wow....damn tired!!
Today had fun...yay!!
Morning SS...aiyo...Jacky made us sit wit de guys...well Benjamin is okayyy...lolx..
But de group is ssssoooo dead!! haha...
ok nvm.....wats wit de meet u in HUKM??? weird larh all those ppl xD
moving on....erm....after dat went to carrefour...hmm...bought some nice things for me!! hehe...drinks!! xD
den had netball!! AT MONT KIARA!! wow...dat was rely rely rely fun...met new frens...Shabita n Trishna...i kip forgetting Shabita's name tho!! xD
haha....bcame GA today...
wow...all entered!! argh...damn hepi xD
haiyo...now m bck home...findin time to finis all those nonsense (homeworks xD )
haha...

CAUGHT RED-HANDED!!!

Haiz.. i duno wat to say...no comment at all...not surprise oso!! haiz...
He's such a freak larh...can't he juz grow up to b a normal kid lik me xD
haiz...y muz he do sumthing dat hurt others' feelings??? dont he know dat de world loves him n he shud love de world back?? instead he spoils himself..!!
don he know dat others care bout him a lot???!!
wth is wrong wit him???
argh!!
I duno wat m i suppose to do....
Can i juz let it b??
It's a waste dat he's de opposite if me....
He oways complain dat i get everything n he's left with nth...wake up boii....u r de one getting everything n im de one being left behind!! grow up larh!! u r more important to them den me...im juz lucky to b smart n getting all de attention cos u r not...
U R smart....juz dat u r not showing it...n u r not using it to gain attention...instead u think of all stupid things to get attention from them....
is getting a warning letter better den getting a slip with str8 A's???
It's sad to know dat all de relationship between us b4 is finally wearing offf....
v use to b so close dat v talk to each other every single second...i rely miz dat time...i know v r growing older each second, day n year... but its just not fair dat i care bout u n u don take a damn bout me...
I rely wish dat one day u wud get out from ur own world n face reality n know dat education is way more important den entertainment!!
i know im juz wasting my time being concern bout u when u juz wont chg...not even a bit...
i know dat u don know dat im concern n sumtimes i juz cry for u....
y is it so hard for u to und dat everyone is concern bout u???!!

Haiz...
i duno larh wat to do...

Anyway, watched de movie music and lyrics...nice larh...
nth to do...damn bored...a lot of hw to do!! T.T

Great escape!! xD
Today i knew sumthing was wrong larh...
All wear baju pj wan diminta stay in tapak perhimpunan...there...sure lecture wan...
saw pn kama...ask her to hide us...us(brigs n me)...so v follow her up to 5 progre...lolx...hide for a while nia...den go down apd bck...walao..i nearly cried!! pn kama came down n say dat miss maha gonna send all those nvr bring skol U bck home xD
Brig faster faster chged her skol U...den i sesat...
v juz walk..she blocked me...den walk bck to class...i duno whether they got kene surat saman bo...aiyo...i got no mood to tok bout tis larh...

Today quarreled wit dat stupid KY...
he's so dumb lar....


k lets chg...
Is frenship more important den gf or bf??
Duh, of cos larh....
I hate u i hate u...i rely hate u...
bcos of her u r treating me lik dat...
wat do u think i am??
ur mangsa??
when she gets angry u ask me to tham her..n u put de blame on me?? wth??
who do u think i am??
ur kuli or wat??
even my mum doesnt do dat larh...
chg ur attitude larh come on...
Wheres ur commitment?? life isnt only bout love larh...
u think u r de only one falling in love n de world becomes urs arh??
think larh...its reality larh...in heaven u all can live happily ever after larh...but now u got a lot of work to do...

Anyway, lets move to de hepi part...
en zafran having extra class!!! haha....
lolx...
haiz...so many reports to do...so little time...
T.T
f4 is hectic larh!!

Juz woke up from my precious nap!! hehe...after a long time dis is de only time i get to take naps in de evening..argh....my presious nap!! xD
Came bck from skol, chg clothes, terus baring n zzzzzzz!!!! haha...

Had de weirdest dream...dadadada... xD
I sms my fren name D one nite...simply asking D wat u doin, trying to start de conversation xD
den D was lik...im chattin wit P...den i ask larh wat u all chattin bout...den he say larh...'eh don wan chat larh, im arguing wit P bout sumthing...damn fun...not lik chattin wit u...v nvr fite bout anything wan...damn sien..bye' walao...damn hurt!! xD
haiz...
ANYWAY, i cant blieve im dreaming bout sms!! Im a freak!! wakaka...

Btw, i slpt at 0245pm if im not mistaken...den i sudd woke up at 0532pm...I RARELY TAKE NAPS IN DE EVENING!!! I REPEAT!! lolx....so den i look out de window...which is at de dining room n i saw bright lite...i mean de sky was bright larh...all sunny...so i thought i was late for skol..i was lik, SHYT, im late AGAIN!! i was late many times d FYI...so i reach out for de small clock beside my pillow n look at de time...de small clock shows 0532....hmm...i was thinking, how can 5 sumthing in de morning b so bright....so den i try to figure out...i look at de clock again...owh, it's written there PM bside de numbers -.-ll den to confirm i looked at my clothes!! xD
wah, i was damn blurr larh...so woke up n open de gate lorh...
tis time when i was sleeping, i was lik dead...i cudnt feel anything...de way i slp was de way i woke up...WEIRD!! TOTALLY!!

k lets get over to other things, shall v....Haha...
today did 2 experiments in skol!! yay!! fun larh...at least no need to study xD
experiments r fun....but de bad part is v need to do reports...haiz...IRRITATING!!
BM teacher din come today!! kaka....nvr do karangan...dats y larh i hepi =x

Ehh, wait!! i rmmbr y i sudd woke up...dat zi en larh sms me...got nth else to do...haha...jkjk...he sms me...had vibration...cos i put my hp at de side of my pillow...wit a soft toy, de small clock n my mp3..hehe...so i woke up larh xD

Anyway, our skol drama team wont!! But v left de pole in de bus!! sad....lolx...nth much larh...

Sumore, EST folio done...HEPI!! =D

*y is de monitor screen turning yellow?? ouch, it hurts my eyes!!*

Hungry larh...today i din eat lunch...got nth to eat n i was damn tired...so i skipped lunch..hehe...
k...hmm...i think dats all rite...I MISS PHYSICS!! xD xD
haha...

Wah nowadays after 5 days den only update blog..haiz...
everyday...its either no time...or too exhausted....
not bcos of too much hw...i duno wth am i doin larh...sumhow im bz...hehe ^^

Hmm...lets do some reviews...hehe...
Last thursday wasnt a holiday for me!! Hafta wake up early morning to go for netball frenly match in HFK church....haiz...wow!! v won against them larh!! NICE!! hehe...
den after dat was SLEEP!! my hobby!! til lik 4pm den went out wit parents..came bck den went church at 630pm....
De next day was friday....hmm...took de RM200!! yay!! had fun doing props...but was damn sleepy dat time...den went for service...ehem....*simplay coughing* xD
Den here comes saturday!! My fav day of de week!! Morning erm...was...all comp....den was BB...rely had fun...games...AND ALSO GOT UNIFORM!! hehe...BUT BUT BUT i spent almost RM100 juz for everything T.T n havent even pay for de boots...haiz...my own money!! T.T de PMR money larh...thank goodness v took it d...if not jia lat lorh xD
After BB was church!! Easter Vigil...ehem...*simply coughing again xD *
wah....de mass was lik from 1030pm til 2am...damn long...haha....played candle ( sumone say wan ) haha...no larh....not playing larh....
Den went home!! PARTY?? nah!! sleep lik a piglet!! xD
Wanted to go for Easter Mass.....hehehehehehe....my dad told me no nid go cos slpt late...hehe...so den do hw lorh....dats all larh for de whole holy week!! yea...

Today's monday!! Yepz!! One of de most busiest days in my life!!
Hmm...
Went skol...had drama full dress rehearsel...so went up to de last floor to get all de props ready n erm....watched de drama....after finis was FOOD TIME!! hehe....den after dat was continue doing props...was SOOOO i mean SOOOOO kelam kabut larh....haiz...sew sew sew!!
Den..........erm.....wth larh...everyone juz left de props up there...on de 5th floor!! do u expect A GAL LIK ME to carry all down?? -.-ll
Den....thank goodness Hakim helped!! de other guys all SISI!! argh!! wah i damn lazy to write wat happen lar...too many things happened!! Amazingly i helped 5 teachers in a day!! woohoo!!!
im supergal =x

0ne week of holiday finally over le!!
And now is de results time...haiz...first exam itself oso all de results damn cha d...haiz...
real format time duno how i gonna die...
mayb b4 exam commit suicide liao!! T.T

So far only got bm, bi, ma, mt, phy, chem n bio...others all havent get...walao...beta so many ppl fail in moral...im scared i oso gonna fail larh...haiz..
Omgosh...dat day v sang dat witchdoctor song in chem class...was sooo fun larh...i love chem teacher...as a fren not as a teacher...cos her teaching kinda sux!! omgosh...en zafran in sooo funny xD
haha...en remi oso...luckily he din scold larh for de marks...haiz...y larh y??? soo damn low larh my marks!! wanna cry jorh...

Haiz...all tis while i don blieve in dat thingy...wats it called?? i forgot...watever larh...but it rely happens lorh...happening to me!! haiz...sudd sudd no mood!! haiz...

duno wat to write larh...damn tired...everyday stay back...no mood for anything!! tmr netball practise!!! *cries*

For tis first holiday in form 4...
one word to describe it...FUN!! xD

Haha...

monday - went skol for props...after skol go lm...watched 10 000bc...de movie was only OKAY larh...not very interesting oso....but ok larh dat day...hunted for 3 bdae presents!! in de end of de day...PK!! xD

tuesday - REAL HOLIDAY!! Rested de whole day...erm...online de whole day i mean xD

wednesday - Again went skol for props...haiz...tiring wan larh...but fun oso...

thursday - Heres where de fun part begins.........haha...NO PROPS today!! wakaka...early in de morning went to lynn's hse....erm...den v wait n wait...she told me her dream larh...dat was soooo funny....she dreamt dat de guys dat went out wit us wore singlet n shorts to jusco -.- haha....den v waited for ginny...den erm...went out lorh...went jusco at around 12...reach there oni str8 go mcD...everyone was hungry!! eat eat eat!! wakaka...den when eating de guys came lorh...v saved de table next to us but they din sit there...den erm....went buy tickets for movie lorh....so blurr larh duno wanna watch wat movie...coss....lynn's sis was wit us so v cant sneak her in de 18+ movie...de others can act xD macam larh aku nmpk mcm 18 thn xD de movie starts at 320 but dat time was lik 1....so juz walk walk around de shopping lorh...so damn sien wan...nth to c nth to buy...den went arcade lorh....lynn n ginny played...aiyoo...i wasnt in de mood to play all those games larh...i was erm, kinda bored xD den finally it was 315...went to de cinema....aiyoo...lynn damn bad wan lerh...i hafta sit bside de guy larh...y cant she sit bside them -.- anyway nvm larh...not first time oso wat =x haha...wah, de cinema was DAMN COLD larh...rely...it was rely cold..thank goodnez lynn brought sweater for me larh..sumore i was wearing sleeveless t -.- i was shivering lik after de mid part of de movie...haiz...but de movie was nice larh...den when de movie ended v pisah wit de guys lorh..they go their way v go our way...went toilet larh wat else xD den me, lynn n her sis hafta go home larh cos her dad waiting outside so left ginny in de toilet xD den sampai rumah....hem came...my mama xD den ate dinner n went to pasar malam...walk walk walk, hujan -.-ll haha...lucky drizzling nia...so v walked faster n went home...luckily walking distance oni...when reached home str8 went up to de room...chit chat larh wat else...lolx...aiyo hem n lynn kip smsming i got bored so started singin xD lynn was damn hepi...yea~ glad she's hepi larh...she was lik hugging hem??? ok, yea~ lolx...den when it was around 11 sumthing hungry!! lolx...went down...hem did de milo n i was suppose to cook de maggie ( de pig say not gud xD ) den omgos...had one big ugly cockroach by de name of Bob (de name lynn gave ) was at de stove!! aiyooo...how to cook...tis time her kakak wasnt there to de rescue...v had to save ourselves!! it was damn funny larh...hem was recording all this...which v ask to...lolx...k den afta dat eating time...i was holdin de camera...soooooo RECORD RECORD RECORD!! xD it was all so funny larh...3 vids was recorded...it is kept savely!! no one shud ever c it...unless gud n de bestest buddiez...den terror strick!! lolx..jkjk...hem erm...sumthing happened larh...den finis eating went up...BRUSHING TEETH time!! woow!! xD
hem recorded me n lynn brushing teeth...v were doin de same actions...it was so funny dat v din rely brush our teeth properly...btw, its brushed larh -.- den here comes de screaming from her dad asking us to slp early...yea...went in de room...u think v wil sleep arh?? lolx...chat larh of cos...chat til 5..lynn fell asleep!! haiyoo...den v din cont larh..but still cudnt slp til lik 530am!! de alarm was 630!! omgosh!! 630 hem was de first one to get up..i was shivering for de 2nd time!! i hate aircond!! den she went n took her bath den call us(me n lynn) lynn din wanna wake up larh (she sleepy pig) den i went n bathe first larh...den eat breakfast n walked to skol...all de way to skol...everyone was complaining...IM SOOOO SLLEEEPPPYY!! xD in skol oso damn sleepy larh...haiyo...den finis skol...went home to our own houses...i reach oni chg clothes den terus baring on de bed d...don care!! din eat, drink or watever....juz slp!! haha...until 3 sumthing...den woke up...sms larh...haiz...got nth else to do...cant go online dat time cos my bro was sleeping..de pc is inside his room...i got laptop but de wireless modem my uncle took d...haiz...listen to music n sms lorh...til my bro wake up..yay! get to use de pc!! haha...den finis lorh rite..til here...me writing tis lame blog!! xD

Wah, today so early i update blog jorh xD
Got sumthing happen ma update earlier lorh...

Today holiday ma rite...so ma no nid wake up early lorh...normally at home i wil b de first to wake up de marh...so afta i get redy den i wil on de lite so dat my parents wil wake up n my dad wil get redy for work...so today i had my holiday...so i was sleeping til lik 645 cos wanted to go to de water closet...when i look n de clock, my dad normally leaves de hse at 630 though..So he din wake up in time to go to work..de fon rang...no one pick up...wat larh...i hafta wake them up -.-
haiz...in de end they put de blame on me cos i din wake them up when i went to de water closet instead wake them up when de fon rang...hello!! how was i suppose to know dat daddy wasnt on leave -.-ll
n i was de one to blame??
haiz...watever larh...HOLIDAY JORH!!
xD
hepi....

YAy~
Finally exam over lurr!!
Merdeka for now T.T
one week holiday!!
wat to do wat to do??
slp??
gai gai???
duno larh....
yerr..tis sun sumore got netball practise..very sien larh...X MINAT LANGSUNG!!
its not practise...got frenly match wit assumption if im not mistaken..sien lorh!!

exam review...
1st day...
bm-krngn time damn blurr...duno wat i wrote..tata damn confusing xD
chem-ok larh...can answer...
addmaths-erm erm...sux!! gonna fail teruk2...
svk-din read oso can answer larh...lolx..
2nd day...
bi-aiya, lexical luxury din hafal oso can answer larh -.-
bio-wah, siao...dead jorh..
est-ok larh...kinda ez..
sj-i duno all de subjective T.T
3rd n final day!..
maths-quite ez but alredy know 2 q wrong le T.T
physics-ok gua~ quite ez...wont fail xD
moral-aiya...wet wet water =x watever larh...don fail enuf jorh xD

dats all lorh...haha...my mum's comment 'fail ma fail lorh'
so i ma follow lorh...no nid read so much larh..fail ma fail lorh...
xD

haiz...now holiday...i duno wat to do...hmm...i wanna go for de steamboot!!!!!
T.T

anyway i forgot everthing dat happen...de sad wan larh...now juz hepi go lucky...go wit de flow...
eventhough it still remain...it remains a secret!! xD

I LOVE MY LIFE N FRENZ!

Im So Nervous!!
-.-ll

Im scared!!
tis coming saturday is sport's day...3 competition!!
1-kawad pps...muz win!!
2-running 4x100m...erm..tis wan got chance gua xD
3-running 400m...lose oso nvm larh...anyway no chance oso...enter for fun xD

plan plan plan...after sports day go BB?? tired lerh...next week exam lurr!! T.T havent study yet..i duno how i m going to fail!! xD
teruk larh tis time...no time to study...
today NOT suppose to stay bck but i stupidly went n stayed bck...wanted to watch brig they all practise drama but end up sleeping by de side xD xD
damn tired larh!!
still got physics report to do..n i have no idea how to do it!
Argh!! don und addmaths!! n also chem!!
haiz...

Finally my inspiration is back again xD xD
I'm so happy...i thought my talent was lost forever!! argh!! damn happy!
So heres my first poem after recovery xD xD
I have no idea wat title to put...any suggestion??
So here it goes...

Hiding everything from the world in front of me
Not knowing that it is getting worser day by day
Faking a smile and hiding a tear
Hoping that it will get better the day after today
Forgetting is hard
Forgiving is not
Breaking is easy
Fixing is not
Laying down my head to go to my dreams
Only to wake up and know that its fantasy
My heart smiles when i meet you eye to eye
My brain freezes when a word comes from you
A secret will remain a secret
Until one day it will not remain a secret
The day will come for us to know
That everything was just a ticket
A ticket to grow and finally know
That friendship and love will finally glow

Nice marh?? xD xD

Today went SS...it was quite fun...sat in de std6 clazz cos our clazz they use to watch video...anyway...today's topic was injustice...its injustice rite not unjustice...
sir nelson ask us to giv example of injustice in our life...so i said families...parents dat r sumtimes berat sebelah...they pilih kasih...no one else talked bout family except me...
it was weird...dat he kip questioning me bout y i said parents...
everytime he call names follow register...he wont rmmbr me!! argh!! he kip asking whether im Francis's daughter..everytime oso ask...he miss my bro ( anak tauke babi =x )
haha...last year's confirmation camp xD xD

I duno wat to think about now...everythin seem to be going wrong...
I love myself..but everything dat is happening to me make me kinda hate myself...
What i wan i wil nvr get but wat i don wan wil always b there...even if i rely hate it!!
Can a relationship b save if everyday they fight??
how does their loved ones feel when they c dem fight?
wil their hearts b broken if they rely split??
don they care bout wat others think?
wat can others do to avoid arguement n bickering?


Is divorce a common thing in this era??
have u ever met sumone with divorced parents?
how were their reactions when their parents got divorce?
how, as a fren..how did u make them happy?
did u lend them ur shoulder or juz left them alone?
r they happy now?
or still in pain?
r u a gud fren?
how gud r u to ur fren?
were u there when they were sad?


R u in love now?
DO u love ur family?
ur frens?
a special person?
how does it feel if they ignore u?
or betray u?
treating u lik u r sumone useless...
not knowing dat they mean a lot to u...
hurtin u lik a thousand time...
when ur heart sumhow juz cant take it no more...
letting it all go in tears...
wishing she was on de mountain screaming out all she cud..


Can a normal human being juz fail in everythin??
Love..
studies..
family...
bizness...
frens???
how perfect can a human b?
can a human b hepi every single second?
wil wealth bring u happiness??
or wil ur loved ones bring u joy??
wil u ever forget de person u forgive?
How does it feel when sumone stab ur bck?
how does it feel when sumone breaks ur heart?
how does it feel when sumone says they hate u?
izit possible dat u wil forgive n also forget?
Y do humans cry?
when u r happy, u cry...
when u r sad, u cry...
how do u know whether dat person is happy or sad?
can crying help u solve every prob u face?
y muz probs n circumstances exist in a human being's life?
wil there b life after death?
y r some ppl so racism?
y do v have diff religions?
don everyone come from de same way?

LYING!!
Y do ppl lie?
it is a sin to lie..but y ppl still do it?
sum ppl juz don do wat they say..
once ppl told me dat watever u say, u muz do..
but wat i realise was...in reality no one follows dat...
u say n den u forget...


i once had de power to c things in my dream...my mum once hid a secret from me...den one nite i dreamed bout it n asked her de next morning...she was shocked dat i knew it...i told her i dreamt bout it...
but a few years later i stop dreaming bout things lik dat...i thought my life was gonna b perfect...
now i wish i cud dream of things dat i rely wish to know..i m rely curious of wat my life is gonna b when im an adult...wil i still b alive til 21??
those questions running in my head!! everytime i lay my head on de pillow...all thoughts come rushing to my mind!! everytime im walking alone after BB...de same thing happen...

Happy thoughts..where r u??

Family Prayer

God our loving Father
Bless our families with a sense of responsibility
That each one of us may do our part
In making our family a home church
As the holy family at Nazareth
Like Nazareth, may it be a center of faith, hope and love
A home of prayer, peace and commitment to your kingdom
Guide our lives
Direct our steps
And sustain in all our undertakings
Lord, we ask u to bless our every endeavour
To evangelise ourselves and your people
As we journey in brotherhood and love
May we like St Peter
Inspite of our limitations
Remain a faithfull companion and witness to Jesus
In confidence, we earnestly entrust to you
The trials, affliction, joys and events of our family life

When You Love Sumone

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved him for so very long,
You would think he could do no wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That he would always stay this way.
He treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
He started putting you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to him was dirt.

He started ignoring you and you wondered why,
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night he was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Two days later he was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

He thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things he said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry him some day,
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.

Now it has become a very huge issue for me in skol...every single fren of mine trying to protect me from any danger dat approach me...lik im a God! jkjk ...im a special fren...

Haha...bodyguards here n there, surrounding me...wah...its so funny larh....pls cut out de act..it wont work...lolx...anyway thanks a lot for always being by my side n helping me out for everything...
special thx to all de guys! xD

ze, kex, jy, bj....eventually ks knows bout it @.@ blurr!! xD
Brigss too!! haha...she sacrificed her eye-seeing time to help me avoid ehem ehem...omgosh i cant blieve tis is happening in skol!! xD

Brigs + Sumthing Wrong??!!
Sumthing's wrong wit her!! xD
Brigs + Function??
lolx...
Brigs + L??
Hello...he's mine...
Brigs + KB??
Erm...not interested!! wakaka

Me + pinky??
Damn...he's taken xD xD
anyway..jk nia...xD

rely love my frenz a lot!! Brigs rely lik sumthing wrong larh!!
She's so in lurve with him...cant believe it!! she don even talk to him....she looks so cute when she c him den she get so excited...

Last year was pavi...being all over de coconut tree!! xD
dat was a real joke larh...she kip chging target lik chging her clothes -.-ll

I cant forget today recess larh...its so so funny....it all happened so fast i didn't even haf time to realise wat was rely happening...haha...

I guess de same thing wil b happening next mon, tue, wed, thurs, fri....yea n so on...til everything is over xD
haha...i rely hope it ends lik tmr xD xD

[[*Betrayal / Bei Pan*]]

Yu bu ting luo xia lai
Hua zen mo dou bu kai
Jin guo wo xi xin guan gai
Ni shuo bu ai jiu bu ai
Wo yi ge ren
Xin shang bei ai

Ai zhi sheng siu wu nai
Wo yi zhi bu yuan zai qu cai
Gang qin shang hei jian zhi jian
Yong yuan dou jia zhi kong bai
Que le yi kuai
Jiu bu jing cai


Chorus:
Jin jin xiang yi de xin ru he say goodbye
Ni bi wo qing chu hai yao wo shuo ming bai
Ai tai shen hui rang ren feng kuang de yong gan
Wo yong bei pan zi ji
Wan cheng ni de qi pan
Ba shou fang kai bu wen yi ju say goodbye
Dang zuo zui hou yi ci dui ni de ni ai
Leng leng qing qing dan dan jin hou dou bu guan
Zhi yao ni neng yu kuai


Xin you yi ju gan kai
Wo hai neng gou gen shei dui bai
Zai ni guan shang men zhi qian
Ti wo zai hui tou kan kan
Na xie pian duan
Hai zai bu zai

Today's schedule was real tight...
In de morning went for church den SS den my grandma's hse...
den rush home to go for cpt ball practise...
haiz...tiring larh..

Ytd one of my fren ask me...y ur blog got so much secrets...when in skol u don even talk bout it..
My reply to her was...its not a secret actually...im a kind of gurl dat if u don ask i wont tell...cos i know being sad at sumthing is rely a waste of time...today in church i learnt dat in life there is no PAUSE button...so live it to de fullest if can...who knows tmr u mite not b alive anymore...

I went to my grandma's hse today...she told me n my mum everything dat happen to her n her siblings....i felt sad at dat moment..haiz...all tis while i duno wat happened to them larh...haiz...

Well...don care larh....another thing to fan about...my church!! haiz...black n white...wats dat larh???
haiz...u don let me join church games juz cos of dat?? haiz...de story began 2 years ago...i wasn't chosen for de church netball group...was kinda disapointed...de reason - cos im short!!
den one day tis women in de group fell n hurt her leg...she was badly injured so i was in de group larh...so since den almost everyday v had practises...played at nite....even when de sun wasn't up...was a tiring week b4 de games...
so den came de real game...everyone joyfully entered de bus to go to seremban if im not mistaken...so v reach de place...found a nice seat for all de supporters n players...
game after game started n ended...i was all de while sitting in de supporters seat when my name was in de players list...all de while i was thinking when do i get to play den sudd de coach called my name...felicia go in n play....so den i happily walk in de court n started playing...trying to play my best din care about any injuries i mite face ahead....there was it...v won dat game...den again i was in de supporters seat again...waiting for my second turn...when there wasn't even another turn for me...stupidly waiting for sumthing dat wasn't even there....haiz...
den when i return home i told my mum everything...actually i din mind dat i only played half a game although there was lik 7 games if im not mistaken...but sumhow deep in my heart there was tis not satisfied feeling...my mum she influence me telling...yea larh all oh hia...where wil let us play de...all also their own ppl play de larh...den since den in church i have tis hatred towards dem...i duno y...since den i seldom go for netball practises...haiz...i duno y all her words seem to have a lot of effect towards me..haiz...den now de thing dat i fan about iss....sandra ask me wanna enter netball or football for goodwill games...my interest is surely in netball but i know eventhough my name wil b in de player list but surely wont get to play...cos i havent grow an inches since de last time...so i only can enter football...haiz...im so confused larh....my mum encourages me more to join BB activities den my church activities...church too many conflict jorh...haiz..

My life is now at a junction...its whether go left which means making my own decision or right which is my parents' decision...i have too many choices in life making me feel lik sumthin without an option is way better!! haiz...decisions make me confuse...

I duno y every sat after come bck from BB sure very hepi de...
=D

Hmm...review review....
Today went n do de uniform...
Haha...hui min belanje jelly xD xD
Den damn funny larh...her first jelly fell on de floor...lolx...
den she went n bought another one...den fell again xD xD
Den she malu to go buy another one...ask me to go buy for her...
luckily de third n fourth wan nvr fall xD xD
So long larh for de man to finis taking all de ukuran...gals first ma..den v all waited lorh...
Den Jason's fren ask me how old am i...i said form 1...den he ask me y so short worh..
if i say i f4 den ma cham..haha...
den another jason ask me y my english so gud..
dat time in front of sk bt 9 ma...den i ma say lorh...i went to a very gud skol...dats y my english so gud...
den he ask me wat skol...den i pointed to de skol larh...den he ask me...dat skol not haunted wan meh...
den i say yea larh....i went to a gud skol...de ghost taught me eng dats y so gud...
Dat joke was dumb n lame larh...not even funny...

Anyway...went bck to church time...LUCKILY i din run man...haha...all those dat ran bck kene pumping...hui min n i was nicely walking bhind!! lolx...n because of dat v din kene denda...wakaka...

Aiya missed squad activity again!! wat larh...thought today ok larh...can join...haiz...nvm larh...
today no rush cos my dad got dinner to attend...den after dismiss gave present time xD xD

Den walk bck T.T
duno y today i walk damn slow larh...haha

Omgosh these few days in skol is soooo chaotic!!
i remember one day...b4 recess had bio den english...she left de BKK in de lab...omgosh...
den when last period which is addmaths, en remi(discipline teacher) time den oni she remember...den dat time i wanted to go to de water closet larh...den v went to de lab...anyway alfa was in there...lolx...brig was finding for de BKK..den v went to Beta...to find my pants cos sumone borrowed it for sesi fotografi....den i went to de water closet...den went to chem lab to ask for chem teacher's signature...den rushed up bck to addmaths clazz...dat time all de f2 coming in d...so shifted clazz to 5 kreatif...omgosh dat was rely rely tiring...den i sit alone T.T den cm came n sit wit me...lolx...den not lonely liao...

sumore wat happen arh...hmm...nth larh...cant recall bck anything...

btw, i cant make up my mind larh...go for which?
skol or BB sports day??
my mum n teacher say its lik once in a lifetime to go for de price giving day...n BB sports day is lik once in a year...xD
how larh??
both clashing larh de time T.T
i oso think dat price giving for PMR result is lik once in a lifetime larh...
haiz...
but i wanna go for de sports day too....

Frenz Forever..

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives,
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25.
I keep thinking times will never change,
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back,
No more hanging out because were on a different track.
And if you got something that you need to say,
You better say it right now because you don't have another day.

Because we're moving on and we cant slow down.
These memories are playing like a film without sound.
And I keep thinking of that night in June,
I didn't know much of love but it came too soon.
And there was me and you and well we got real blue,
Stay at home talking on the telephone, with me,
We'd get so excited and we'd get so scared,
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money,
When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school,
Still be trying to break every single rule?
Will little brainy Pavi be the astrounat girl?
Can Hema find a job dat makes her smile everytime?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye,
Keep on thinking its our time to fly,

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end,
And suddenly it's like we're women and men.
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round,
Or will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep, keep thinking that its not goodbye,
Keep on thinking its our time to fly.

And this is how it feels

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
from whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever

Haiz...
today valentines day....

anyway, i regreted coming online ytd!!
haiz...stupid larh....
T.T

De feeling of guiltiness after rejecting is much worser den knowing dat sumone v lik, lik sumone else...haiz...
i duno wat he's thinking larh...haiz...eventhough i don lik u...juz accept larh...
at least i still reply ur sms rite...unlike sumone i know...
haiz...
y cant v juz b frens??
is it so hard arh??
normal frens r still cool ok...
v can hang out together larh...
haiz...
even b4 this happen v were frens...its ok wat...haiz...now wat am i suppose to do?

Aiyo don wan think so much but haiz...duno larh...trying to forget bout it..