Characters.

Recently I have been hooked by Running Man.
I watch at least 3 episodes a day.
4.5 hours burned everyday.
It's okay.
I believe I can make it :)

Anyway, that is not the main point.
I actually started off by watching the recent episodes but after watching the most recent one, I decided to start from episode 1.

So in episode 1, the hosts in Running Man were unfamiliar with each other.
Well, some probably knew each other and are close with each other but some were pure variety show newbie.
So, there is actually this guy name Lee Kwang Soo.
When I was watching the recent episodes, I was like, wth, this guy like so dumb dumb one.
He is not a person that is capable of doing physical stuff or even mentally challenged stuff.
He was just tall, funny and just being himself.

But then, when I actually went back to the beginning of Running Man, I realized that he was actually a very polite person.
He really respected the elderly and was just genuinely interested in what he was doing.
He tried really hard to ensure that his team would win and tried not to disappoint them.
He was one of the newbie back then and because he wasn't close to anyone in the show, he often kept his thoughts to himself and most of the time was being unheard in the team.

Then I realized, actually his personality is kind of the same as mine?
If I was grouped in an unfamiliar group, all I would do is keep quiet and let other more dominant people do the talking.
I would only speak when I was given the opportunity and even if I had the opportunity, I would think twice before speaking.
Filter what I am thinking and then filter again when I am speaking.

And then in the recent episodes, obviously he is closer to the whole hosts group and felt comfortable around them.
I can actually see the huge difference between the first few episodes and the current ones.
In the recent episodes, he is more opened to criticisms and actually dare to open his mouth and speak his thoughts whenever he feels necessary or even when it was unnecessary. LOL.
And then I immediately think of the group of friends I have in college where I am definitely comfortable around them and AT LEAST I dare to speak my thoughts out.

It is really important to have friends which you feel comfortable around and do not need to think so much when you speak.
It's like, even shit also just say lah.
But then at times it is just difficult to find the perfect friend lah.

Anyway, I miss team building activities.
I really love them, especially sports.
Netball, captain ball and relay running.

Back then in secondary school, I used to take part in the 4x100m and 4x400m runs for Sports Day and that is the only time where I would be super close to friends that are not from the first few classes.
I noticed that they are very flexible and they go all out for sports and I love people that love sports.
I do not like people who doesn't like sports.
When you win something because of teamwork and the effort of every member in the team, the glory you feel is beyond anyone's imagination.
It is like trying your best and relying on others at the same time and you know that they will not disappoint you.
& when you win, it feels really really great!
Though solo runs are good too but team relay running is way better!
I really miss Sports Day. :(
I actually was in the same 4x100m and 4x400m team for at least 3 consecutive years if I am not mistaken.
The teachers do not need to choose the main team cause basically we volunteer ourselves as a group though we might not be from the same class and during school days we don't even talk or look at each other. LOL.
The irony.
How sports bring people together :)

When even writing don't solve the issue.

Bad day.
Super moody.
Well, at least I got to meet one of my favourite lecturer and had lunch with a really good friend.
But when I try to weigh the positive and negative things that happened to me today.
The bad things outweigh the good ones :(

Or probably I am just too tired.
I feel really really exhausted.
I yawned like so many freaking times today while walking around Midvalley.

There's so much I want to write about.
But sometimes things are better left unsaid.
I am having an emotional flood in me.

I want someone to talk to me and tell me something I WANT TO HEAR, not something that I don't wanna hear.

Ijustwannasleepfor24hours,bythenitwouldbe11.40pmonSundayandeveryonewouldprobablybeasleepandthenextdaywouldbeMondaywhereIwouldbehomealoneandnoonewouldfindme,talktome,orbeconcernedaboutme.WhatIsaidinoneofmypreviouspostwasveryright.Evenwithoutme,theworldwouldstillbespinning.

For now, I am deleting the colour yellow from my life.
Please do not get me anything that is yellow in colour.

Perjalanan.

At times,

it is confidence that makes you stand out, not beauty.

It is not the ending that matter,

it is the journey that makes the ending worthwhile.

STRUGGLES.

Thoughts, they can go wild.

The other day, one of my friend actually came up to me with something and out of that conversation, she was actually trying to tell me that:

Why fall in love with someone when in the end you're just going to lose that person?

At the moment when she told me this, I was so close to agreeing to it but then after that I have been doing some thinking.

Falling in love or not is something out of our control.

1. Someone might fall in love with you but you might not love that person back.

2. You might fall in love with one person but that person might not love you back.

3. You might have mutual feelings with another person but the timing just isn't right.

4. You might have mutual feelings with another person, the timing is just right but neither one has the courage to say it out.

Which is worst?

When you try avoiding something because there is a possibility of facing a negative consequence, then it is better you don't do anything at all.

Because every action we take might either lead to a positive or a negative impact. For example, when we wake up in the morning, the day might be good or bad.

In conclusion, if you are holding on to the above theory,

Why live, when you know that one day you are going to die.

Natural Chemistry.

Chemistry.
It is something that cannot be forced.
It is natural.
Like how positive attracts negative and if put two of the same together, they repel.

It is not easy to find people in the world, or even one person that can have that natural chemistry that can immediately seal a bond between you and that person.

When I was doing my internship, I realized that there are people in this world that just doesn't "click" with some people.
It is like, no matter how hard you try to reach out or compromise with that person, the two of us are like a parallel line that cannot meet, cannot compromise, cannot agree or basically are not on the same channel.

If you sit together with another person and topics of small talks just naturally comes in your head and you feel comfortable talking about even the crappiest things, it means you and the other person have natural chemistry.

I like people who have the same frequency as me.
We can just sit in a coffee shop or anywhere and just talk or most probably crap the whole day.

Out of topic kejap.
Have you ever met someone that you think is a very good person even though you don't know them?

At times, I have this bad habit of being kiasu around my friends.
I want to be better than them in all ways. LOL.
But then some times, I meet people that I barely know and yet I think they are like so good in many ways and I like them for that.
Last year I met a girl, a friend's friend who eventually became my friend.
And I like super like her, as a friend.
She is one of the many people that I don't compare myself with and I always tell myself that she is so pretty and cute. HAHAHAHA.
And I just genuinely like her?
LOL. Now I sound like a lesbo :o
No, not lesbo.

Okay, nevermind.

Lipsticks!

Recently I am quite into lipsticks or lip balms that are with colours!

So I actually came across this website called Best Buy World Malaysia.

I actually came across it several years back but never actually purchased anything from there before.

They are selling their items at below market price.

Some are a lot cheaper than outside, some are slightly cheaper but all in all, CHEAPER!

So they are currently having sales!

& the ones that caught my attention were their lipsticks!

I actually bought 3 of them.

*GREEDY, I know!

Best Buy World Malaysia's delivery is super fast!

I actually ordered on Monday and the items arrived on Wednesday!

Impressive!

Let me show you pictures of the lipsticks!

 Tadaaaahh!

From left Estee Lauder's Pure Colour Crystal Lipstick #C5 Wild Orchid (Shimmer), #11 Crystal Coral (Creme) and Clinique's Long Last Lipstick #Water-melon.

 They are actually on sales!

From left RM12, RM16 and RM18.

Where else can you get Estee Lauder and Clinique's lipstick at such a bargain right?

Lets see the inside!

 This is without flash!

And this one is with flash!

The Clinique one is super niceeee!

I actually tried all on but did not take any pictures.

All of them are actually very nice.

You won't feel dry after putting them on.

Great colour.

Does not taste bad.

Moisturizing.

Kinda makes your lips look fuller :D

As whether it is long lasting or not, I am not sure because I only tested it on a while and then rubbed it off.

Can't wait to really put it on and go out to see if it lasts!

Those who are loves lipsticks, go buyyyyy! :D