking' thing again -.-

Brig wrote everyone's name then pass the paper bag around.

So I was the last to pick. TYPICAL me!

haha..

So then I was looking for someone nice larh.

Mana tau got no one.

Swts.

Just simply take larh.

Got Marc, okay larh.

Don't mind praying for him.

Then Jacky call out names and ask to tell whose their prayer partner.

Then 12.30pm d.

THE HEADMISTRESS came in xD

haha..not headmistress larh. Just Aunty Sharon.

She ask for volunteers for cleaning of the church before the Eucharistic Congress.

Well, Brig told all of our names. I don't mind larh.

Will be free on next saturday also. So I don't mind helping out. Since it's my church too =) I'm such a guddie guddie gurl! xD

Then the aunty went out.

Another Aunty appear. About the Freaked Out Carnival wan -.-

Jacky say everyone is involved -.-

Well, I got nothing to do on 8th June so okay larh.

Aiyo. Why I like so free de. All also okay wan xD

So she put everyone's name.

I wanna take care of the game booth. Sure damn fun xD

hehe..

Then there she goes walking out.

Okay. Then continue with the discussion.

On 1st of June, we suppose to have an Outreach Activity.

Then they discuss larh.

As usual, I just listen.

Me, Mabel and Francesca were busy with taking pics xD

Laaa..their hp damn canggih wan T.T

Mine damn ciplak!! argh!! JEALOUS!! xD

Then finally, Charmaine say that if we have it on 1st June sure x sempat plan wan.

So heres the good news!! It was posponed!! hehe..damn happy man! Cause on 1st June I got Annual Camp. Then can't go for the outreach programme. I really don't wanna miss it. Especially with my LAST YEAR cathecism class people!

Anyway, the result of THE PICKING!

Me - Marc

Mabel - Francesca (so damn lucky =D)

Francesca - Brigs (lagi lucky!)

Briggita - ALEX!! (ARGH!!!)

Haha...others not important larh =x

So then the outreach activity was posponed to 22nd June. On Father's Day I guess..hmm..

Among places suggested :

-Prison (wud love to go there)

-Erm..de stroke wan..duno wat place.

-De cancer wan..oso duno wat place.

-Retarded children

-Under the bridge (cool man)

-Community service in KL (food!!)

Haha..thats all the places larh.

So 12.25 liao..Closing prayer. . . .Michelle!

Then there I go..following Uncle Harry home. Reach home the door was locked! NO key! Shouted 'AH BOY OPEN THE DOOR!' xD

Then a while later my mum came back. She say 'Next time daddy not around you find your own transport to church arh. Don't ask me to send or fetch you!'

-.-ll

what was wrong with her. Then I say larh, I told Uncle to tell you nerh -.-

Then she was all angry and haiz...

Then I didn't feel like going for cb. Duno why. Sudd no mood -.-

At 3pm I ask my mum whether can go cb or not. She say 'I duno you'

Aiya, don't care her larh. Just go. Before going I chat with HJ. I forgot to tell him got cb -.-ll xD

But he went larh. Why everyone keep saying he emo? He bo emo lorh.

Then after cb, ate Yang geh relative xD

hehe..

Even he says its nice xD

Haha..

Damn no mood now.

=(

Dont believe the time above. Its lying xD

Posted by me at 12.27am on 19th May, monday..wesak day..holiday! sleeping day! xD

' LIVE LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT TO'

Stop, Look And Listen!

Daddy went to Bangkok! Haiz.

On thursday night he ask me whether I want anything from Bangkok. I said NO!

Lolx..Why did I actually said no? Cause I remembered what Angela said bought buying things from other country. That story freaked me out xD

Anyway, didn't buy anything also nevermind. Not that I'm so desperate for something out of Malaysia. Next year I hope to MIGRATE! xD heehee~ Going to Spore would be fun~ I guessss..

Btw, I'm still so addicted to that song 'I still believe'. It's so nice. And thanks to TK for sending it to me. Now I'm listening to it non-stop.

Kay. Todays saturday you know. My dad's not around, so have to walk to BB alone -.-

So that means no church for this week? Hmm..mortal sin though~

Anyway, Sunday session with Fr rite? Omgosh, I keep forgetting what teachers said last few weeks. I still got a few assignments to finish. If this Sunday is session with Fr then I don't wanna finish it xD

I'm so lazy~

xD xD

Btw, now theres this guy that keep complaining to me that he can't get good results for his mid-term exam! Get a life man! Theres no use for you to come to me and just complain. Not that I can help you right. Haiz. If can I also want turn back time. Get back to F1. That's the nicest! xD

With no worries and can have fun everyday. Who wouldn't want right.

Yesterday night my mum ask what I want for breakfast. This morning I woke up at 8 thinking there would be food on the table. I woke up and saw my mum sitting there, reading newspaper. Hmm..so I thought, okay later she will go and buy my breakfast. So then it was 9am. She still sitting down and reading newspaper. Then I go and ask her.

'Mi, what time you going market?'

'Erm, why? What you wanna eat?'

Omgosh, she forgot what I wanted to eat =.=ll

She forgot??!!

Then she told me this morning she woke up damn blurr *I thought I'm the one that is blurr -.-ll*

so she forgot what I wanted to eat -.-

She say she was thinking bout it whole morning..Aiya, sorry mi, I din know you forgot bout it.

Then she ask me what I want. I say I want tosai. Then she say thats all? Then I say no. I want the curry also. Damn lame.

So today my gor went to work. So I get to use the comp. I was using it til my mum comes back from market and found out that my room fan wasn't off -.-

How forgetful I am! Well, she didn't scold. Just stared. It was nothing xD

I'm so bored I have no idea what to do. I think I gotta go call my friend and talk to her. I'm damn bored now. Anyway, 3 days of holiday?? Sleeping days! Heehee~

Pictures that reminds me of yesterday to make a better tomorrow.

Love is sometimes short but friendship last forever!

Be thankful for what you have. Eventhough it is not gold or silver.

The love of people around you is the real gold and silver.

Thank God for everyday.

Even on the busiest day.

And as our life change from whatever,

We will still be friends forever! =)

To all my closest friends out there. Remember that I will always be with you all through night and days, through spring and summer, through winter and autumn.

You are my friends now, and you will always be.

Love ya'll and God bless.

SORE THROAT! Sux big time! T.T

3 days of ham yu killed my throat! Damn it! haiz.
Anyway, its the end of the second exam week! Hooray for that! =D

Trying a new way to blog though. Heehee~
I'm bored of this blog actually. Nothing fun and attractive -.- damn lame man.

Finally decided to upload some images.

This one was taken hmm..during the Award Day in erm..where arh? I forgot..

Anyway, its memories~

Brig, Pavi, Thanu, Shagee and Mie~

Nothing biggy here..Someone was missing! Hema! She was taking the picture..heehee..

Anyway, that day was such a waste of times. Hmm..I get to see some of my primary school friends though. Miss them so much! =D

Btw, lets go back to the main topic. Exams!

I hate exams. Not that I study for it. Just hate it a lot.

Well at least I don't have to carry all those loads with this tiny body of mine.

I love my PJ text book xD Cause it has never been used -.-
It's so damn neat.
Btw, I'm so addicted to this song call 'I still believe' by Hayden Panetteire..She's so pretty, but like what Lynn said, her outfit sux! Well said gurl! haha..

Hmm..today's Teacher's Day right. Well, the first teacher I wished today was Pn Ch'ng. Then Pn Sharifah then later a few more teachers larh. Pn Ron too ^^ Anyway,

Just wanna wish all the teachers Happy Teachers Day!! =)

This saturday is like a SHOPPING day for all of us. Doing shopping for Thanu's birthday party. Man, I really wanna go!!!! T.T But too bad i have BB on that day. *sobs* Brig's mum is sending!! Argh! I wanna sit in her big car!! T.T I miss my one and only chance to go out with Brig! Her mum like ALWAYS doesn't allow her to hang out with us at the mall. Not even at sleepovers! Btw, Lynn I wanna go your house for sleepover again! Or maybe Hem's house. Your houses rox a lot larh. Hope to shift to the new house and then I can jam up and organize my own sleepover party! ^^

So yesterday I chatted on YM with my aunty..I so call 'promised' her that I wil belanja her McD! Thanks to me man! Haiz. She said that my mum gonna belanje us this saturday. Hope its real..heehee..

Kay. So holidays are coming. Gonna get back to all my online games. Before holiday starts I think I gotta settle something. Something really important, and I mean it.

Anyway, holiday plans!! Hope nothing is change! =D

*26 May - Have props I guess..
*27 May - Have props I guess, again xD
*28 May - Out to Sunway with friends! I hope this will not change! Man, I can't wait xD
*29 May - Props again I guess..
*30 ~ 1 June - ANNUAL CAMP! First ever BB camp..hope nothing goes wrong!
*2 June - Sleep! Rest! Eat! Bathe!
*3 ~ Finis holiday - Might be going to Penang for fun -.- My aunty ajak larh...and I miss asam laksa T.T

That's all for my holiday I guess..Haiyo..again no time for friends.
Anyway, MY BIGGEST WISH FOR THE COMING HOLIDAYS AREEE ~~~~

I hope I don't fall sick cause I always fall sick during the holidays and all the plans are ruined! RUINED I SAY RUINED!

It's already 4pm..and I haven't taken my lunch. Well, off to my food now...heehee..

Chiowz!

Posted by me at 4pm on 16th May 2008, friday! =D

So long didn't blog already. Not use to blog already. Don't know what to write. Everyday seem to be too normal. Nothing special. Today is already the 8th day of exam. Another 5 more days. I can't wait for exam to finish. I'm tired of studying and going school to do absolutely nothing. Other than just hanging out with friends during recess just discussing about nearly everything. Starting from this week i rarely open the books and read. Every night its either laptop or TV time. My mum got me addicted to her chinese hong kong dramas. Just because last week i didn't use my hp and asked her to keep my laptop. I can't believe one week could change so much of me. But I think not very long from now I will still be addicted to the internet. Chatting online with friends is way better than staring at the damn TV.
Anway, MY MUM again..got me addicted to salted fish (ham yu) xD
Last sunday she made vege with ham yu. And she said that was the main dish for the say -.-ll
Den monday i stayed back in school, was hoping to study!! Instead end up telling and sharing stories with TK n CM.
Haha. They asked Jean to be the 'saksi' to hear me say that few unreasonable words. It was so lame. Because I said it like 3 to 4 times but Jean was lik sooooo blur! =D
She was like 'she didn't say anything also' xD The blurness of Angela went to her. Haha.
Anyway, that indian girl so 'fai' man!
She so perasan! haha.
Monday was kinda an okay day. Nothing much happened. Except that I came home. Sms a few people. Then when it was 6pm my mum came home. I was just lying down on the floor talking to her when suddenly i fell asleep. After that day, every evening seem to be the same. At 6pm I would just fall on the floor and sleep. xD

K then here comes tuesday. Oh man, I SUCK IN MY BIO PAPER 3!
I can't believe what I've done! Oh Shyt! I'm so gonna make her sad! I don't want her to be sad. Anyway, its all over. No use regreting rite?! So just carry on with my total failure life. Hmm, hoping to get an A for maths, english and also BM. Love BM and maths a lot..i really mean a lot. Don't wanna fail those 2 subs.

So here comes wed. No uniforms today for some special reasons. Hate wearing it though. Haha. Don't know when my mum gonna give me the money to buy the full set. Really love PBSM kawad a lot. But no one is organised enough to take the lead. And I'm not good in shouting. So leave it. Today had EST 1 and also Physics 3. EST was kinda okay. Except for the part they ask the fate of the insect. OMGosh. Die larh, what else. Been eaten up by the plant? Weird man that question. Essay was kinda okay. PHYSICS SUX! Open the paper. I was like 'WTH' . What kind of questions are these. I thought it would be like chemistry 3. I really think among all those paper 3, chemistry was the easiest. You just need to mix and match. xD
I'm not even sure whether I got the experiment right. I'm always doing the wrong experiment. haiz.

Well anyway, I bet with TK something. Erm, he say if i get less than B for Bio then he will do as I say.

That is to hold kat's hand, call her dar and also confess to her! I'm so gonna fail in Bio tomorrow to see that happen!! haha. But if he wins then nothing larh. So i must win. Get below B xD
But still I will try my best to get an A larh. Haha.

Posted by me at 5.07pm on 14th May 2008, wednesday! ^^

Walao, yesterday my msn damn cha lorh the connection. I tried for like 2 hours but couldn't get through! Only got through like 2-3 times nia. After 12am I got fed up. While trying to sign in I made this poem for my mum. I dunno wat I crapped, just simply write something xD Btw, was happy that I was able to finished it. Well I told CM that will post it here. So here it goes..

Dear Mum,

Thank you for bringing me up,

I know you scold and scold til you got fed up,

And I know sometimes you ust wanna give up,

But you know how important it is to bring me up,

I know very well that my stuborn-ness make you very upset,

But I'm trying my best not to make you sad,

I can't control the temper that I have,

So I'm glad that you use the patience that you have,

Your world is my world,

And you know this is real,

I'm sorry for all the wrong things that I've done,

So I hope all the sad feelings in your heart will be gone,

Thank you for treating me as a friend,

And not pushing me to the end,

I know you love me,

And I want you to know that I love you,

I'm sorry that I can't do anything more,

Than to just write you a poem,

So from the bottom of my sincere heart,

I would like to wish you Happy Mother's Day,

And I wish you will be happy every single day!

Saw what I crapped? xD

I was so blank at that moment. I got stuck at line 4 and 8. Haha. But eventually i could continue writing til it reaches line 21.

Kay, after i made thins poem I continue trying to sign in to msn messenger. Haiz. Still can't!

Gave up at 12am and did a card for my mum. Included the poem in it. Finished doing it at 1am. Said goodbye to those I was smsing wit. And tried to sleep. But couldn't. Haiz. So I think i finally fell asleep at 2am. This morning I got up at 7am. I thought my mum got up! But she didn't larh. She was nicely sound asleep in her room. My dad went to the market. So i boiled the water cos my mum wanted to eat half-boiled-egg. So then my dad came home, I asked him how to make de half-boiled-eggs. Since I don't eat it so for what I wanna learn right. Since today is Mother's Day and my mum wanna eat so hafta learn larh. Hmm, then my dad crapped a bit. So fine, I'll follow his advice. Boil the water and pour it into the container. So then my dad go in the room, after a few minutes my mum appears at the kitchen. I was shocked cos how can she wake up so early -.-ll

Haiyo, ruined! breakfast on bed was ruined! Fine, so I asked my mum how to make the eggs larh. She told a totally different thing from my dad. Duh, of cos follow my mum right. She's the expert here xD

So finally did the egg. So here I m blogging everything out. Hmm, anyway I din blog bout what happen yesterday. Uh, well nothing special actually. Just..hmm..a lot special xD

Anyway, I LOVE SIMPLE PLAN! their slow songs rox!

I'm lying down on my bed with the laptop right in front of me listening to Untiltled by Simple Plan! This song rox my world!

I open my eyes

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

I can't remember how

I can't remember why

I'm lyin' here tonight

And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away

No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes got nowhere to run

the night goes on

as I'm fadin' away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screamin'

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I'm slippin' off the edge

I'm hangin' by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No I can't

How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes

got nowhere to run the night goes on

As I'm fadin' away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me?

Well, now I gonna continue with my day. So long for now! ^^

Posted by me at 9.25am on Sunday, May 11th!

Breaking News!

Omgosh I'm finally shifting house. After 2 years I've waited! But now i don't feel like shifting man! I am so sad when I found out that we might be shifting either in June or July.

*Bad effect
-Can't be the food provider for CM and HJ before song practice.
-Can't walk to BB anytime.
-Can't go school with Sheryl anymore T.T
-Gonna miss my BEC members although i don't really attend BEC prayer meets but i still gonna miss them T.T
-Bus fee too expensive.
-Can't walk home from school anymore (the saddest part!)
-Damn far from school.

*Good effect
-If I shift at June or July then maybe I can make a birthday party! xD (house big enough to PARTY!)
-No more crampled room.
-Nearer to my church.
-Near to many friends' house.
-Going to new BEC. Wish to meet more youths there. Hopefully!
-Bigger house!
-I'll make sure i get a new study table and another table for my precious BABY *laptop* xD
-New couches.
-New door knob! mine spoilt since like 2 years ago -.-ll

Well, the good effects are more than bad huh? Hmm...that's weird. Anyway, gonna fix dat bb problem by learning how to ride a motor. Yang not ur idea okay. Thought of it before liao de. The best thing is that My house will be nearer to others. I heard that Wei Seng's house behind my house nia. Haha...

Ok...hmm...5 days of exam pass liao...left erm...8 more days til holiday!! i cant wait!! xD
wat i think bout all de papers? hmm...ONE WORD!! SUXS!! apd new word lerh...haha..
overall i only can do maths, bm n bi..next week bm paper 2 = sei lorh!! i havent read n und all de komsas thingy...
Anyway i promised sumone dat i wil post tis LAME poem i did during chem paper 2...i had too much time til all de words came into my head...its lame..but its a fact!!
so sit back n enjoy xD

THE LAMEST POEM EVER

*wrote tis during chem paper 2 cos was too bored xD

My head was blank I didn't know what to write

My paper was blank I didn't know what to write

I somehow finished my paper

But I didn't check my paper

For whatever I wrote

Is not whatever I want to write

I waited for time to just pass by

And waited for the time for me to die

I read and read so I could understand everything

But to my knowledge today, I don't understand anything

How can you pass when you've never fail

So this time around I finally think I will fail

Language is better than the study of chemical

For I only know what is inhale and exhale

I don't know how i manage to finished it

And now its time for me to eat

Well, at least I still have another two paper await

So til then I have to remember the date

I don't know why i stayed up all night to read about elements

When all i know is how to draw an elephant

EDITED* And I know ths is the lamest poem you've ever known

THANK YOU!! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!! xD

Well, that was lame...right? xD

There is a verse talking about eating because right after chem 2 was the ending of school...and i had to leave school and take a break (eat) and then enter school for pss duty!

that day really suck larh!

CM say want to study end up he was sleeping -.-ll

xD

Kay then the other days all same larh...exam = sux...well, still carrying on my life what...so wth xD

Yay, ate ice cream today!! haha...can't believe an ice cream can make me happy lerh...hehe...

Today a lot happen...
haiz...
First thing woke up in de morning at 6.15...was lepaking in my room xD
got nth to do larh after bathing...lolx...den get prepared for skol larh..got pbsm today...i knew today wasnt gonna b a gud day...but i juz carried on wit it...

So at first everything was juz doin fine...nth unusual...other den CM was eating at Alam Jaya, n i was on my way to skol -.-ll he sumore can so late go worh...den reach liao sumore don wan go up -.-ll
left me alone...i set everythin liao den oni YL wan come up -.-ll
haiz...biao kin larh...
Den after assembly go into own unit...learn kwd today...okok lorh...but after dat learn de history of PBSM...for de Palang Merah wan larh...DEN HERE COMES DE DRAMA!! -.-ll

Pn J was announcing dat every unit BBU hafta prepare a gift for de teachers on Teachers Day...So everyone was being blurr n juz listen to her larh...den when she went n sit down..A told her dat pn R ask to split de gift...one from morning n one more from afternoon larh...den she started shouting at him...walao...i was rite in front man!! dat happens everytime!! haiz...dat day when PSS kena marah oso i was in front!! deng!!
Den Pn J say larh...y u all wanna pisah2kan everything?? har??!! she kip shouting...i felt lik slapping her man...it was all pn R's plan larh...we're juz informing her bout wat pn R say...
Den she say wat larh...u all muz chg ur attitude...den she say ok fine if u all wan pisahkan everything..den she wont include us in de pameran thingy...n also wont register out keahlian at de jabatan...damn her!! PN S is way better den her!! too bad she shifted!! argh!!
den she say larh..ok hari ini guru sebelah pg xde kan...so skarang semua ahli sesi pagi boleh buat apa2 shj..suka hati kamu larh...den she sumore say...ok nota d hadapan ni nota yg disediakan oleh guru sesi petang...so semua nota di depan hanya sesi petang saja boleh salin...all morning session pls stop writing!! walao...she damn....!!! argh!!
Anyway, i don care wat she say larh...v planned to take de PM lik damn long liao...since last year dude!! now don u dare ruin everything u lady!! haiz...
WTH...she say v morning session din contribute....contribute by cutting off ur head larh!!
ishh!!

Sumore wan waste time in de room worh..teacher alredy at de assembly calling PBSM...haiz...
den go APD lepaskan all to CM...duno wat he mumbling there...but i know is command larh xD
haha...
damn glad skol finis after assembly..don wanna look at de damn teacher's face anymore...damn her...
Reach home...watched tv..hmm...den tetido...every sat de couch sure is mine from 11am til 1pm..hehe...either watch tv...slp or polish there...today started polishing at 12 lerh..cos cudnt slp..duno y...felt nervous bout sumthing...but duno wat -.-
polish de belt damn long man...haiz...i think i repeated de same thing lik 4-5 times...haiz...den went BB at 2.30 today...go early better larh...den ask Lynn do haversack for me lerh..i duno y i sudd forgot how to do..haiz...den normal lorh...drill nice xD
get to run...long time bo run liao...lack of stamina...50 pumps juz for laughing?? xD DISCIPLINE MAN!! xD
thnk gudness i was serious during drill xD
walao...ZY ASK ME TO LIE!! rly feel guilty!! confession here i come!! haiz...
den today came bck late...waited for Alicia...Felicia waiting for Alicia 0.o lolx...
haha...when reach home oredi 6.15...suppose to leave hse at 6.30...haiz...aiyoo...my gor arh!! rly gets on my nerves!! i come bck wanna bathe den he go masuk de bathroom!! when im not around he don wanna go bathe...den ok larh...den rush rush rush...btw, i din eat lunch..i only ate one 'yau char kuai'...haiz...drill time tahan gila2 xD
luckily reach church early...ended liao damn hungry...went to neighbour's hse to eat...weird merh??
haha...no larh...cos got baby there full month ma..ma go lorh...hehe..eat a lot lerh xD
den finis lorh...haiz...still em gam sam lerh...stupid stupid stupid!!

*anyway i passed TARGET EXAM!!*
hehe...damn hepi...finally can get one badge from BB...according to anita i got highest!!
followed anson n cm geh footstep!! thx guys!! i mean gals =x

Heres wat Sir wrote for me...

Pte. Felicia Kok

Congratulations, you have completely passed your Target Award!

Thank you for you hardwork and may you receive a lot more awards in the future!

I believe you have a lot of talents in you and you need the courage to use those talents. Do not let pride stop our service to God.

My prayer is that you will grow in character and spirit like Christ, and to lead His kingdom one day.

May God bless you and your family!

Sincerely,

LT. TAN CHEE HONG!!! xD

Wah, today a lot happen...both hepi n sad...lolx..
lets start from de time i wake up..
Hmm...
woke up at 7.40...get ready for church den bertolak at 8.45...wah, damn sleepy lerh...ytd nite cudnt slp...cos de weather too hot liao...haiz...
biasa larh...no aircond...too miskin liao =x
Mass started at 9.15 n ended at i duno wat time...din bother to look at de time...den straight went to peel road to eat yong tau fu...not i suggested ok...my dad...n he blamed me for it...juz cos naik harga liao -.-ll
On de way home...v were juz toking in de car...my gor say when he reach home...he wanna juz sleep den evening go play bsb...so i asked him larh...where he gonna play...he said sumhing lik...Wen Ya or sumthing...i cudnt und wat he said so i ask 'huh?' larh...den he repeat...den i say huh again xD
wah, it happen lik for more den 3 times xD
haha...
den sudd my mum started laughing -.-ll
den i oso rasa pelik..so asked her larh..y??
she say u 2 very funny larh...huh?? funny?? wats so funny??
WEIRD!!
den she say larh...one say wen ya...one say huh...lolx..
duno larh..she say damn funny xD

Den reach home liao...mum n dad went to de laundry to do sumthing...gor go in his room play comp lorh...me?? as usual lorh...went in my room, on de laptop...went online...chat wit dar xD
until around 4pm i think...den sleepy liao...slp...ngam ngam hou my parents came bck...yer..they at 'chong' din call me oso T.T haiz..

When i woke up..i rasa pelik larh...y everyone outside so bising wan...den i went out wit a blurr face...asking my mum wat happen...den i saw de tree outside lik botak liao de...den i rasa LAGI PELIK!! lolx...rupa-rupanya dat day when de 'astro man' came to do de astro thingy he say de tree blocking de satelite signal!! BULLSHYT MAN!! wasted de damn tree!! i feel so sori for de tree -.-ll den my mum called up de astro guy..he say if he come again n do he wil charge rm50!! zadao!!
den my mum say nvm...v wil fix it ourselve...walao..when my mum was tokin on de fon n i was standing bside her...sudd my bro screamed from outside...i thought he cut himself -.-ll lameee...
lolx
rupa-rupanya my dad go lepaskan de branches on my bro's leg...yerr...kesian my gor!! T.T
den i so lazy to look at them cut or even fixing de astro dish larh...i saw de pc in my gor's room on..so i go use larh..since can on 2 windows messenger ma...so i was chatting wit cm...n here comes de drama...

'AH GIRL ARH!!'
'COME HELP US LARH!!'
'HELP US C WHETHER DE TV CAN WATCH BO'

so here m i running to de living room...haiz...juz looking at de tv -.-ll
den can liao...so i went bck into de room..thought i can cont chattin..den here it happens again..

'AH GIRL ARH!!'
'COME HELP US!!'
'HELP US C DE SATELITE SIGNAL!!'

aiyoo...nvm...juz sabar je...den go lorh...click click click..ok liao...soo..went into de room again...
den it happen AGAIN!!

'AH GIRL ARH!!'
'COME HELP US ARH!!'
'HELP US CLEAR ALL DE BRANCHES!!'

haiiiizzz....so i went again...to clear de branches!! damn lame man!!
haiz...my dad larh...haiz..oways calling me to do all de workkk...
haiz...
den after finis everything...today my mum took back an old printer...so v tested it at my laptop...tis TREASURE im using xD
test test test...my dad duno how to install cos don have de cd...so went online to find...so installed d...plan to go to lm...to buy mcD ice-cream...cos today labour day...got discount...one ice-cream, rm0.50...hmm...my mum larh...
den ok lorh...go lm rite...buy mai my calculator larh...
my dad was sooooo delaying all de time larh...he wanna do tis n dat -.-ll
so v left my hse at 8.30...wah damn late...
den str8 go Popular bookshop...buy calculator...saw Wei Yeen..my dad was so worried i wil buy de wrong calculator n waste his money -.-ll so i ask Wei Yeen lorh whether its de rite wan..haiz...
bought correction tape, pencil lead n calculator...walao..rm6+ nerh...
den went to c de cartridge...my dad say too exp...not worth it..sumore dat wan old printer...my mum say later buy new wan...
den went n look for hp -.-ll boring part...cos not looking for mine oso...my dad n bro wanna buy new wan...
aiya..knew it...sure wont buy de larh...so went to mcD...wooohooo!!
bought cheeseburger n mcflurry oreo for me!! mcChicken value meal n sundae strawberry for my bro...n 2 sundae cone for my dad n mum...
went home...eat eat eat lorh...hehe...damn hepi lerh!!
but too bad i havent finis my hw..now gotta do it!! haiz...

APA PUNYE HOLIDAY INI?? WHOLE DAY SO BZ!! haiz....

HAiz...again wit de memory lost thingy larh!!
Lets c.....hmm...
Woke up lik normal...go up bus damn semangat but slp -.-
terlalu biasa liao xD
reach skol liao go apd...erm...den start assembly...pn kamarizai gave sweets?? 0.o ??
lolx...
MIC CACAT!! haiz...wat larh...after dismizz....
Den after dismizz bio..din wanna miz bio..go call KEX...den he settled everything larh...i went for bio...haha..i und wat de teacher was teaching!! hooorraaaayyy to me!!! xD
after bio..went eng...okok larh...teacher juz ask to read...DE ARTICLE WAS ABOUT PIMPLES -.-ll
den during recess...me, hem, ang, gin n ky sit at de red carpet n tok tok tok BOUT FOOD!! xD
haha...
den start eng again -.-
den est..hehe...no teacher...i was doing...ermmm...eng??? 0.o
haha...do eng worh??!!
den Bm teacher came in lorh..she teach how to do de format thing all...den rumusan oso...kinda sien larh...den she ask me for de krngn paper!! cm!! haiz...

Bell rang...FIND CM!! ppl say he at padang..i fast fast go padang find him...NO PPL THERE!! -.-ll
Den kip asking around lorh...MANA CM???!!
lolx...den saw him..ask for de krngn...rush to blk ketua bidang..take de krngn...run to bilik guru...gave pn melati de paper...den run out of skol...ginny was suppose to get de place at de chinese shop -.-ll
when i went out she wasnt even there yet...nvm lorh..me, hem, shagee n pavi sat there...eat...den wan go liao den oni gin, ang n ky came to de shop...
den go to pss...din do much oso larh..uruskan de money stuffs...hmm...den went n c de rocket lorh...den had netball..had a short game..teacher say who win get present worh...my group won!! OBVIOUSLY!! =x
haha...no larh...juz so ngam v won larh...5-4
den wait for sheryl lorh...while watching rocket...
Den go home liao...online...sien...walk outside...slp xD
aiyoo...y today damn normal de?? sien lorh..

Decided to blog early today...
cos i have to much in my mind..don wanna kip it til tonite...
now muz empty my mind to refill it up tonite...haha..
k...NAVEIN IS CALLED BARBEQUE LIPS!! xD
HEres wat happen...
today at ketua bidang..me, irfanah n brig were juz hanging out...obviously brig was looking for her 'ehem' n irfanah was looking for her 'ehem' too...haiz...they r sooo desperate!! -.-
den v saw brig's 'ehem'...so she say here come my hot sumthing..i forgot...den saw irfanah's 'ehem' den brig say there irfanah, ur steaming sumthing...haiz..i forgot...den i say ur barbeque ribs..i have no idea y i said dat...den irfanah 'huh??' lolx...den brig say..wat? barbeque pigs?? irfanah tot i said barbeque LIPS!! den me n brig were looking at each other n both said NAVEIN together xD
dats how navein's nick was created!! xD

K den class started...maths bored...sj sumore boring...b4 teacher entered class brig was telling tis ROMANTIC STORY!!
its rely romantic!!
Heres how it goes...
Theres tis guy n gal who is having their one year COUPLE anivesary...FYI, not even married yet...
de gal din know wat to buy for de guy larh..so she juz bought a normal t-shirt...thinking dat de guy wil mayb do de same thing too...so here comes their anivesary nite...de guy took de gal out for dinner at de hollywood restaurant...so when it was desert time...de waiter came wit hand full of roses, a card n also a small cake if im not mistaken...den when de gal look at de roses, she found a ring inside...de guy stood up, took de ring out n knelt down...in front of de public...he told her 'pls forgive me for all de wrong things i've done...I love u very much n i wanna b wit u forever'...i guess everyone gave him a big hand...haha...its so sweet larh...n guess wat...de gal is now f5 n de guy is only 19 -.-
they r not even getting married yet...
n de gal felt embarassed cos she only gave him a t-shirt while de guy gave her so many things...his dad even gave her a few blouses...such a sweet guy!!

Den cont wit no pj...recess...bm...no addmaths...n miz a part of physics!! T.T all bcos of de pbsm thingy larh...thank gudnezz i don need to go for it -.-
den go home...waited for de bus damn long..til lik 2.15 -.-ll
rupa-rupanye both de back tires punctured -.-ll
no wonder larh so damn late..haiz...uncle, go tukar bus larh!! damn old liao de bus...

Come home late...NO LUNCH!!
haiz...everytime i don stay bck my mum wont cook..when i stay bck she cook -.-ll

27th APRIL!! Kinda a nice day for me!! memorable..don wanna tell y yet...later on u all wil know xD
haha...
hmm...
today 28th liao hor...haiz...exam coming lorh...sudd so semangat wan study!! xD
actuali gud oso larh...at least i have de mood to study n mayb pass my exams wit flying colours...
weyh brigs!! ur virus spread to me lerh -.-ll ur spelling probs larh...
Today had fun in skol!!
First go skol do apd...haiz...kex damn blurr lerh...duno wait for wat...JY again din come up!! i wanna kill him liao!! argh!!
Den after dat was english...sien arh...me n hem kip laughing...de bad thing bout it issss....after v laugh liao v cant write!! duno y larh...when genggam de pencil felt funny at de tapak tgn -.-ll
i know its weird...both of us so damn similar xD
Den after dat maths...haiz...teacher taught how to draw graphs b4 liao larh...how can i forget -.- make her angry nia xD
Den after dat was umm...sj...first open de buk damn semangat...den slowly slowly eyes closing xD
sumore i sit in front teacher...siao larh...
Rehat!! hehe...curi hem n lynn's food xD
Den sumore got canteen buy foodd!! wah i eat a lot xD
but not pao oso...haiz...
den chem...teacher gave sum tips on wats coming out xD
walao...come to think of it...phy, chem, bio all 3 papers nerh!! T.T duno how to pass!! fail ez nia xD
Den BM...yay!! get small n cute note buk!! APPLE!! hehe...yer, hem wan so nice lerh...she oways get all de nice nice de T.T
haha...nvm larh...wah, me, brig, pavi n hem get..hehe...
Aiyo...cm's fault larh i din hand in de krngn!! =x
haha...no larh...haiz...my dad's fault larh...din buy printer!!
Den moral..bo teacher...cm all go launch rocket sampai stuck on de roof...walao...de pipe stuck on de roof -.-ll
haha...cm say when rain den sure leak into de bengkel -.-
play sumore larh...c lost 1/4 of de rocket liao xD
all go lepak at pss during moral xD
Shagee found a few dumb jokes!! but funny man!!

Aiya, i lazy write larh...wan c de joke go ps read up larh xD
haha...i whole day sit at ps read buk nerh!! so khan lek!! xD
no larh...all read useless buk wan...haha...at least i got read rite...
Den come bck lorh after tugas...wanted to slp but i thought...if now slp den tonite canot slp...den don wan slp lorh...started doing revision..ADDMATHS nerh!! ishh...so nerdy!! xD

Today i tumpang cm's car home...his dad say don walk alone...
Last year i wanted to quit ps bcos of dat matter larh...i din had transport so i wanted to quit...write letter all d...hand it to teacher liao de...den teacher gave some lecture...
my reason was dat my parents don let me take de risk of taking public bus everytime i had to stay bck for duty...den de teacher say larh...if everyone wud to think lik u...everyday, everyone wil stay at home...no one wil b daring enuf to walk out of their houses..den i tot of it...den i tot dat wat she said was rite larh...everywhere in tis world is not save...u can even get rob rite in front of ur hse front gate!! correct or not...haha..
I always blieve dat God sent his Guardian Angel to protect every single man on Earth...if God rly wan u to die..u cant stop it...
So y not take a risk??
Blieve dat God wil always protect u from any danger or evil...de more u blieve in him..de more secured u wil feel...haha...
i damn hepi today!! duno y...

Today had SS...
I was suppose to wake up early to wash my hair today...
k 1st i woke up at 9am...my mum washing clothes...so i slpt back...
den woke up at 930am..she still washing clothes...den slpt back -.-
den wake up at 10am...canot wait liao...muz go bathe d..haha..
bathe liao...den eat...COOKIES!! hehe..
wah, today damn sleepy lerh...SS time lik wanna slp d...sumore today session damn sien wan...duno wat de teacher say oso...i only know de last part is next week de session is wit Fr Andrew...he ask to go read up on Baptism n Confirmation...
sumore i din do last week's hw...i forgot everything lerh...damn it larh...
Wat m i suppose to do arh??
hmm..nicene creed, wat de Eucharist means to me...hmm...de phrase i did jorh...need teacher to confirm nia...den sumore wat arh??
dats all gua...

Came bck at 1245pm...haiz...damn sleepy nerh...Hp bo credit liao T.T
sori to those whom i din reply...
den came online...til lik 5 sumthing den too sleepy le...terus slp xD
at 6 i woke up n off de laptop rite in front of me xD
den cont sleeping...til lik 7 sumthing...y i woke up???!
there, dat noob sms me lorh -.-ll
de hp so bising...haha...den bathe n eat lorh...yer, today's dinner not sedap wan T.T
i need to find some gud food larh...

Haiz...i still got essay to do...lazy nerh!!

Hmmm...
hehe...went for physics extra classssss!! =D
At last i und sumthing -.-
after extra class makan nasi lemak!! xD
haha...
den on pc..yay!! sang a few songs...all i have n also when it all falls apart...damn nice larh dat 2 songs...haha...
den polish polish polish!!!
i used de toothbrush!! din work larh....haiz...

I duno y today i get redy for BB damn early...damn nervous bout both fellowship n also exam..haiz...
sing time canot hear my voice?? hmm...rely??
haiz...got dat soft merh??
Haiz...nvm larh...

EXAM!!
Aiyo...of all de words i spelt SERGEANT wrong!! T.T
first i put sergeant de...den i stupidly go chg -.-ll
Other den dat all ok larh...

After dizmiz...str8 rush home...again, no time to sit...go bathe...no time to eat...take de food into de car...ate a few cookies...den tertido in car xD
den reach liao...
today mass quite nice larh...not dat boring...
thx for Fr. Eddy Rayappan!! go Fr!!

Den after dat go Giant shopping again -.-ll
tis time buy cookies !! hehe...
den go buy food...yer dat char kuey tiow damn yucks larh..not lat n soooo tasteless!!
dats all lorh for today..nth nice larh...damn sien wan...gotta find dat phrase!! where to find?? haiz..

FIRST AND FORMOST!! I WANNA WISH VANESSA HAPPY SWEET 16th!! =D

Well...according to my frens in skol...they say they planned a burfday party for her...well i werent there larh...duh!! i said according to my frens!! xD
So hmm...went skol early in de morning lik normal lorh...
den help angkat all de things...den went pss...yorr...class teacher ask to find all de marks...haiz...
den after dat go bck class...study lorh...de sien part -.-
den go ponteng again!! xD
go apd...lepak2...walao...ha mi su wa em zhai lu lang uh zo party dua Lab ha peng eh...bo lang ka wa kong...shuen lorh all lik dat de...haiz...
em song lorh...den me n mana juz buy de popcorn n gave it to VANESSA!! lolx...
she was pretty hepi wit it!! dang, dat feels gud!!
haha...
YES!! tmr got extra class for physics!! wooohhhoooo!! xD
haha...
den after skol walk home...c han chin =D
den go home...eat maggi mee -.-
den go sd...n also song practice...wah, today no mood chiong go...sien dao...zzz
everyone lik xde semangat nia...last week damn nice larh....
den go home lorh...
i dun know y everytime walking home from BB sure take damn long time de worh...
walk there time take below 5 min...i walk home time more den 10 min -.-ll
haha..
i walk damn damn damn slow de...

Haiz...
sori for de late update...
actually i wrote my blog dat day...
but de internet sot sot so din post...

*tears running down my face*
I duno whether its exhaustion or wat...
I juz feel so down...these few days...actually i think its from monday....i juz have no idea wth is happening to me!!

sumthing rely brought me down today isss...
during bm, teacher ask me to take bck my karangan buk n type it n print out...she ask me to stick at de back of de class n she told de whole class to read it...n she say she wanna fotostat n pass it to de other classes dat she is teaching...haiz...
N U THINK IM HAPPY FOR DAT??
yea..actually im happy...but it reminds me of de first exam of de year...wat happen??
heres wat happen...well i got an A for my BM...while most of my classmates got B or sumthing else larh...n wat i heard was....'ALARH, LAST YEAR PN MELATI TAUGHT HER CLASS BM SURE PN MELATI WIL GIV HER HIGHMARKS DE LARH!!'
zadao...i rly hated dat!! i cant blieve those words came out from my own frens' mouth...
haiz....
im going tru so much of stress now i duno where i am on earth!!
wat am i suppose to do next??
where did my self-esteem went??
haiz...
juz sitting n listening to songs make me cry....
afraid to fail my parents n teachers!!
they look up on me!!
how m i suppose to face them if i fail in any of my midterm test??

Now i can rely c whose de real frens n de fake frens....
fake frens r those who leave u bhind n don take a damn wat happens to u after they leave u...
they don even bother to look bck n c whether u r following bhind them...
they juz walk off wit their new found frens...
when u ask them to do sumthing...they do it hafway n leave de rest for u...
when u get scolding...they juz leave u not even bothered to stay n get de scolding wit u...
not lending a hand when u need them...
not being there when u cry or in trouble...

While real frens....
try de hardest to cheer u up...
they don wanna c u sad...
don wanna c u cry...
even if they hafta b a dumb clown....they try to make u laugh...
they stand bside u juz to lend a hand when u need it...
always walking bside u...nvr in front or behind...
they wil never leave u behind...


Sumhow...i think i found a fren lik dat....
sumone dat wil always b there when im down...nvr leaving me behind...


Im juz so exhausted larh...i don wanna do anything...i havent even started doing revision...too many things to do...n also to read T.T


lazy to write larh....

Luckily v got it done today!!
erm...did they lik finis it??
haiyoo...im so wori dat it wont finis larh...yorrr...
ytd called lik so damn many ppl...all also say bz larh...got other things to do larh!!
wasting my damn credit jek...
end up only me, mana n irfanah...wats de point??!!
its a group work larh!!
i alredy say x cukup kaki tgn...wth, no one wanna help??!!
haiz...
fine larh...b dat way...next time got anything v not gonna include u all...
sumore got 2 ppl juz come in ps den juz look den terus belah!!
walao...ppl ask to help u juz look...u help by looking merh?? -.-ll
rly damn angry lorh...haiz...if u don wan help better not come lorh...u show ur damn face den u juz walk away...damn u!!
den who de heck go n stick GREEN color salotape??!! haiz...
buat ssh us je...muz go restick black wan on top of it!!
haiz...
Sumore belum finis alredy rush home...i rly wanna thank mana, irfanah n shagee for helping larh...haiz...others sooooo ...!!! argh!!
geramnye!!

Wooo....Lynn came to my hse today!! hehe...had fun polishing together...omgosh...aiyoo...
how to say it..
i duno how to polish my boots larh xD
juz use water nia...but still so shiny xD
was kinda late for BB today...but y larh...everytime i go at tis time sure start parade liao de...but today so late de...kk nvm...den as usual lorh...stand bside mel..i hope he c me tis time...last week he say he din c me...n i was standing next to him -.-
saw sir tan checkin all de loose thread b4 parade..faster faster go cut...
malangnye missed one thread!!
kene pump 5 kali!! haha...eh i damn lil liao lerh...walao, anita kene 25 times???!!
haiz...floyd 40 times??!
den sing sing sing xD
ppl say i sing damn loud..omgosh so malu *blushing* xD
haha..
but i cant hear anything xD
i only hear de musics nia...cant hear anyone singing oso...
den after dat bible class...hmm...wat did v learn arh??
sumthing bout de good tree bear gud fruit de...yesh, correct!! xD
den after dat revision....more lik sir giving all de tips for exam -.-
haha...yorr...passing mark 80??
walao...i scared i fail nerh...
can pass gua...hmm...
den drill...no comment...KENA PUMP BANYAK KALI!! xD
haha...
yorr!! din go mass shud come n fetch me late marh... yorr!!
den i can hang out in BB longer...yorr!!
haiz...
den come home liao so hungry lerh...actually during bible class oso hungry liao de...
cos de char kuey tiow not nice...so eat lil bit nia...
den go shopping hunt for de junkfood...
dats all lorh for today...nth much...
n i forgot dat i have hw!!
haiz...

Ok...
lets c...
hmm..
Aiyo...during skol time...oways walk here n there...haiz...
DE YELLOW CARD LARH!!
masalah oni...
den after skol stay bck AGAIN!!
tis time damn fun!!
PSS meeting...teacher was damn pissed off...i have no idea y!!
Aiyoo...y muz my name b in so many list??
perasmian n apd??
ok larh...at least i have time to do both...
but meetings at de same time??
how m i suppose to split myself into 2 to attend both meetings?? xD
haha...
den at last pn juraiza ask me to go apd meeting..
pn sakinah was talking to me hafway eh...haiz...
but in de end i helped both teachers do sumthing larh xD
hehe...
Hmm...
Aiyo....reports...reports....yay!! tmr do experiment xD
no nid study...woohoo!!

Hmm....i cant rely rmmbr wat happened today...
hmm...STM xD
haha...
aiyoo...
wat happened today????!!
K wait...erm went skol...k its coming bck to me...aha....den take de damn BKK...sumthing stupid happened...dun wanna tok bout it...its so damn stupid...aha.. xD
aha....hmm...den erm...today pn nooraini's bdae...HEPI BURFDAY MAM!! xD
so hmm...after maths was sj....i hate sj anyway...its so damn boring...eventhough de teacher's nice...juz opening de damn book make me slp xD
den after dat was PJ...erm...actually was nth...haha...den RECESS!! my fav subject...no wait...my fav subs if BALIK xD
den after dat was Bm....bm is ALWAYS, i repeat, ALWAYS fun...nvr boring unless its some useless presentation for komsas from some groups...
so den after dat was addmaths...yea, it was kinda fun oso...den physics...my other fav masa!! xD
altho i don und a thing...but i still enjoy entering physics lab xD

After phy was balik...i din get to balik tho...stayed bck for pbsm meeting...haiz...
Soooo......
erm....
nth much happened larh...
i thought of sumthing dat happened juz now b4 i write tis...but unfortunately i forgot xD
aiyoo...i hafta rush n finis tis damn moral module larh...its so damn lame!! T.T

K lets c wat i did today...
hmm...
Morning go skol lorh...
I TOLD irfanah be at skol BY 7am!!
Haiyo...went there bo ppl de....den she came at 7.15!! zadao!!
den...waited for pn noorsiah daud...she oso came at 7.20...y everyone so not punctual wan!!
aiyo...den hor...uruskan all de mic thing liao hor...APA I LUPE???
de damn songs!! haiz....
i totally forgot bout it...aiyo feel damn guilty larh...
but teacher say nvm larh...so fine lorh...nvm lorh...
Den din go for all de pbsm activities...walk around skol lik org gila...first take de paint...den find de broom...den find de pengikir or is it pengikis??!! haiyo...en zafran is soooo funny!! wakaka...
Den after dat did de mural...first scrap off de paint...was scrapping den sudd all de ANTS came out...yerrr...so damn geli man!! i kept jumping up n down lik crazy monkey!! xD
den after dat nth happen liao...den went mamak to buy food...ishh...dumbass there...ask to belanja pula...
-.-

Den came home at 11am lorh...i eat...til lik 12 xD
den watch tv til tetido...haha...den...erm don wan tell larh...
lolx...
den at 240 went BB...yerrr...kene tukar sq!! T.T
im missing sq 4...lynn, jess!! miss lerh...haiz....
den today got COOKING test!! haha...sir say mine nice!! wakaka...Josiah ate mine btw...den got song exam lorh...yerr...singing time damn nervous til wrong..everyone laugh...damn 'yu'!! T.T
haiz...but nvm larh...write time can ma enuf lorh xD
den went home at 615...missed sq activity again!!
haiyo...
erm..hmm...hw.....haiz..duno how to do eh...

Den went for mass....came bck at 8 sumthing...eat...den now online lorh...nth much larh..tmr going uncle's hse...duno got wat to do...haiz...

T.T

too many things to do...too little time!!
i duno how eh....
EXAM coming le....havent study a bit....as i've said b4...bio n sj still damn slow for me...havent have time to go tru it T.T

Lets list down all de things i nid to complete in tis month....

1. Get de APD key tis sat...from pn noorsieh daud...havent figured out who is dat...hmm..
2. Minggu PSS....tugas on monday....n also de FOOD!! ^^ Eventhough its my fav but not for me de...humph!! n also explorerace larh...
3. Finish de APD tugasan board...
4. Finish moral 3 more tugasan harian...
5. PBSM...menguasai all de first aid thing...well, im de ketua...gotta teach ppl okay!! xD
6. Drama props...gotta finish it tis month...next month exam lerh...
7. Read BB handbook til finis...eventhough i read it...but forgot le...
8. Netball....REMEMBER to kutip de yuran larh doink!! xD
9. Try to menguasai BIO, SJ, ADDMATHS, CHEM n also PHYSICs!! i rely suck in it...

other den dat...i have a job...a rely how to say...not unimportant job...sukarela-ly i voluntered!! damn it...hafta take de kedatangan for all those who wear full U on every wed!! haiz...

I duno whether i wil have enough time to rely concentrate on my studies or not...now oso flunking all my test d...haiz...
n its not even following de SPM format T.T
rely gotta get loose from all these things!!

Everything in tis world is happening so fast dat i don even realise it passing...
I don rely get from wat i go through...haiz...
theres so much to say!! i duno where to begin...haha...

1. KES BULI!!
-HTK, MCM, NKC, NBJ buli FKJP!! HATE HATE HATE!! but fun oso xD

2. KES CHAKI!!
-DAMN NICE!! lolx...awww....i had a thanks in return for my gudnezz!! I cant blieve she chged target...so lame man....A is better den M...lolx...HEM, i agree wit u!! xD

3. PBSM!!
-FUN!! FILL WIT ADVENTURE!! n also charisma training!! woohoo, i can teach!! haha...RELI!! i can teach!! thought them HEIMLICH MANUVER, all de kes-kes n also recovery position...i wanna teach CPR xD i taught trasportation oso...sori BJ i hurt ur MY xD
she go hit her head on de floor lolx...

4. Lit..
-Yesh!! gonna giv in my poem!! yay!! lolx...finally!!

5.Career..
-Hafta chg my target after SPM...canot hse wife anymore...pn muhairene teach dat every single woman is tis world hafta have their own career...nvr depend on HUSBANDs....nvr bergantung on guys...YESH!! xD
anyway, im juz thinking twice...mayb 3 times nia xD


wat do u think of....when a guy likes a gurl elder den him???
i think its so weird larh...haiz...
anyway, leave it larh...im bored of handling all these stuffs larh...N IM NOT GUD IN IT!! honestly...i always screw everything up n end up depressed lik hell for nth...damn it!!

6. Studies!!
-cant catch up in BIO n Sj!! haiz...2 stupid subs...actually bio is nice larh...but sj is juz a waste of time...

7.Family..
-everything going smoothly...nth's up....everything's calm...

Other den dat nth's up larh...i got so many things in my mind but when im writing tis everything juz go under de brain n hide...nth seem to b clear...haiz...

I rely think my life is getting fun n more excitement...relly getting tru everything dat doesnt relly matters much...juz getting on wit my normal yet unique life!! xD
^^

Hehe...cut hair jorh...
de first time...cutting hair in skol....n sumore in de dark!! =D
damn funny larh....de hairstylist damn cute!! actually is both ok...not de anime guy only...
^^
Mine is sweet...lolx...
haha....
but de result = same lik last time oni...juz bhind short...so wats de diff?? nth...lolx...
haha...but damn fun larh today...missed de bus...got on sheryl's bus den sudd bus came -.-
den stop at de traffic lite n switch bus...so lame...

wow....damn tired!!
Today had fun...yay!!
Morning SS...aiyo...Jacky made us sit wit de guys...well Benjamin is okayyy...lolx..
But de group is ssssoooo dead!! haha...
ok nvm.....wats wit de meet u in HUKM??? weird larh all those ppl xD
moving on....erm....after dat went to carrefour...hmm...bought some nice things for me!! hehe...drinks!! xD
den had netball!! AT MONT KIARA!! wow...dat was rely rely rely fun...met new frens...Shabita n Trishna...i kip forgetting Shabita's name tho!! xD
haha....bcame GA today...
wow...all entered!! argh...damn hepi xD
haiyo...now m bck home...findin time to finis all those nonsense (homeworks xD )
haha...

CAUGHT RED-HANDED!!!

Haiz.. i duno wat to say...no comment at all...not surprise oso!! haiz...
He's such a freak larh...can't he juz grow up to b a normal kid lik me xD
haiz...y muz he do sumthing dat hurt others' feelings??? dont he know dat de world loves him n he shud love de world back?? instead he spoils himself..!!
don he know dat others care bout him a lot???!!
wth is wrong wit him???
argh!!
I duno wat m i suppose to do....
Can i juz let it b??
It's a waste dat he's de opposite if me....
He oways complain dat i get everything n he's left with nth...wake up boii....u r de one getting everything n im de one being left behind!! grow up larh!! u r more important to them den me...im juz lucky to b smart n getting all de attention cos u r not...
U R smart....juz dat u r not showing it...n u r not using it to gain attention...instead u think of all stupid things to get attention from them....
is getting a warning letter better den getting a slip with str8 A's???
It's sad to know dat all de relationship between us b4 is finally wearing offf....
v use to b so close dat v talk to each other every single second...i rely miz dat time...i know v r growing older each second, day n year... but its just not fair dat i care bout u n u don take a damn bout me...
I rely wish dat one day u wud get out from ur own world n face reality n know dat education is way more important den entertainment!!
i know im juz wasting my time being concern bout u when u juz wont chg...not even a bit...
i know dat u don know dat im concern n sumtimes i juz cry for u....
y is it so hard for u to und dat everyone is concern bout u???!!

Haiz...
i duno larh wat to do...

Anyway, watched de movie music and lyrics...nice larh...
nth to do...damn bored...a lot of hw to do!! T.T

Great escape!! xD
Today i knew sumthing was wrong larh...
All wear baju pj wan diminta stay in tapak perhimpunan...there...sure lecture wan...
saw pn kama...ask her to hide us...us(brigs n me)...so v follow her up to 5 progre...lolx...hide for a while nia...den go down apd bck...walao..i nearly cried!! pn kama came down n say dat miss maha gonna send all those nvr bring skol U bck home xD
Brig faster faster chged her skol U...den i sesat...
v juz walk..she blocked me...den walk bck to class...i duno whether they got kene surat saman bo...aiyo...i got no mood to tok bout tis larh...

Today quarreled wit dat stupid KY...
he's so dumb lar....


k lets chg...
Is frenship more important den gf or bf??
Duh, of cos larh....
I hate u i hate u...i rely hate u...
bcos of her u r treating me lik dat...
wat do u think i am??
ur mangsa??
when she gets angry u ask me to tham her..n u put de blame on me?? wth??
who do u think i am??
ur kuli or wat??
even my mum doesnt do dat larh...
chg ur attitude larh come on...
Wheres ur commitment?? life isnt only bout love larh...
u think u r de only one falling in love n de world becomes urs arh??
think larh...its reality larh...in heaven u all can live happily ever after larh...but now u got a lot of work to do...

Anyway, lets move to de hepi part...
en zafran having extra class!!! haha....
lolx...
haiz...so many reports to do...so little time...
T.T
f4 is hectic larh!!

Juz woke up from my precious nap!! hehe...after a long time dis is de only time i get to take naps in de evening..argh....my presious nap!! xD
Came bck from skol, chg clothes, terus baring n zzzzzzz!!!! haha...

Had de weirdest dream...dadadada... xD
I sms my fren name D one nite...simply asking D wat u doin, trying to start de conversation xD
den D was lik...im chattin wit P...den i ask larh wat u all chattin bout...den he say larh...'eh don wan chat larh, im arguing wit P bout sumthing...damn fun...not lik chattin wit u...v nvr fite bout anything wan...damn sien..bye' walao...damn hurt!! xD
haiz...
ANYWAY, i cant blieve im dreaming bout sms!! Im a freak!! wakaka...

Btw, i slpt at 0245pm if im not mistaken...den i sudd woke up at 0532pm...I RARELY TAKE NAPS IN DE EVENING!!! I REPEAT!! lolx....so den i look out de window...which is at de dining room n i saw bright lite...i mean de sky was bright larh...all sunny...so i thought i was late for skol..i was lik, SHYT, im late AGAIN!! i was late many times d FYI...so i reach out for de small clock beside my pillow n look at de time...de small clock shows 0532....hmm...i was thinking, how can 5 sumthing in de morning b so bright....so den i try to figure out...i look at de clock again...owh, it's written there PM bside de numbers -.-ll den to confirm i looked at my clothes!! xD
wah, i was damn blurr larh...so woke up n open de gate lorh...
tis time when i was sleeping, i was lik dead...i cudnt feel anything...de way i slp was de way i woke up...WEIRD!! TOTALLY!!

k lets get over to other things, shall v....Haha...
today did 2 experiments in skol!! yay!! fun larh...at least no need to study xD
experiments r fun....but de bad part is v need to do reports...haiz...IRRITATING!!
BM teacher din come today!! kaka....nvr do karangan...dats y larh i hepi =x

Ehh, wait!! i rmmbr y i sudd woke up...dat zi en larh sms me...got nth else to do...haha...jkjk...he sms me...had vibration...cos i put my hp at de side of my pillow...wit a soft toy, de small clock n my mp3..hehe...so i woke up larh xD

Anyway, our skol drama team wont!! But v left de pole in de bus!! sad....lolx...nth much larh...

Sumore, EST folio done...HEPI!! =D

*y is de monitor screen turning yellow?? ouch, it hurts my eyes!!*

Hungry larh...today i din eat lunch...got nth to eat n i was damn tired...so i skipped lunch..hehe...
k...hmm...i think dats all rite...I MISS PHYSICS!! xD xD
haha...

Wah nowadays after 5 days den only update blog..haiz...
everyday...its either no time...or too exhausted....
not bcos of too much hw...i duno wth am i doin larh...sumhow im bz...hehe ^^

Hmm...lets do some reviews...hehe...
Last thursday wasnt a holiday for me!! Hafta wake up early morning to go for netball frenly match in HFK church....haiz...wow!! v won against them larh!! NICE!! hehe...
den after dat was SLEEP!! my hobby!! til lik 4pm den went out wit parents..came bck den went church at 630pm....
De next day was friday....hmm...took de RM200!! yay!! had fun doing props...but was damn sleepy dat time...den went for service...ehem....*simplay coughing* xD
Den here comes saturday!! My fav day of de week!! Morning erm...was...all comp....den was BB...rely had fun...games...AND ALSO GOT UNIFORM!! hehe...BUT BUT BUT i spent almost RM100 juz for everything T.T n havent even pay for de boots...haiz...my own money!! T.T de PMR money larh...thank goodness v took it d...if not jia lat lorh xD
After BB was church!! Easter Vigil...ehem...*simply coughing again xD *
wah....de mass was lik from 1030pm til 2am...damn long...haha....played candle ( sumone say wan ) haha...no larh....not playing larh....
Den went home!! PARTY?? nah!! sleep lik a piglet!! xD
Wanted to go for Easter Mass.....hehehehehehe....my dad told me no nid go cos slpt late...hehe...so den do hw lorh....dats all larh for de whole holy week!! yea...

Today's monday!! Yepz!! One of de most busiest days in my life!!
Hmm...
Went skol...had drama full dress rehearsel...so went up to de last floor to get all de props ready n erm....watched de drama....after finis was FOOD TIME!! hehe....den after dat was continue doing props...was SOOOO i mean SOOOOO kelam kabut larh....haiz...sew sew sew!!
Den..........erm.....wth larh...everyone juz left de props up there...on de 5th floor!! do u expect A GAL LIK ME to carry all down?? -.-ll
Den....thank goodness Hakim helped!! de other guys all SISI!! argh!! wah i damn lazy to write wat happen lar...too many things happened!! Amazingly i helped 5 teachers in a day!! woohoo!!!
im supergal =x

0ne week of holiday finally over le!!
And now is de results time...haiz...first exam itself oso all de results damn cha d...haiz...
real format time duno how i gonna die...
mayb b4 exam commit suicide liao!! T.T

So far only got bm, bi, ma, mt, phy, chem n bio...others all havent get...walao...beta so many ppl fail in moral...im scared i oso gonna fail larh...haiz..
Omgosh...dat day v sang dat witchdoctor song in chem class...was sooo fun larh...i love chem teacher...as a fren not as a teacher...cos her teaching kinda sux!! omgosh...en zafran in sooo funny xD
haha...en remi oso...luckily he din scold larh for de marks...haiz...y larh y??? soo damn low larh my marks!! wanna cry jorh...

Haiz...all tis while i don blieve in dat thingy...wats it called?? i forgot...watever larh...but it rely happens lorh...happening to me!! haiz...sudd sudd no mood!! haiz...

duno wat to write larh...damn tired...everyday stay back...no mood for anything!! tmr netball practise!!! *cries*

For tis first holiday in form 4...
one word to describe it...FUN!! xD

Haha...

monday - went skol for props...after skol go lm...watched 10 000bc...de movie was only OKAY larh...not very interesting oso....but ok larh dat day...hunted for 3 bdae presents!! in de end of de day...PK!! xD

tuesday - REAL HOLIDAY!! Rested de whole day...erm...online de whole day i mean xD

wednesday - Again went skol for props...haiz...tiring wan larh...but fun oso...

thursday - Heres where de fun part begins.........haha...NO PROPS today!! wakaka...early in de morning went to lynn's hse....erm...den v wait n wait...she told me her dream larh...dat was soooo funny....she dreamt dat de guys dat went out wit us wore singlet n shorts to jusco -.- haha....den v waited for ginny...den erm...went out lorh...went jusco at around 12...reach there oni str8 go mcD...everyone was hungry!! eat eat eat!! wakaka...den when eating de guys came lorh...v saved de table next to us but they din sit there...den erm....went buy tickets for movie lorh....so blurr larh duno wanna watch wat movie...coss....lynn's sis was wit us so v cant sneak her in de 18+ movie...de others can act xD macam larh aku nmpk mcm 18 thn xD de movie starts at 320 but dat time was lik 1....so juz walk walk around de shopping lorh...so damn sien wan...nth to c nth to buy...den went arcade lorh....lynn n ginny played...aiyoo...i wasnt in de mood to play all those games larh...i was erm, kinda bored xD den finally it was 315...went to de cinema....aiyoo...lynn damn bad wan lerh...i hafta sit bside de guy larh...y cant she sit bside them -.- anyway nvm larh...not first time oso wat =x haha...wah, de cinema was DAMN COLD larh...rely...it was rely cold..thank goodnez lynn brought sweater for me larh..sumore i was wearing sleeveless t -.- i was shivering lik after de mid part of de movie...haiz...but de movie was nice larh...den when de movie ended v pisah wit de guys lorh..they go their way v go our way...went toilet larh wat else xD den me, lynn n her sis hafta go home larh cos her dad waiting outside so left ginny in de toilet xD den sampai rumah....hem came...my mama xD den ate dinner n went to pasar malam...walk walk walk, hujan -.-ll haha...lucky drizzling nia...so v walked faster n went home...luckily walking distance oni...when reached home str8 went up to de room...chit chat larh wat else...lolx...aiyo hem n lynn kip smsming i got bored so started singin xD lynn was damn hepi...yea~ glad she's hepi larh...she was lik hugging hem??? ok, yea~ lolx...den when it was around 11 sumthing hungry!! lolx...went down...hem did de milo n i was suppose to cook de maggie ( de pig say not gud xD ) den omgos...had one big ugly cockroach by de name of Bob (de name lynn gave ) was at de stove!! aiyooo...how to cook...tis time her kakak wasnt there to de rescue...v had to save ourselves!! it was damn funny larh...hem was recording all this...which v ask to...lolx...k den afta dat eating time...i was holdin de camera...soooooo RECORD RECORD RECORD!! xD it was all so funny larh...3 vids was recorded...it is kept savely!! no one shud ever c it...unless gud n de bestest buddiez...den terror strick!! lolx..jkjk...hem erm...sumthing happened larh...den finis eating went up...BRUSHING TEETH time!! woow!! xD
hem recorded me n lynn brushing teeth...v were doin de same actions...it was so funny dat v din rely brush our teeth properly...btw, its brushed larh -.- den here comes de screaming from her dad asking us to slp early...yea...went in de room...u think v wil sleep arh?? lolx...chat larh of cos...chat til 5..lynn fell asleep!! haiyoo...den v din cont larh..but still cudnt slp til lik 530am!! de alarm was 630!! omgosh!! 630 hem was de first one to get up..i was shivering for de 2nd time!! i hate aircond!! den she went n took her bath den call us(me n lynn) lynn din wanna wake up larh (she sleepy pig) den i went n bathe first larh...den eat breakfast n walked to skol...all de way to skol...everyone was complaining...IM SOOOO SLLEEEPPPYY!! xD in skol oso damn sleepy larh...haiyo...den finis skol...went home to our own houses...i reach oni chg clothes den terus baring on de bed d...don care!! din eat, drink or watever....juz slp!! haha...until 3 sumthing...den woke up...sms larh...haiz...got nth else to do...cant go online dat time cos my bro was sleeping..de pc is inside his room...i got laptop but de wireless modem my uncle took d...haiz...listen to music n sms lorh...til my bro wake up..yay! get to use de pc!! haha...den finis lorh rite..til here...me writing tis lame blog!! xD

Wah, today so early i update blog jorh xD
Got sumthing happen ma update earlier lorh...

Today holiday ma rite...so ma no nid wake up early lorh...normally at home i wil b de first to wake up de marh...so afta i get redy den i wil on de lite so dat my parents wil wake up n my dad wil get redy for work...so today i had my holiday...so i was sleeping til lik 645 cos wanted to go to de water closet...when i look n de clock, my dad normally leaves de hse at 630 though..So he din wake up in time to go to work..de fon rang...no one pick up...wat larh...i hafta wake them up -.-
haiz...in de end they put de blame on me cos i din wake them up when i went to de water closet instead wake them up when de fon rang...hello!! how was i suppose to know dat daddy wasnt on leave -.-ll
n i was de one to blame??
haiz...watever larh...HOLIDAY JORH!!
xD
hepi....

YAy~
Finally exam over lurr!!
Merdeka for now T.T
one week holiday!!
wat to do wat to do??
slp??
gai gai???
duno larh....
yerr..tis sun sumore got netball practise..very sien larh...X MINAT LANGSUNG!!
its not practise...got frenly match wit assumption if im not mistaken..sien lorh!!

exam review...
1st day...
bm-krngn time damn blurr...duno wat i wrote..tata damn confusing xD
chem-ok larh...can answer...
addmaths-erm erm...sux!! gonna fail teruk2...
svk-din read oso can answer larh...lolx..
2nd day...
bi-aiya, lexical luxury din hafal oso can answer larh -.-
bio-wah, siao...dead jorh..
est-ok larh...kinda ez..
sj-i duno all de subjective T.T
3rd n final day!..
maths-quite ez but alredy know 2 q wrong le T.T
physics-ok gua~ quite ez...wont fail xD
moral-aiya...wet wet water =x watever larh...don fail enuf jorh xD

dats all lorh...haha...my mum's comment 'fail ma fail lorh'
so i ma follow lorh...no nid read so much larh..fail ma fail lorh...
xD

haiz...now holiday...i duno wat to do...hmm...i wanna go for de steamboot!!!!!
T.T

anyway i forgot everthing dat happen...de sad wan larh...now juz hepi go lucky...go wit de flow...
eventhough it still remain...it remains a secret!! xD

I LOVE MY LIFE N FRENZ!