Tuesday, March 10, 2026

9 Years??

 Wow, never thought I would be back here writing on this blog which I created more than a decade ago?

How's life?
I have definitely come a long way. Reading back all my blog posts really brings me back to the older days.
I can totally recall back my thoughts and feelings through my writing. Life has been really good these days. Stagnant, stable but good in a way. It's like, I have everything I ever wanted and more than what I thought I deserve. I have grown so much (mentally and physically LOL) from 2017. 

As I grow older, one of the struggles that I constantly have is that my parents are growing older too.
Recently one of my friend's dad passed away, and that makes me realize that, sooner or later this would happen to me too. Which would definitely make me super sad if it happens. I wouldn't know how to deal with it. So, I tend to try to spend more time with my parents nowadays.

I am currently in an LDR. Juggling between KL and Penang at the moment. Wouldn't say I mind but just that it's tough to create a routine out of it. Because it is two different locations. 

Will update soon again!

Sunday, May 07, 2017

Yearly roll call.

Can't believe how fast time passes.
Nowadays I dread for the weekends and feel so frustrated on Sunday nights.
It's like, I'll never have enough of the weekends and there's just too much work piling up and never ending.

I think I need to find that fire that keeps me going.
I wonder how I did it when I started working.
Maybe cause during that time, there were less stress, responsibilities and workload.
Now it's like, you haven't settle A, B comes, and while you're doing B, C starts.
Sigh.

Well, at least nowadays I don't really work on weekends.
I discipline myself to try to not work on Sunday. LOL.
But yeah, in order to meet deadlines, sooner or later, I'll still need to work on weekends.

On the bright side, I have been spending a lot of time doing non-work related activities.
Like going on a trip, VR lab recently and dinners and hanging out with friends.

It has been more than 2 years of working but I still feel that there's still a lot to learn.
Technical wise, and trying to be a leader.
I'm not born with a leader's characteristics.
I'm often quiet and well, I'll just make a lot of noise with people I'm close to.
I'm often indecisive and not good in managing people.
So yeah, all these are my weaknesses. So much to learn.
To be a better person, I need to absorb as much as I can and think that these would serve as an advantage to me no matter where I go.

Saturday, January 02, 2016

Bi-annual Update

Hello 2016.

It has been 6 months since my last post.
A lot has happened during the duration of 6 months, i.e. I got a new car which is not so new anymore since it has been 6 months already (lol), I got selected by PR1MA to buy a house which is still ongoing cause the loan application is so troublesome, etc.

So yeah, recap of 2015.

One year of work experience.
Expecting something tougher and more challenging in the coming year.
Bring it on cause the good thing is that I still do not have any other priorities to focus on other than work and oh ya, studies.
Seriously this study shyt is getting frustrating.
But I can't stop what I have started.
I have to complete it eventhough it is seriously a pain in the arse.

And then there are money commitments which makes me more committed to working cause now I have no choice but to earn money to pay the bills.
Car and house and some other commitments.
Seriously fml.
But it's okay, it's all part of growing up and taking up responsibilities.

One year really came and went by really fast.
The one word I would use to describe my 2015 would be "NEW".
I got a new job, new friends, new challenges, new environments.
Everything was very new to me.
There were times when I broke down during the year cause I was unable to adapt to the new environment but I didn't give up.
Mistakes just kept pouring and deadlines were never ending.
But I was lucky to have good people around me whom guided me and helped me pull through all the difficult times.

What I hope for in 2016.
Okay, this is ironic.
I am actually kinda moving towards an anti-social life now but I wanna make more friends. LOL.
But of course, I wanna maintain the close friends that I have currently.
And then, make more money, duh.
Gain more experience.
Travel overseas, like for the first time ever.
More me-time (do not judge).
Just be happy.
Be content and happy.
Life ain't that bad right?
Let bygones be bygones.

Happy New Year everyone!

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Post college days.

It has been quite some time since I last sat down, lie down, or whatever position I like to be in to just be in front of the desktop/laptop and type away like this.
It has been a pretty busy first half of the year.
Without actually realising, half year has just passed and it is already mid of July.
The older you get, the faster time flies.
Seriously, this is so true.

What have I learnt so far after one year of graduating?

1. It is not that difficult to get a job, but to secure a job, that's another story.
Why I say it is not difficult to get a job?
There are definitely lots of job opportunities out there here in Malaysia.
Write a good resume, get a presentable outfit, prepare yourself for interview and tadaaa, you'll definitely get a job.
But the point here is.. how do you secure a job, climb the corporate ladder and at the same time keep the passion going?
Passion; if you like your job scope and what you're doing, then it is good. Passion keeps you going. But what keeps passion going? There are so much external factor that influences your passion. Things like, the environment, your colleagues, etc.
So far, I know quite a number of friends that has quit their first job and gotten a second/third job.
We are definitely at an age to explore the job market and find a job that fits our interest, personality and passion.
Trial and error at a young age to avoid regrets in the future.
Shape your future now.

But what if you've found a job and it is what you are passionate about but the environment keeps affecting your choice?
Let's say you love what you're doing but you aren't happy with the people you are working with or the environment, like being underpaid or working for long hours.
This, is a bit difficult because first of all, most jobs require teamwork and you can't possibly get things done on your own unless you're an entrepreneur but even entrepreneur have people to get things done for them and they need to rely on others.
So yeah, you just gotta adapt.
It's not easy, cause the more people involved in getting a job done, the more suggestions there will be, the more conflicts there will be to have to overcome.
At times, there will be some communication breakdown happening and a whole lot of misunderstanding because of that.

If you are passionate about what you're doing, just keep doing it eventhough the external factors are gonna be a mountain that you have got to climb over.
Set your limits. If you think, it really is unbearable anymore, consider switching company.
Not every company have the same culture.
Again, we are at the age of trial and error.

2. Make all the mistakes and learn from it.
I can relate this to what I have been through over the past 6 months.
Sometimes when everyone in the team is so busy, you have to think on your on feet and make some decisions on your own. You just gotta do something independently. But the thing here is, you gotta take responsibilities on your own actions cause if your action led to something bad, you gotta face it.
YES, I DID A LOT OF MISTAKES.
Like so much that I started thinking people are gonna hate me for it.
I don't know if people do hate me for it or what but I definitely learnt something.
I am not the most detailed person and sometimes I don't do self review before sending out an email or submitting a working paper.
My decision making sucks. Often are bad decisions.
I'm a slow learner. Always relying on seniors for guidance.
These are my weaknesses and I admit, I'm not an A grader, I take things slowly.
I get pressured super easily and that, is something I need to improve.
One of my manager actually gave me an advice "make all the mistakes you can now as an IX because once you become a senior, you can't afford to make any.".
Of course not intentional mistakes.
Mistakes I can learn from.

3. Priorities
Setting priorities becomes a priority in your life.
You need to know what's the most important task.
The urgent and important tasks come first.
The urgent but not so important comes second.
The not urgent but important comes third.
And the last one would always be the not urgent and not important, if can, don't even bother doing it if it is not necessary.

That're pretty much what I have learn so far.
There are somemore but it's gonna be a long post if I continue writing.

Sometimes my working style isn't the most suitable working style.
Hmm..
There's something that has been bothering me a lot.
Like.. I am the type that, when I get a task, I try to finish it as soon as possible.
I don't think I was like that when I was in college.
Back then when I was in college, I was always the last minute queen.
LOL. Like super last minute.
Study also last minute, assignment also last minute.
But then, now at work, I do fast and more in the beginning so that towards the end of the deadline, I have enough time to look through my work to see what is insufficient and fix those.
But then, the bad thing about this work style is that.. people who do last minute work would seem to have a lot on their plate towards the end and that kinda make me look bad cause it will make me look super free and as if useless and if I don't offer help then it would make me look super bad? LOL.
And then when I offer help and they got nothing for me to do and when the higher positions people see me slightly free compared to the others then it would definitely make me look terrible.
I have spoken to some people about it and they said it would be good if I can work at an average speed. I don't know what does an average speed mean though.
I am not sure how can I improve this on my own.
But yeah, teamwork.
If you have the capacity, take on new challenges.
I hope things will get better.

Brace yourself, Monday is coming.
Let's get pass this 4 days and get some good rest, or not.
Better utilize these 4 days properly so that I can rest for well, 2 days maybe?

Saturday, December 13, 2014

11pm.

Nowadays my sleeping routine has been quite consistent.
I get on bed by 11pm or earlier and fall asleep very fast.
Must be because of waking up early and staring at the computer screen the whole day.
Mentally and physically exhausted by the end of the day that I rarely get insomnia anymore.
Well, that's a good thing :)

But the weird thing here is....
After I fall asleep, I am unconscious about what I do.
Like, if someone were to call me and if I pick up the call.
I can guarantee you that I am speaking unconsciously.
The next day I won't even remember you called me until I see my phone.
And obviously I won't remember what I said to you.
Messages are worst!
If I receive a message after 11pm, if you are lucky, I probably have not read your message and will see the notifications in the morning.
Or if you are unlucky, I would probably have read it unconsciously, worse if I replied unconsciously and wouldn't even know anything about it in the morning.

This happened several times already :\
Even today morning also the same.
I don't see any notifications in the morning at all from whatsapp cause I probably read those messages unconsciously last night -.-
I only realised there were new messages or a.k.a unread but read unconsciously messages when I opened my whatsapp to message people.

And recently I have been so obsessed with going to work that I have no other thoughts in mind.
I wake up, go to work, until like 7-ish, come back, bathe, eat, watch some variety shows using my phone and then sleep.
The same routine repeats everyday.
My social life is like 0.
HAHAHA.
It's okay, at least I am socializing in office :)

Left Monday and Tuesday serving in my current firm.
Seriously damn eh seh dak to leave.
The people I have met so far has been so awesome.
Eventhough it has been pretty busy recently.

Busy until I missed 12.12 sales online -.-
Busy until I don't even have time to manage my 8share earnings.
Busy until I don't even have time to log on to Facebook -.-

But still grateful :)
#trulyblessed

Saturday, December 06, 2014

It's been a while.

It has definitely been a while since I last wrote a post.
Though Dayre may seem like a more convenient blog platform but nothing beats Blogspot.
How do I actually come up with things to write on my online blog is by sitting down in front of the computer and start reminiscing on the past.
Past as in past few months and days.
What happened and what I wish will happen in the upcoming days ahead :)

Life has been moving pretty fast recently.
It is like a routine lifestyle nowadays, no doubt.
At times I do forget to stop and enjoy the moment.

Ever since I started my working life, everything has been fast pace.
Can you believe it has been more than 3 months since I started working.
I can still remember my first day at work.
Who I sat beside during orientation, my first team and everything that happened.
Just ended my second engagement and now doing my third engagement.

In just less than 10 days, I will be leaving my current audit firm.
It has indeed been a really great journey here.
I have met some pretty amazing people.
Every one of them had so different characteristics that I felt so amazed.

Honestly, I am a person that really prioritise the hierarchy.
LOL. I know this is weird but I think for me, I think RESPECT is definitely something important in life.
No matter what, it is important to respect seniors and elder people.
Yeah, I am that kind of person.
The thing I find unique about my current working place is that, the seniors treat the juniors as friends.
So it kinda amazes me?
It is probably because there ain't any age gap between the seniors and the juniors so we pretty much get a long quite well and fast as well.
It is definitely something new to me cause all this while I don't really open myself up to joking and basically crap in front of seniors but HEH, it ain't that bad :)

I really like how some people that I've met, they are so charismatic that when they are in the room and if they were to speak, the whole room listens :)
SO AMAZING!
Eventhough that person is just talking some random or funny jokes or even lame jokes.
EVERYONE LISTENS AND LAUGH!!

Charismatic, definitely a gift.

Too fast, too fast.
Life's moving too fast.
It is almost the end of 2014 already.
Moving from a girl to a lady.
Where have all the time gone?
Everything are now bygones.
Some things have changed,
Some still remained.
But all that matters is still happiness,
If only we can all forget the bitterness.
That would be nevertheless,
AWESOMENESS.


Found this on pinterest.
Something to think about :)
Have a great weekend!

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Plan B.

Yes.
I am currently living in plan B.

Plan A was initially to not flunk ACCA and get my ass stuck in Birmingham.
But since plan A failed, I'm living in plan B, which is start working, earn moolah and basically survive.

It is not difficult to make an earning but the opportunity cost of earning money by getting a full time job is very high.
You basically sacrifice your time, energy and relationships.
But well, there is always pros and cons in everything.

The pros about having a full time job is the part where you get to know MORE people :)
And the part where you can finally afford to buy stuffs using your hard earned money instead of asking from your parents :D
I might not have figured out a method of saving yet but yeah, I will some time soon.

Honestly, I have been spending quite a bit on food.
Daily food are okay but weekends are like Tsunami.
They drown everything.
HAHAHA!

I actually told my mum that every Saturday dinner will be on me.
& from the first week I got my pay, it has been really expensive food :\
I love bringing my family to restaurants which I like.
And somehow all the restaurants that I fancy are expensive :\
Most of them are Japanese and Korean restaurants.
So, basically I am a big spender.
I know and I admit.
So yeah, hopefully I will be able to earn sufficient money to support my lifestyle.

I have this so-called daily vitamin.
Not something edible but something viewable :D
Somehow everyday I will look up on quotes on Pinterest.
I live on life quotes.
Let me share some...

This!
HAHAHA!
I need it the most nowadays.
 I live by this rule.
The one reason why sometimes I take damn long to study something.
I make sure I am able to explain it simply to myself and make sure that I understand from that simplified simply explanation.
Complicated?
Nope. It's just my rules of learning.
 It is always quotes like this that makes me feel better.
Sometimes I feel that I do not have ample time to entertain my friends.
They somehow grow further and some probably disappear.
I tell myself, it is okay.
If they remember, welcome them back with open arms.
If they don't, let them go.

YAY!
Bring on the storms and the rain.
I'm ready babeh!
I'm the pilot of my life.

So yeah, my daily vitamin :)

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Biomedics 55 Montly Contact lens Review

Last month I decided to start buying contact lens and giving it a second chance.
I tried wearing contact lens a few years back but some of the lenses I tried were too dry for my eyes or somehow too glaring that I couldn't open my eyes during day time.

So there is this online website that sells contact lens.
They are original brands that are similar to those sold at the optical shops outside.
I came across this brand Biomedics 55.
The website is actually selling it rather affordable.
There is 6 lenses in a box so if like me, I wear the same power for both eyes, then it would mean 3 months of supply.
Surprisingly, the price for 3 months supply of this Biomedics 55 contact lens is only RM50!
The website that is selling this is Glassesonline.com.my.
You can check out the variety of contact lenses and glasses that they offer.

Moving on to the contact lens itself.
I have actually tried and tested the lens myself for almost a month now.
Surprisingly, this lens is VERY moisturized and when I put them on, I don't feel the lens on my eye.
You know how some lenses look super obvious when you put them on and people can obviously see that you are wearing contact lens.
For example, there is this brand of lens that is slightly bluish in colour.
Where as, for this, you can barely see the lens on your eye!
It is VERY VERY comfortable.
Only towards the end of the 30 days period that I start feeling the dryness of the lens which is normal as the lens is for a duration of 30 days.

Besides the comfort and all, I actually bought this last month when there was an offer.
There was actually a discount of 25% off and that makes it ONLY RM37.50!
RM37.50 for 3 months!
This means only RM12.50 per month!
DEFINITELY WORTH IT!
Outside the cheapest I could get from a physical optical shop is probably RM20 per month and that also I need to buy at least 3 pairs.

That is not all!
I actually placed my order during Hari Raya season last month and guess what.
I placed the order on the 29th of July and on 1st August,I received the package!
Super efficient in delivering the lens to customers.
On top of that, great packaging!
It is wrapped up in bubble wraps that it is very safely kept and they even put it in a shoe-size box!
I don't usually write reviews for websites but this one, too good to not write anything about them!

Good news is that they are currently having MERDEKA SALES!
The same amount of discount as the Raya Sales; 25% off!
Just key in GOMERDEKA at the coupon code space!
Promotion is until 2nd September!
Don't miss out on this offer!

Will I repurchase?
OF COURSE!!

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

2 Months Update!

I haven't been updating for 2 months.
My last post was the end of June which is so long ago.
A lot has happened throughout the two months.

Lets start with July.
July was pretty much so-so.
The World Cup ended in July!
LOL. I can't really recall but then I looked back at my Dayre and noticed it.
Supported Germany from the beginning.
For once in my lifetime I was actually dedicated and committed in following all the matches.
Thank goodness I graduated and basically had nothing to do everyday.
So I had all the energy and time to watch all matches.
One of the best memories in July :DD

Besides that, I learnt how to cook porridge.
Yes, I know I am 22 years old and I am suppose to know how to cook a proper meal.
But this is not the 90s okay!
It is year 2014.
I bet only 10% of people my age can cook! :P

Oh, and July is summer for other countries so all my secondary school friends were back in Malaysia!
So I got to meet most of them :)
We even went to Sunway Lagoon :)
And a lot of other meet ups as well.
Felt so satisfied and loved.
HAHAHA!

Oh and I started working part time at the end of July.
Can say one of the most challenging and at the same time worst part time job ever.
Challenging because there is no basic pay.
Entirely on performance basis.
Worst because of communication issues.

Other than that, my birthday.
Hmm.. haven't actually had an actual whole birthday cake YET.
LOL. It is almost one month after my birthday and still I am hoping for a cake.
Ridiculous, I know.
Will probably buy myself one :DD
Less than 20 people wished me.
I guess that is what happens when you grow up?

Then August came.
Stopped working in August.
Got ACCA results on the 8th of August.
To make things short, I passed one paper and failed one paper.
Yes, I failed one paper.
It was definitely one of the worst day of my entire life because I have never failed in anything before, especially when it comes to education.
To make things worse, because I failed one paper, I can't further my studies in the UK for Masters.
I will be in Malaysia and contributing to Malaysia's GDP and economy.
You're welcome, Malaysia.

In August also, I changed my phone :)
No more an Apple user, I am now a XiaoMi user.
Changed from iPhone 4 to Redmi Note.
The biggest difference is the size of the phone.
Now it is impossible to put it in my pocket. dammit
But overall, I am quite impressed with its battery life.
Will do a review post later when I am free.

So after receiving my ACCA results, I started applying for jobs.
And on 22nd of August, I attended my first formal interview.
The company is BDO.
On 26th August, they offered me a job :)
Will be starting my first job as an Audit Associate on 8th September.

Life is a roller coaster but anyhow I believe in God's plan for me :)

Friday, June 27, 2014

First Mini Short Trip!

HEYYO!

Just came back from a short 2 days 1 night trip to Seremban and Port Dickson.
It was not a well-planned trip, it was more of a spontaneous and go-with-the-flow kind of trip.
So on Wednesday Yee Tong and I took the KTM to Seremban.
It only cost RM5.40 to travel from KL to Seremban.
Siew Yoke picked us up from the Seremban station and off we go, starting our first day in Seremban!
She had buy 1 free 1 student vouchers for Greenbox so we went sing k!
Initially we only had 3 hours to sing but since it was on a weekday and there weren't many customers, so they extended our hours to 4 hours and even after 4 hours, they didn't ask us to leave so we sang for 5 and a half hours.
Towards the end it was more like a Gem Tang concert.
We just chose all of Gem Tang's songs and we just sat like loyal supporters in a concert hall. LOL.
Not the best quality of picture but definitely the best quality of time spent with them :D

After the sing k session, Jacky went to Tesco to help his mum out for groceries shopping and the three of us walked around AEON and had Sushi King Bonanza!!
BOO YEAH!
Finally sushi!
The salmons there are so yummy!!

Anyway, after that we went over to Siew Yoke's house for a visit!!
We went to Port Dickson where she stays and the place she stayed was something like a "kampung" house.
I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY INTO KAMPUNG HOUSES where there are no gates, no RELA guards or whatsoever.
& we got to meet her sisters, mum, brother-in-law, niece, nephew and some other relatives.
Really envy how "meriah" it is in her house.
Though it might be troublesome and noisy at times living together with so many people, but seriously, it is the best!!
The house can never be quiet and one can never be lonely when there is so many people around.
Siew Yoke came in the house holding this baby and the next thing I know, she put her on my lap while I was sitting on the floor.
I can't push her away and she is way too "guai" to not hold her!!
She doesn't even cry when she is being held by a stranger.
This small boy's name is Jackson?
But everyone in the house calls him Ah Bi.
Super "guai" ahhhhhh and funny as well.
Very cute!
Good in acting as well!
This girl don't know how to carry a baby.
The baby girl kept sliding down. Super funny!

After a while, we had to leave and so we said goodbye to Ah Bi.
& he started crying.
Omgosh, he is a person that will get attached to people super easily.
We were only there for like less than an hour?
& he cried when we were about to leave.
Awwwww~

Anyway, we left her house and went to PD Waterfront!
Seriously bad photo quality.
The one thing I regretted about the trip was to not bring my camera.
Having a McD ice-cream beside the sea! WEE~

After walking along the beach at night and taking countless pictures, we finally left PD Waterfront at 12am and head to Siew Yoke's sister's house.
First impression about the house was, omgosh, it was super duper freakingishly huge!
Everything was so nice and comfortable.
Seriously felt really thankful to her sister for letting us own stay in her house for one night.
We basically had the whole house to ourselves, like the three queens. HAHAHAHA!

So we bathed and get ready for some talk time.
But we were too tired and slept early, around 2AM.

We were SUPPOSED to get up early and watch the sun rise at the beach but HEH, everyone just wanted to sleep.
I got up at 10AM, bathed and get ready and woke the other two up.
Left for lunch at 12-ish.

ATE TOM YUM!
MY GOSH!
SUPER SPICY & DELICIOUS!
But mahal :(
Must be because of the claypot!
But quite worth it I guess.

After lunch, it was really a go-with-the-flow kind of day.
Siew Yoke brought us to the beach again but this time to another beach.
& we got to see turtles!!
HUGE ONES!
PEEKABOO!
It was super duper sunny in PD!
But that ain't stopping us from having fun at the beach!!
I dumbly forgot to bring slippers so I had to walk around the oh-so-cantik beach sand with this sneakers :(
Couldn't touch the sand with my bare feet.
But I did grab some sand and threw it in the air. WOOHOO~

See this.
Silly girl climbing the rocks to take a picture.

HAHA. Okay, that's a wrap in PD!
Off we go to Seremban to buy some food and of course SEREMBAN SIEW PAO to bring back to KL!

You know, from the highway when you pass by Seremban, you always see a huge shop where they promote Seremban Siew Pao?
WE WENT THERE!!
I always see it along the highway but can't figure out how to get there and today I actually went there!
WOOTS!
Bought some a lot of food!!
SIEW PAO SIEW PAO SIEW PAO!!
SEDAP GILER BABI!

All in all, great trip, great people, great food!
Sorry I didn't jio some of you.
We'll go again another time ya! :)

Friday, June 13, 2014

Rewind.


If life has a rewind button, which year will you go back to and why?

I would most probably go back to when I was a kid?

Being a kid is awesome!
You basically eat, play, sleep and do the same thing everyday!
YAY!
It was so fun back then.
Didn't need to bother about the consequence of an action and what shit Newton's 3rd Law is.

But yeah, life is continuous and there is neither a rewind nor a stop button.
You just gotta move on and climb all the mountains till you get to the top or be satisfied with where you are.

Haven't been blogging lately due to brain jam.
Not getting any inspiration from anywhere.
Have been updating my Dayre quite often though.
Those are pretty much impromptu thoughts and daily stuffs.
More on daily rants. LOL.

I used to think that mobile blogging would be troublesome because I am not good in typing on my phone and all but after getting the hang of it, it is much more convenient compared to sitting down in front of the computer and typing everything in one go.

Using Dayre, I can blog as things are happening and everything typed in a day will appear in a post.
Simple and convenient.
Gahh, technology, innovation and creativity.
Definition of an entreprenuership!
Simply AMAZING.

Monday, May 26, 2014

Characters.

Recently I have been hooked by Running Man.
I watch at least 3 episodes a day.
4.5 hours burned everyday.
It's okay.
I believe I can make it :)

Anyway, that is not the main point.
I actually started off by watching the recent episodes but after watching the most recent one, I decided to start from episode 1.

So in episode 1, the hosts in Running Man were unfamiliar with each other.
Well, some probably knew each other and are close with each other but some were pure variety show newbie.
So, there is actually this guy name Lee Kwang Soo.
When I was watching the recent episodes, I was like, wth, this guy like so dumb dumb one.
He is not a person that is capable of doing physical stuff or even mentally challenged stuff.
He was just tall, funny and just being himself.

But then, when I actually went back to the beginning of Running Man, I realized that he was actually a very polite person.
He really respected the elderly and was just genuinely interested in what he was doing.
He tried really hard to ensure that his team would win and tried not to disappoint them.
He was one of the newbie back then and because he wasn't close to anyone in the show, he often kept his thoughts to himself and most of the time was being unheard in the team.

Then I realized, actually his personality is kind of the same as mine?
If I was grouped in an unfamiliar group, all I would do is keep quiet and let other more dominant people do the talking.
I would only speak when I was given the opportunity and even if I had the opportunity, I would think twice before speaking.
Filter what I am thinking and then filter again when I am speaking.

And then in the recent episodes, obviously he is closer to the whole hosts group and felt comfortable around them.
I can actually see the huge difference between the first few episodes and the current ones.
In the recent episodes, he is more opened to criticisms and actually dare to open his mouth and speak his thoughts whenever he feels necessary or even when it was unnecessary. LOL.
And then I immediately think of the group of friends I have in college where I am definitely comfortable around them and AT LEAST I dare to speak my thoughts out.

It is really important to have friends which you feel comfortable around and do not need to think so much when you speak.
It's like, even shit also just say lah.
But then at times it is just difficult to find the perfect friend lah.

Anyway, I miss team building activities.
I really love them, especially sports.
Netball, captain ball and relay running.

Back then in secondary school, I used to take part in the 4x100m and 4x400m runs for Sports Day and that is the only time where I would be super close to friends that are not from the first few classes.
I noticed that they are very flexible and they go all out for sports and I love people that love sports.
I do not like people who doesn't like sports.
When you win something because of teamwork and the effort of every member in the team, the glory you feel is beyond anyone's imagination.
It is like trying your best and relying on others at the same time and you know that they will not disappoint you.
& when you win, it feels really really great!
Though solo runs are good too but team relay running is way better!
I really miss Sports Day. :(
I actually was in the same 4x100m and 4x400m team for at least 3 consecutive years if I am not mistaken.
The teachers do not need to choose the main team cause basically we volunteer ourselves as a group though we might not be from the same class and during school days we don't even talk or look at each other. LOL.
The irony.
How sports bring people together :)

Saturday, May 24, 2014

When even writing don't solve the issue.

Bad day.
Super moody.
Well, at least I got to meet one of my favourite lecturer and had lunch with a really good friend.
But when I try to weigh the positive and negative things that happened to me today.
The bad things outweigh the good ones :(

Or probably I am just too tired.
I feel really really exhausted.
I yawned like so many freaking times today while walking around Midvalley.

There's so much I want to write about.
But sometimes things are better left unsaid.
I am having an emotional flood in me.

I want someone to talk to me and tell me something I WANT TO HEAR, not something that I don't wanna hear.

Ijustwannasleepfor24hours,bythenitwouldbe11.40pmonSundayandeveryonewouldprobablybeasleepandthenextdaywouldbeMondaywhereIwouldbehomealoneandnoonewouldfindme,talktome,orbeconcernedaboutme.WhatIsaidinoneofmypreviouspostwasveryright.Evenwithoutme,theworldwouldstillbespinning.

For now, I am deleting the colour yellow from my life.
Please do not get me anything that is yellow in colour.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Perjalanan.

At times,

it is confidence that makes you stand out, not beauty.

It is not the ending that matter,

it is the journey that makes the ending worthwhile.



STRUGGLES.



Thursday, May 08, 2014

Thoughts, they can go wild.

The other day, one of my friend actually came up to me with something and out of that conversation, she was actually trying to tell me that:

Why fall in love with someone when in the end you're just going to lose that person?

At the moment when she told me this, I was so close to agreeing to it but then after that I have been doing some thinking.

Falling in love or not is something out of our control.

1. Someone might fall in love with you but you might not love that person back.
2. You might fall in love with one person but that person might not love you back.
3. You might have mutual feelings with another person but the timing just isn't right.
4. You might have mutual feelings with another person, the timing is just right but neither one has the courage to say it out.

Which is worst?

When you try avoiding something because there is a possibility of facing a negative consequence, then it is better you don't do anything at all.
Because every action we take might either lead to a positive or a negative impact. For example, when we wake up in the morning, the day might be good or bad.

In conclusion, if you are holding on to the above theory,

Why live, when you know that one day you are going to die.

Natural Chemistry.

Chemistry.
It is something that cannot be forced.
It is natural.
Like how positive attracts negative and if put two of the same together, they repel.

It is not easy to find people in the world, or even one person that can have that natural chemistry that can immediately seal a bond between you and that person.

When I was doing my internship, I realized that there are people in this world that just doesn't "click" with some people.
It is like, no matter how hard you try to reach out or compromise with that person, the two of us are like a parallel line that cannot meet, cannot compromise, cannot agree or basically are not on the same channel.

If you sit together with another person and topics of small talks just naturally comes in your head and you feel comfortable talking about even the crappiest things, it means you and the other person have natural chemistry.

I like people who have the same frequency as me.
We can just sit in a coffee shop or anywhere and just talk or most probably crap the whole day.

Out of topic kejap.
Have you ever met someone that you think is a very good person even though you don't know them?

At times, I have this bad habit of being kiasu around my friends.
I want to be better than them in all ways. LOL.
But then some times, I meet people that I barely know and yet I think they are like so good in many ways and I like them for that.
Last year I met a girl, a friend's friend who eventually became my friend.
And I like super like her, as a friend.
She is one of the many people that I don't compare myself with and I always tell myself that she is so pretty and cute. HAHAHAHA.
And I just genuinely like her?
LOL. Now I sound like a lesbo :o
No, not lesbo.

Okay, nevermind.


Thursday, May 01, 2014

Lipsticks!

Recently I am quite into lipsticks or lip balms that are with colours!
So I actually came across this website called Best Buy World Malaysia.
I actually came across it several years back but never actually purchased anything from there before.
They are selling their items at below market price.
Some are a lot cheaper than outside, some are slightly cheaper but all in all, CHEAPER!

So they are currently having sales!
& the ones that caught my attention were their lipsticks!
I actually bought 3 of them.
*GREEDY, I know!
Best Buy World Malaysia's delivery is super fast!
I actually ordered on Monday and the items arrived on Wednesday!
Impressive!

Let me show you pictures of the lipsticks!
 Tadaaaahh!
From left Estee Lauder's Pure Colour Crystal Lipstick #C5 Wild Orchid (Shimmer), #11 Crystal Coral (Creme) and Clinique's Long Last Lipstick #Water-melon.
 They are actually on sales!
From left RM12, RM16 and RM18.
Where else can you get Estee Lauder and Clinique's lipstick at such a bargain right?
Lets see the inside!
 This is without flash!
And this one is with flash!
The Clinique one is super niceeee!

I actually tried all on but did not take any pictures.
All of them are actually very nice.
You won't feel dry after putting them on.
Great colour.
Does not taste bad.
Moisturizing.
Kinda makes your lips look fuller :D

As whether it is long lasting or not, I am not sure because I only tested it on a while and then rubbed it off.
Can't wait to really put it on and go out to see if it lasts!

Those who are loves lipsticks, go buyyyyy! :D

Saturday, April 05, 2014

Oh well, life goes on.

Have been seeing too many of this sentence. 
"Oh well, life goes on."

Oh btw, graduating in 9 days time :D
Don't know whether should be happy or sad.

Hmm, what I wanna do after finals.
I want to try TARC restaurant.
YES.
When the new semester starts, I shall go and have lunch there :D

Countdown:
9 days.

Saturday, March 22, 2014

When a homeless guy sits in front of you. What do you do?

I was on my way back from KLCC.
So I was waiting for the usual bus at Bandar Tasik Selatan.
It was sunny at the bus stop.
The shades couldn't stop the sun.
So I sat on the grass, near a pole where it was shady.
Another reason I did not sit at the bus stop was because I spot a homeless man that to me, was a risky move to sit beside him.
I was sitting there minding my own business and waiting for the bus for about 20 minutes until the homeless man stood up and walked pass me.
But then, he walked back towards me and sat right in front of me, leaning on the pole in front of me.
I was like, "Shyt, stay calm and look the other side. Ignore, stay calm, don't show any reaction."
So that was what I did for the whole like 2 minutes, until he started talking to me!!

Homeless man: Xiao Jie, ni shi Xiang Gang ren?
Me: *Ignore level up!
Homeless man: Xiao Jie? Xiao Jie!!
Me: Hmm? What? *Look at him with a confused face
Homeless man: Ni shi Xiang Gang ren shi marh?
Me: Err, I don't understand.
Homeless man: You no speak Chinese? Speak English?
Me: Erm, yes yes. I don't know Chinese.
Homeless man: Oh. Why you don't know Chinese?
Me: I didn't learn.
Homeless man: Ohh, where you from?
Me: Cheras.
Homeless man: Ohh. Malay? Japan?
Me: Yes yes. *I don't know, I just want the conversation to end ASAP

Okay, so finally he stopped talking.
He took out a cigarette and smoked.
I thought, okay, repeat the same thing, look the other way and stay calm.

THEN HE STARTED TALKING TO ME AGAINNNNNN!

Homeless man: What is your name? *he actually said name as "lim" or something that sounds like that
Me: Errr, what?
Homeless man: What is your "lim"? Your "lim"? Errr, like Cawan or Mohammad. Your "lim".
Me: Errrr, I don't understand. *Thinking of giving him a fake name but I was wearing my student ID, wth. So I acted as if I don't understand what he said
Homeless man: Nevermind.... *gave up and walked away

I don't know what I did was correct or wrong.
Some people might think "dude, kesian that fella larh weyh."
But seriously, what was on my mind was, what if this guy actually robbed me or what, would the people around me just look and mind their own business or would they actually lend a helping hand?
I don't wanna take the risk.
When I am out alone, I usually give others the "I am a freaking strong person" face and the "please do not disturb me, I am pissed off" face.

Risk averse person here.
It's okay to act dumb once in a while.
Other people don't need to know your capability.

:)

Monday, March 17, 2014

Mimi & I appeared on The Star newspaper!

As titled,

Super huge one because this may be a once in a lifetime experience :)

You suka or tak suka, I still suka :DD