Sunday, March 31, 2013


Seriously hate it when I have PMS right before stressful exams!
Like wth?!
PMS really is a waste of time.
Due to stomach and leg cramp, you need to sleep to forget the pain.
And sleeping means wasting time!
14 more chapters to go ONLY for midterm.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Mission Accomplished!

Well, there is good news and bad news for today.

Lets start off with the good news.
The good news is that I finally passed my driving test! :)
To be frank, I really wasn't confident at all for the test because all of my friends actually paid the bribe for "on the road" but somehow my driving institution did not mention anything about the bribe.
Even when we first enquire about the whole driving package, the instructor's wife kept telling us not to pay the bribe money eventhough mum asked about it.
The aunty kept saying there is no need to pay for bribe because most of their students actually passed without bribing.
So yesterday(the day before the test), I was actually freaking out helplessly because I cannot practice or whatsoever to calm myself down.
And the fact that I did not bribe really got me frustrated and I expected to fail :|

The driving uncle was supposed to pick me up at 7-ish in the morning today so I set my alarm at 6.15am to be well prepared.
But due to heavy downpour and the cold weather, I woke up at 6.15 and turned the alarm off =.=
Bloody smart.
End up waking up at 6.40-ish =.=
I was like, oh my gosh! WHAT THE HECK WHAT THE HECK WHAT THE HECK =.=
The phrase went through my head the whole time from the moment I woke up until I actually got ready.
But luckily the uncle came like around 7.30am.
The thing is, I was prepared physically but not mentally :\
I was nervous the whole time.
And eventhough I woke up late, which means I had extra time to sleep, I actually slept the whole way till Bangi, the venue for the driving test.
Serious nervous problem. LOL.

We reached the place like around 8am?
Super fast :(
Not enough time to sleep!
Then we took our numbers and waited for the counter to open and blahh..
Waited damn bloody long =.=
From 8-ish till like 10-ish!
Then the test began around 10-ish.
Freaking nervous!
First one was the hill!
We actually had to stand in a line beside the hill and wait for the cute little kancil to come over xD
After the hill, we had to wait for our turn to do parking and three point turn.
Success! :)
Then after those, we need to run over to the pondok to get our results.
Then the officer was like, "So, SPM berapa A?".
I got stunned @.@
I answered, "Huh?".
Then he see my IC again and said, "Eh, ni dah lama lepas SPM. Dah kahwin dah ni."
LOL =.=
Then, the next thing to wait for was ON THE ROAD!
Omgosh, this one freaked the shyt out of me!
The wait is terrible!
It's like, when the testing car comes back, you don't know if the next one will be you ><
You just gotta wait till they shout your number and straight away it is your turn.
No warning, so sign, no anything!
After waiting for sooooooooooo freaking long. 
Finally my turn! YAY!
Then I went in, said HALO and Selamat Sejahtera.
I don't know why but I like to say HALO to people. LOL.
I don't like HELLO, I prefer HALO.
Then I did the basic checking stuff.
I checked the side mirrors but because I feel they are fine so I did not move them, so I got an X for that :(
Anyway, when I was ready to go, the hand brake was actually stuck =.=
Like wthhh?!
I actually tried sooooo hard to put down the hand brake but couldn't!
It is like LOCKED!
I tried for like 3 minutes? 0.o
Well, I don't know how long it was but it was quite long that I became nervous I thought he would fail me immediately for not even knowing how to release the hand brake!!
After trying for so long, I decided to turn to him and say, "tak boleh". :(
Then he said, "Biar saya cuba".
And at first he couldn't release it too :P
But he used right hand okay! So eventually he successfully released it larhhhh.
Then then then, everything on the road went smoothly except one part where I forgot to off the signal light =.=
When I noticed it, I was like, "Oh shhhhhhhhh".
I did not mention the full word. Only shhhh :P
But anyway, I PASSED! :)
For the internal test I got full marks and for On the Road I got 16/20 :D
Well, I don't need high marks cause I don't get anything even if I get 20/20.
I am definitely satisfied with my results! :)
Pass in one go and without bribing!
But righhhhttt, after that righttt, the driving uncle didn't send me home :(
I had to take the KTM to Tasik Selatan and then the bus back home :(
So I basically spent like 2 hours just to get back home after a joyous pass =.=

Anyway, that was the good news :)
Here comes the bad news.
My acnes are backkkkk :(
Now my face look like a piece of shit. SMASHED. SMASHED PIECE OF SHIT.
It's like, acne everywhere.
Another depression stage.
Not only I look ugly and it hurts like pretty bad, my self esteem fell like from cloud nine till like 6 feet underground :(
I am not enthusiastic to even leave the house :(
I don't wanna meet peopleeee!
Just wanna sit at home, mirror-less, wishing the ugliness would wear off :(
But I can't stay at home larhh.
Tomorrow got whole day in college and Friday got test.
Saturday also got test.

And and and, this freaking sore throat!
When are you leaving?
You make me sad.
Go away.
Go far far away!

Well, at least I wrote the good news longer than the bad news.
So still good news win!

Monday, March 18, 2013

Bad day.

I felt so frustrated that I don't know how to express my feelings and I let them out by crying.
I know that I have to conquer the ability to control how I respond to things that come my way but I just could not handle it.

I need to send resume to my friends, type the consent letter and print it out, complete FM assignment and study for Friday's exam.

Turns out, the computer just won't turn on!
So I tried turning it on since 8.30pm till 10.30pm!
I was sooooooo super duper frustrated!
I want to, I really want to and really have the WANT to study this time!
But I have to complete the other tasks first before proceeding.
But the computer just doesn't wanna turn on!
And on top of that, my USB cable to charge my phone went missing!
I just cannot stand it! :(

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Up up and above.

Time for some motivation.

Future me,
I am currently very obsessed with coming up with motivational quotes :)
You should do that too!

So, here are a few of it that I came up with these few days.

"Don't cry because you tried and failed. Cry because you gave up and never had the chance to fail."

"I may not be perfect; but the imperfections are those that makes me a perfect homo sapien."

"Always be ready for challenges up ahead because chances are that the challenges might lead to opportunities. :)"

"Never forget your root because without it you won't even be here. "

"The higher your expectations, the worse is your disappointment."

"Stop worrying about matters out of your control. If it is yours, it will definitely be yours one day."


Well, that is it :)

Saturday, March 09, 2013

One good deed a day keeps the depression away :)

Quote of the day..
"If doing ONE good deed can put a smile on your face, why not do it abundantly to never frown again."

 Yes, I did one small little good deed today and am feeling very satisfied :)

Today is great!
I am feeling extremely happy :)

Purplish Day!
Long toes!
 Even the sky is lighted up!

"When you change you attitude, you automatically change;
your perspective,
the way you think,
the decisions you make,
the actions you take
the results you get."
Extracted from Professional Development lecture notes :)

It is not what you think that matters, it is what you believe and do that matters :)

Inspired :)

Friday, March 08, 2013

Sometimes I run, sometimes I fall.

Am listening to a superb self compiled playlist.

Gonna have an open book test on Professional Development tomorrow.
Somehow I do not have enough study motivation to be reading over and over again.

There are soooooo many different kinds of lyrics stuck in my head now.

One of it is this.

Seriously stuck!
Seriously, I can stay up whole night listening to meaningful songs.

Do you believe that if you mix with a certain group of people too much, you tend to turn somehow into them?
Like the way you act, stand, sit, look and think?

Anyway, I still believe that people come, people go.
Nothing is permanent.
So, just LIVE :)

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Chin up, stand straight.

You know, all this while, I've been writing stuffs about what I think others would want to read about rather than writing just for the sake of writing.
This has led me to writing more on commercial stuffs and what people would want to know.
I really, really, really, like seriously enjoy reading back on old posts because basically I get to know who I were back then and realize how much or how little I've changed.

Sometimes I put too much weight on wanting to know what people think about me that I forget what I think about myself.
Something to ponder on..

I really like the saying "No one can hurt you without your permission".
And also, "You don't live to satisfy others".
Hmm, interesting.


Anyway, I just want to write so that the future me reads this :)

To the future me,

I sing a lot these days! I loveeee singing! Hope you did not forget how much you loveeee singing.
Hope that you are not too busy with work or earning money :)
Just to remind you to be who you are and not care about what others think of you.
Life is full of challenges. There would not be any rainbow without the sun(ups) and the rain(downs).
And remember, YOU are the positive energy provider to any kind of environment :)

Will write more for you to remember me :)

Listen to this!

Enjoy the future because the past can never be changed :)