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♥ Thursday, November 19, 2009

After having a heartbreaking day in school, it's still not enough.
I had to come home and get insulted.
Being asked to eat shit and being called as stupid.
I know now that there's no place for me to go anymore.
I'm starting to hate school, glad that it will be over in 6 more days.
Hate being at home, I get insults everyday.
Not that I contribute anything.
Even if I die today, I have no regrets.
I tried to smile every second I could.
But I fail, everytime I tried.
I'm not smart, I know.
Who doesn't?!
I know I will not get straight A's.
Who doesn't?
So why do I even bother to open the damn book and study?
All I wanted was to be appreciated by friends and family.
Why doesn't anyone appreciate me?
It's like I'm invisible.
I don't wanna live on this stupid earth anymore.
This is stupid.
My existance is stupid.
Why am I even born?
I shouldn't be here.
My parents was suppose to get a perfect child.
Or my brother should be the only smart child.
Mum always say he was the smart one and that I was dumb.
So why did she even let me get into this world?
She should have killed me or ask the doctor to poison me.
Okay, wait, she didn't wanna sin, I know.
So why not I just kill myself?
Let me sin.
Let me be the bad girl and go to hell.
Who cares?!
I hate myself.
I don't wanna get straight A's anymore.
I want my parents' love.
I want friends.
I want my good brother back.
I'm losing everyone around me.

♥ Written by felicia a.k.a the ~~cute~~ special one @

8:14 PM

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So this is how it ends.
It's my heart that is broken.
I thought the friendship was true.
I thought I won your heart.
I blame 'it' for everything.
Thanks for the memory though.
All ships in the world sinks.
Even friendship.
It's the weirdest feeling when we know something that everyone has already knew and we're the last person among our friends to get to know it.
Wahahaha..
It makes me feel unimportant, useless and not a good friend.
Just trying hard not to think about it.
It doesn't really mean anything right?
The only important thing now is I LOVE MYSELF.
Whether any other people love me, it doesn't really matter anymore.
Everyone changes.
One day one friend can come up to you and say, "dude, you're my best friend and smiles at you"
The next day, he/she could just walk pass you and ignore you.

When your friends need you, they would put up a smile...When you're not in use, they will put you aside..

♥ Written by felicia a.k.a the ~~cute~~ special one @

6:01 PM

♥ Sunday, November 15, 2009

Smiles =)
This is what we, SPM-ers need now.
I'm sure the pressure has gotten into all of us.
Striving to do our best in the coming exam that opens the doorway to our future.
Whether your hopes, dreams and ambition are about to come true.
It all comes to this.
9 days or 10 days of examination.
And then, out of secondary school, into college, A level or even working days for some of us.
It's your future, you decide.
You wanna live a life filled with difficulty or a life that is easy?
You decide.

Just here to give encouragement to all sitting for SPM and also STPM =)
Stay happy as always, do not pressure yourself too much.

Remember OUR aim :

Yesh! No more A1. It's A+ now!!
Good Luck peeps!!

Signing out. Peace out~
Will be back in 3 weeks =)

♥ Written by felicia a.k.a the ~~cute~~ special one @

12:06 PM

♥ Thursday, November 12, 2009

I'm a Rudolph, I know.
Everyone knows.
Well, think positively, if I'm a Rudolph, I have the ability to guide people in darkness.
Wait, I'm born with a negative brain. A pessimist.
Trying hard to accept the fact that I'm ugly.
Why am I born this way?
Maybe teasing is entertaining for people.
I hate myself, hate how I look and hate what I do.
I don't think my confidence level will ever rise...
Will just go back to living my ugly life and being my ugly self.
Thanks people, for accepting me as a friend, no matter how ugly I am.

♥ Written by felicia a.k.a the ~~cute~~ special one @

8:35 PM

♥ Wednesday, November 04, 2009

I can't believe I abandoned my blog again x_X

Sigh. SPM is coming nearer.
School days are ENDING!
No more waking up early in the morning, complaining about every shyt we have to deal with in school and end up missing it =(
Today had ceramah for Chemistry and Physics.
Of all people, I kena tegur. SE-WET betul man!
I guess I really changed a lot x_X
Good also larh.
Get noticed by teachers =)
Anyway, there's nothing much I wanna update about.
Hypothesis of my last experiment was accepted =)

Anyway, who in the world does not like new things?
Everyone, okay, 1/10 of humans will abandon their old stuff when they have new stuff right?
Hmm..
There's so much in my but its so freaking hard to express it in blog nowadays.
Rather not make it public.
Good luck to all sitting for end year examinations and also SPM =)
And STPM too of course!
Computer is the only distraction I have at home.
And facebook is the main culprit =.=
Lalala..studying hard for SPM =)

♥ Written by felicia a.k.a the ~~cute~~ special one @

7:04 PM

♥ Thursday, October 22, 2009

Nightmare!

Had a nightmare just now when I was sleeping.

It was right after reading sejarah x_X

Haha.

Not related though.

Lalala...

Okay, I dreamt that, we were in class, doing exam.

And suddenly I slept off during exam.

Then I couldn't wake up.

Even when I woke up, I couldn't open my eyes.

Even when I thought I opened my eyes, I couldn't see anything.

That's what we call tido mati =.=

I couldn't stay conscious till the paper was collected and I forced myself to wake.

Omgosh, it was seriously difficult.

Then I don't know what happened, I got separated from everyone and I can't remember anymore..

Sigh.

When I woke up, I felt so down, don't know why.

Anyway, happy 3 days holiday to those not graduating this Saturday! Including me of course =P

Don't know why this issue always arise during examination period.

Anyway, who cares...

Today I talked damn much to Mana xD

She told me her problem and I told her my problem.

Damn funny xD

Hmm, 1st step of experiment DONE.

Moving on to step 2.

Err, what's step 2?@.@

Or should I repeat step 1? 0.o

Skipped lunch today.

Felt damn tired when I got home.

Online a while, then study.

Couldn't study for long, went to sleep.

Gonna study again tonight, I think.

20+ more days x_X

♥ Written by felicia a.k.a the ~~cute~~ special one @

6:46 PM

♥ Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Kay, someone asked me to post this x_X

How my carelessness grew =.=

Sigh.

Not only one mistake, a bunch of mistakessss...

First, Physics paper 2...

They ask for acceleration, I count momentum.

The question after that question is related.

2 questions wrong. x_X

Second, Physics paper 3...

Got graph..

I plotted the graph.

But I never join the dots.

DOTS....

I thought wanna borrow ruler from Angela cause my ruler not long enough.

But I forgot x_X

Sigh. Hopefully I won't repeat this again during SPM.

Some more both Physics paper.

Hopefully can pass xD

Anyway, tomorrow Addmaths paper.

Sir say very difficult.

R.I.P man x_X

♥ Written by felicia a.k.a the ~~cute~~ special one @

2:32 PM

♥ Monday, October 19, 2009

A Day Out =)

( ) Walk-a-thon

( x ) Brunch at Peel Road

( x ) Tesco Shopping

( x ) Dinner with relatives

That's what I did today.

Can say whole day out x_X

But not tiring.

Cause all of us, except mum, recharged our battery in the evening for I think one hour plus =)

Why walk-a-thon tak jadi?

Cause when I woke up at 6am, it was raining heavily.

You don't expect me to walk in the rain and get myself sick right.

So we decided not to go, despite my eagerness to exercise and get a free T. Sigh.

So I went back to sleep =)

Woke up again around 9am and watched Spongebob ^^

Continued watching tv till 11am and went and get ready to go out for brunch.

Okay, the whole way there was a bit downnnn...

Mum and dad, like usual, kept arguing =.=

They even argued bout where to park =.=

Finally we reached there.

After brunch, we decided to go to Tesco =)

Dad got a voucher, discount RM10 for purchase of RM50 and above per-receipt.

So we shop shop shop, and I got my strawberry biscuit which actually cost RM1.10 but when we went to the counter, it was RM0.99 =)

Kay, after that we went home and "re-charged" our battery.

Around 5.30pm mum woke everyone.

But only I woke up.

The rest was still sleeping like little piggies xD

Around 6pm then only those little piggies woke up..

So everyone got ready and off to Uncle's house in Old Klang Road.

Reach uncle's house, go to restaurant, and eat.

Finally..

Food not very nice, price quite expensive. Overall, not nice =.=

And damn sien.

After that went back to uncle's house and just SIT.

Okay, I'm so not sociable around my relatives, don't know why.

There's nothing in common to talk about.

DIFFERENT FREQUENCY I GUESS.

Nevermind.

Send uncle to KL Central at 9 something.

And finally reached home at 10.30pm.

Tired? Nahh..just bored.

Don't know why but I feel like going to Leisure Mall @.@

I wanna see the new environment there so badly.

And maybe watch a movie =)

But too bad, no chance.

I have to sit and home and do revision.

Crap, form 5 life is miserable. Sigh.

Anyway, it's 12.20am now. And it's the 19th of October.

Guess what?

It's Hema Preya's birthday!!

Wee~

Just wanna wish her Happy Birthday!

You have been a good friend.

A friend that motivates people succeesfully everytime =)

LOL to you. Muaaxx!

♥ Written by felicia a.k.a the ~~cute~~ special one @

12:04 AM