I Will Be

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, coz you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Coz I will never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Coz without you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I’ve got, you’re all I wantYeah...
And without you I don’t know what I’d do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever (forever)
To get you through the day
And make everything okayI will be, all that you want (I'll be)
And get myself together (get myself together)
Coz you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I’ll be with you forever (all my life)
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Haiz...leg damn damn damn pain lerh...not only de wound pain...de whole leg pain...lik damn heavy lerh...walk up de stairs oso cham...sumore today walk so many times up n down T.T
start skol go up once...den rehat go down go up...den go library, down n up...den maths room, down n up...den go lab, up...den down...den go library...up n down T.T wah can die man...i think i lost weight! xD xD

Erm...anson shifting skol lorh...luckily today not his last day...den tmr i can have my book back xD

hmm...don wan talk much larh...don wan advertise wat im feeling now xD

so dats all larh happen today....

Wah...tired lerh...y arh today morning so x semangat go SS wan...haiz...go there lik wanna sleep only..haiz...den after SS use de new laptop...wah de connection oways dc wan...sien lerh....den play til no time to get redy for CB...haha...den when de clock strike 3.45 kelam kabut jorh xD
dah larh i duno wheres de court xD den got find larh...find sumone dat know lorh...

den go CB...aiyo de physical training lik siao...so long time din exercise so much liao...always training oso run nia ma...haiz..tired lerh....
yer so malu...dai ga jie fall lerh...haiz..all mui mui oso din fall T.T but overall ok larh de practise...fun lorh...not sien...everytime de goal den i start cheering...first first no one follow me lerh...so malu...den later yee lyn n anita follow me cheer...y others so serious de...have fun marh xD

den at 7 go bck lorh...walking time drizzling liao...den sudd saw son yeng's mum on de road...tumpang larh wat else xD den reach home...bathe den go eat Bak Kut Teh..yay! lolx...

den come home do hw =x

Haiz..today tired lerh...BB din even stay for de ending part....rush home...str8 go bathroom bathe...den get redy...str8 go church T.T din even have time to sit...got larh...in car time get to sit =x

wah...during mass my stomach was growling...lik how many years d din eat...lolx...but all de songs wan fantastic...at least i know all xD den can sing larh...if not....

nice lerh drill...i love kawad...duno y..hehe...

Reschedule...

Monday - Go skol...stay back for PSS duty...come back...bathe, eat, watch tv, do hm...sleep..
Tuesday - Go skol...stay back for latihan rumah sukan...come back..bathe, eat, watch tv, do hm...sleep...
Wednesday - Go skol...no stay back for now...come back...eat, nap..do hm...bathe..eat, watch tv...sleep...
Thursday - Go skol...stay back for latihan rumah sukan...come back...bathe, eat, watch tv, do hm...sleep...
Friday - Go skol...come back...eat...watch tv...nap...do hm...bathe...eat...sleep...
Saturday - Evening go BB...rush home...bathe, go church...dinner, sleep...
Sunday - Go SS....come home...sometimes got cptn ball practise...going gua...come back...bathe..eat...watch tv...sleep...

Cut out wat lerh from last time wan...no tuition xD YAY! teacher found a new job T.T sumore cut out band practise cos i lazy to go...
dats all larh...after BB sports day den can start going for swimming again =D yay!

Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about itThis is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant,
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away,
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it,
don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe,
not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

Haiz...normally ppl wil say de future is in ur hands....guess wat..my future is in my dad's hand...i cant even suggest anything...everything...even universities he say muz go...haiz...i duno wat to do...i hate being a doctor...he even say i have to learn all those science subject...now he is alredy finding scholarship for me..n now im only 16...wth!! haiz haiz haiz...i feel so useless larh...canot stand up for myself...i hate bio i hate bio...don wanna b a doctor...i have FOBIO looking at blood...he don know dat??!!! argh...

Y cant i go to a better skol?? its my rite larh...so wat use a bit of ur money...when im old i giv u back larh...stop complaining larh!!

U r de one dat wanna send me to U...y muz u complain bout de fees???!!! i din say i wanna go...i can live juz wit a SPM degree....argh!! T.T

haiz...juz leave it larh...forget bout it...n juz follow de way he open for me..

Yesterday my uncle thought me add maths...rite b4 going for mass at 4 sumthing...i kip getting all de answers wrong...my uncle kip asking me to concentrate on my homework...n he claims dat my mind is not there...i duno wat i was doing...mayb my mind rely wasn't there...i duno larh...
I shudn't b thinking bout it anymore...cos wit skol works...haiz...im 24 7 doin skol work other den coming online...juz to relax a bit...everyday staying bck in skol make me feel exhausted larh...i duno how last year i can coop with all these activities...its killing me...

In de other hand...i kip having probs with him...haiz...its either i ignore him or he ignores me...haiz...n de next day i ask him not to b so siu hei n juz reply my msg...den he say he was lazy to reply mymsg...u know wat dat means...im not dat important in his eyes...im juz a normal fren...n i thought de relationship grew a bit...dumb...

tis week din go BB...haiz...aiyo...SS rely rely annoying larh...every week also got assignment to do...im not dat free larh...den sumore if don go more den 3 days den canot get confirm...haiz...better juz go RCIA...haiz haiz haiz....

skol rely sux!

Anyway...yesterday was my bor's confirmation...congrats to him! =D after mass had fellowship dinner n a few presentation from de f5s...haha...damn funny larh...wow Leonard can dance! xD he dance damn funny larh...with de sunglasses on n his shirts out...wow dat was nice...den Gab acted as a gal...dat was FANTASTIC! haha...part of de act...

Ray : Erm Gab honey...i wanna tell u sumthing...
Gab : Yes dear?
Ray : Im meeting sumone else...
Gab : Damn u!

Wakaka...damn funny larh...all de words Gab used...he's a pure actor or i can say actress! xD
My dad got a new Godson...so erm means i also have a new Godbro?? He's cute xD

Wah today whole day not at home...wake up at 9am...den went to shop to buy books...alone T.T den came home wait for hui jun to come..den at 1.15pm go band...juz c c...haha....de instructor ask to join...learn trumpet -.- den at 3pm start BB....ok larh...wah parade time damn hot lerh...den got worship...bible clazz...dont tell my dad bout it...its a secret..if he knows bout it, he wont allow me to go xD learn de 8 beatitudes...learned in cathecism when i was in f2 -.- den got target clazz (i think)...ok larh...den break into squad...aiyo..y ppl canot remember my name de??? haha...dat guy called lyn , mei lyn...lol...den go back lor...

Den wan bathe...ok lorh...go in de bathroom...den sudd no electric...haiz...was kinda scary cos in de bathroom i only hear de water sound n canot c anything xD

aiyo tmr wan go de seminar or not lerh?? haiz...lik no time lerh...sumore got cathecism...haiz...tmr sure teacher Nelson again...very sien =x teacher Sandra nicer...ala...sumore canot go for netball....DIPAKSA quit =( haiz...luckily my dad let me join band...

ish..monday til sunday schedule all very tight...
monday - go skol..den stay back for tugas...come home eat, bathe, homework, slp..
tuesday - go skol..den stay back for meranti..come home eat, bathe, homework, slp..
wednesday - go skol...come home slp...yay!! only for now larh...later in March got koko -.-
thursday - go skol...den stay back for meranti...come home eat, bathe, band practise...errr...no hm??
firday - go skol...come home eat, slp 4 a while...den tuition....den can do anything d larh..
saturday - band, BB....den do anything...
sunday - go church, cathecism...come home homework...



-.- all so cham....thursday where to slot in homework time?? hope no homework on dat day larh...

Haiz...now KY angry at me..he lau gai!! haiz...who say i don blieve u wor...ish...
wat happen today arh...hmm..
T.T cm beat me...i tell my mum...wawawa T.T
hehe...no larh..juz joking...stupid larh...y today muz rain..haiz...kene rain jor..headache..haiz...
Yer i don lik do essay and karangan...yer...very fan larh...duno wan do which wan first...ish..tis sunday got cathecism..i don lik larh..haiz...sumore de teacher so strict...haiz...haha...today got many funny thing happen...

BJ BJ....lik means lik larh..wan say don tell ppl sumore...stay same hse...sumore bank acc oso same..wakaka....
today kene rain damn tired...come home oni eat den slp liao...FYI im not a pig..

Wah all koko also got jawatan...siao meh..how many work i muz do wor...haiz...sumore in netball bcum bendahari..im not good in counting $$ larh...aiya....very fan...very very fan...

Today do blog a bit early...
first day go tuition...ok lar...fren teach fren lik normal lor..haha...but understan lar...haha...
den come bck go online chat den wan do homework...haiz...one hour only wrote 'A Portrait of Myself'...lame larh...i have no idea wat to write xD haiz...wat to write???
y last year everytime teacher giv essay sure got idea...but tis year lik so blank wan...haiz...
den don wan do liao...tonite oni do...den practise piano...WAT HAPPEN???!!! all kelam kabut wan -.-llll very cha lerh....haiz...

wah today super duper tired...b4 recess got all de mesyuarat agung stuff...den after rehat go take pics la...damn dumb wan...den after dat take book...wah tis part paling cham wan..good MEI YIN oredi take all de books for me ar..all new wan..den gor ask me giv back wor..he say wan take all balut d wan...den ok lor listen to him lor...den MY say in de spbt room bo books liao..wah siao...say wan take books for me but in de room no books liao?? how can tis happen to me??? den me n gor go spbt room lor..got find books...haha...den wan 1 pm le...go bck clazz take his bag for him T.T damn heavy!! den at 1.20pm run to PSS...walao meeting lik 5 min den all can chao d..haiz..wat lar..den run bck to spbt room..help gor take books up..aiya a bit oni lar...haha...check everything lor..den run bck down take bag...saw PBSM mesyuarat agung down there...walao PN SAROJA SHIFTED???? wawawa T.T wth am i gonna do??? die la me...wat la pn rosminah oso duno she shifted meh..sumore ask me go c her..damn it...how lar?? aiyo..now got big prob liao....where can i get de keys?? whose pn Jaclyn...argh!!! im so stupid lar..y last year din find all de ppl n solve de prob b4 it was 2008?? haiz..nvm lar...haiz...den go out wait for bus lor...wait til so long..but luskily lar uncle din go without me..haha...den cum bck sumore hafta cook for myself T.T den after eat wah very tired d...sleep terus..

wah got ppl wan kau me..duno hepi or sad lerh...wakaka...haiz...i forgot wat i wanna type liao...chattin n smsing together...walao...everythin forgot -.-ll har got sumore...wat lar..i die lor...everytime lalu de stairs got ppl call me ll...haiz...

Haiyo..at nite oways sleep late lar..in skol damn damn sleepy...haiz...
Sit in between brig n thanusha can go crazy..haha...thanusha keeps telling me en remi is cute xD he is ok lar...Brig keeps talking bout sumthing Rong..actually i duno wats his name lar..duno wat larhh...bla bla bla...den ginny oso..haha...they fighting for him...damn funny...yay..thursday holiday can sleep til late late...lol..yer...i wan 2gas wat day lerh??? haiz...everyone oso don wan 2gas wit me...y lerh???? haiz...

Nvm la..got shagee...haha...sien lar..everyday cum bck oso so tired d...slp den don wan wake up d...den at nite cannot slp xD wanna take tuition ar??? ala..nvr go b4 oso...good meh take tuition..ma oso same oni...got ppl go tuition oso din get all A...i don go for tuition oso get all A...so wats de diff???

In skol oso can learn wan ma..same oni...if i can have one wish now....

+____i'll wish i can go back to 3 patuh...be in last year's clazz wit all my last year's clazzmatez!!
miz them so so much...especially de singing part...lol...not boring wan..everytime oso got sumthing to do..haiz...

haha...same day do 2 blogs..nvm lar...

Aiya when SOY starting again??? miz de peepz there lar...well i duno much ppl oso lar..wat lar..sure gurv bocorkan my secret wan...if not how brigs noe i say brandon's cute..ish...

Ala...tmr got cathecism...i hope tis year can confrirm d den no nid go anymore..haiz..when la when la when lar...wil know dat thing??? leave or not to leave??? hmm...hard decision...

Hmm...mood kinda down now..y ar??? i oso duno...no mood la...don wan write...aiya still got hm to do...haiz..

K lets c wat happened today.........hmmm.....todays perhimpunan damn long lar...all fai wa!!
Dat pengetua kip repeating de same thing over n over again...haiz...she think v pekak wan ar...BM was fun...yea...get back same teacher sure fun lar..but sit in front in her clazz erm i don think its fun cos she oways ask de person in front of her question..well my brain now on vacation wat...so how to answer....

Haha...chat wit TK today...ok lar..but no credit d..aiya nvm lar...lol..both hp oso don have credit..siao...n he thought i became smarter tis year...but i m de same blur person from last year...aiyo...damn dumb lar...haha...TK do not tell anyone wat happen...n i do not look smarter!!
n don tell bout de bf thing..haha..damn funny...

yer..next week muz wear pbsm shirt...i don lik la..wear black wan or white??? hmm...muz think...ish i don have black pant..sumore cannot wear pj pants...wat lar...lets all wear skirts!! haha...

Yeah to day first day of skol...so hepi lerh...lol...wat happen ar???
muz think back lar..holiday too long d..brain went on vacation...lol..ok wait i crapping again..haiz..

Haha..brig ketua kelas..wat wil happen to our clazz?? nvm la..it wil be so so so much fun-ner!! yeah!!
wat la de teacher came in for a while den went out til after recess...lame lar!!
den wat sumore ar..hmm...eh i not yet take my skol magazine lar..ish..wheres pn asfariza??
oh my goodnezz, pn melati gonna teach us BM...arh damn hepi..she's so damn nice lar...den pn muhairene gonna teach us EST..yeah!! they rely rox lar...i love them so much...

I finnaly understand how it feels when sumone says i hate u......it breaks my heart to a million pieces to listen to him say i hate u...eventhough he said he was jokin...i rely feel it..he always has his own excuses not to reply my msg..everytime i hafta start de conversation or else v wont b talking to each other...
i know theres sumone out there dat likes him too..but i don wanna giv him up..although i know there wont b even 1% of chance for us to b together..im juz wasting my time thinking wat is he doin..how is he n stuff...haiz...mayb its time for me to juz forget my dreamz n juz concentrate on my studies..haiz...felicia don kip sighing lar..
oh well who can i share tis wit..haiz..who else wud understand tis feeling??? next year gonna meet face to face every single day...haiz..wat m i suppose to do..i cant avoid him..

everytime i msg him...yea, he'll start wit wat happen den when i start wit wat happen to me, he stop replying...haiz...m i dat unimportant to him..he say he loves me lik every other ppl does..it means v r frens rite..

FREnz...yah...but i think v r juz normal frens...he use to say v r close frenz...now its juz frenz...haiz...i rely rely hope can faster pass my undang2 exam den motor test..haiz..den can go anywhere i wan at anytime...last year (2007) was a very unlucky year for me..been heartbroken twice..well no one noticed it..im a great actress u know...lol..n a great singer..bangga la ckit..hehe..ala..tis year my taman no carolling..miz it a lot la..

1 more day muz go bck skol le...haiz..duno hepi or sad ler...haiz..

hmm...tis year muz c got competition for 16 years old n above or not..den can go take part..hehe..but i got stage fright..haiz..ape lar...