Walao, yesterday my msn damn cha lorh the connection. I tried for like 2 hours but couldn't get through! Only got through like 2-3 times nia. After 12am I got fed up. While trying to sign in I made this poem for my mum. I dunno wat I crapped, just simply write something xD Btw, was happy that I was able to finished it. Well I told CM that will post it here. So here it goes..

Dear Mum,

Thank you for bringing me up,

I know you scold and scold til you got fed up,

And I know sometimes you ust wanna give up,

But you know how important it is to bring me up,

I know very well that my stuborn-ness make you very upset,

But I'm trying my best not to make you sad,

I can't control the temper that I have,

So I'm glad that you use the patience that you have,

Your world is my world,

And you know this is real,

I'm sorry for all the wrong things that I've done,

So I hope all the sad feelings in your heart will be gone,

Thank you for treating me as a friend,

And not pushing me to the end,

I know you love me,

And I want you to know that I love you,

I'm sorry that I can't do anything more,

Than to just write you a poem,

So from the bottom of my sincere heart,

I would like to wish you Happy Mother's Day,

And I wish you will be happy every single day!

Saw what I crapped? xD

I was so blank at that moment. I got stuck at line 4 and 8. Haha. But eventually i could continue writing til it reaches line 21.

Kay, after i made thins poem I continue trying to sign in to msn messenger. Haiz. Still can't!

Gave up at 12am and did a card for my mum. Included the poem in it. Finished doing it at 1am. Said goodbye to those I was smsing wit. And tried to sleep. But couldn't. Haiz. So I think i finally fell asleep at 2am. This morning I got up at 7am. I thought my mum got up! But she didn't larh. She was nicely sound asleep in her room. My dad went to the market. So i boiled the water cos my mum wanted to eat half-boiled-egg. So then my dad came home, I asked him how to make de half-boiled-eggs. Since I don't eat it so for what I wanna learn right. Since today is Mother's Day and my mum wanna eat so hafta learn larh. Hmm, then my dad crapped a bit. So fine, I'll follow his advice. Boil the water and pour it into the container. So then my dad go in the room, after a few minutes my mum appears at the kitchen. I was shocked cos how can she wake up so early -.-ll

Haiyo, ruined! breakfast on bed was ruined! Fine, so I asked my mum how to make the eggs larh. She told a totally different thing from my dad. Duh, of cos follow my mum right. She's the expert here xD

So finally did the egg. So here I m blogging everything out. Hmm, anyway I din blog bout what happen yesterday. Uh, well nothing special actually. Just..hmm..a lot special xD

Anyway, I LOVE SIMPLE PLAN! their slow songs rox!

I'm lying down on my bed with the laptop right in front of me listening to Untiltled by Simple Plan! This song rox my world!

I open my eyes

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

I can't remember how

I can't remember why

I'm lyin' here tonight

And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away

No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes got nowhere to run

the night goes on

as I'm fadin' away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screamin'

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I'm slippin' off the edge

I'm hangin' by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No I can't

How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes

got nowhere to run the night goes on

As I'm fadin' away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me?

Well, now I gonna continue with my day. So long for now! ^^

Posted by me at 9.25am on Sunday, May 11th!

Breaking News!

Omgosh I'm finally shifting house. After 2 years I've waited! But now i don't feel like shifting man! I am so sad when I found out that we might be shifting either in June or July.

*Bad effect
-Can't be the food provider for CM and HJ before song practice.
-Can't walk to BB anytime.
-Can't go school with Sheryl anymore T.T
-Gonna miss my BEC members although i don't really attend BEC prayer meets but i still gonna miss them T.T
-Bus fee too expensive.
-Can't walk home from school anymore (the saddest part!)
-Damn far from school.

*Good effect
-If I shift at June or July then maybe I can make a birthday party! xD (house big enough to PARTY!)
-No more crampled room.
-Nearer to my church.
-Near to many friends' house.
-Going to new BEC. Wish to meet more youths there. Hopefully!
-Bigger house!
-I'll make sure i get a new study table and another table for my precious BABY *laptop* xD
-New couches.
-New door knob! mine spoilt since like 2 years ago -.-ll

Well, the good effects are more than bad huh? Hmm...that's weird. Anyway, gonna fix dat bb problem by learning how to ride a motor. Yang not ur idea okay. Thought of it before liao de. The best thing is that My house will be nearer to others. I heard that Wei Seng's house behind my house nia. Haha...

Ok...hmm...5 days of exam pass liao...left erm...8 more days til holiday!! i cant wait!! xD
wat i think bout all de papers? hmm...ONE WORD!! SUXS!! apd new word lerh...haha..
overall i only can do maths, bm n bi..next week bm paper 2 = sei lorh!! i havent read n und all de komsas thingy...
Anyway i promised sumone dat i wil post tis LAME poem i did during chem paper 2...i had too much time til all de words came into my head...its lame..but its a fact!!
so sit back n enjoy xD

THE LAMEST POEM EVER

*wrote tis during chem paper 2 cos was too bored xD

My head was blank I didn't know what to write

My paper was blank I didn't know what to write

I somehow finished my paper

But I didn't check my paper

For whatever I wrote

Is not whatever I want to write

I waited for time to just pass by

And waited for the time for me to die

I read and read so I could understand everything

But to my knowledge today, I don't understand anything

How can you pass when you've never fail

So this time around I finally think I will fail

Language is better than the study of chemical

For I only know what is inhale and exhale

I don't know how i manage to finished it

And now its time for me to eat

Well, at least I still have another two paper await

So til then I have to remember the date

I don't know why i stayed up all night to read about elements

When all i know is how to draw an elephant

EDITED* And I know ths is the lamest poem you've ever known

THANK YOU!! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!! xD

Well, that was lame...right? xD

There is a verse talking about eating because right after chem 2 was the ending of school...and i had to leave school and take a break (eat) and then enter school for pss duty!

that day really suck larh!

CM say want to study end up he was sleeping -.-ll

xD

Kay then the other days all same larh...exam = sux...well, still carrying on my life what...so wth xD

Yay, ate ice cream today!! haha...can't believe an ice cream can make me happy lerh...hehe...

Today a lot happen...
haiz...
First thing woke up in de morning at 6.15...was lepaking in my room xD
got nth to do larh after bathing...lolx...den get prepared for skol larh..got pbsm today...i knew today wasnt gonna b a gud day...but i juz carried on wit it...

So at first everything was juz doin fine...nth unusual...other den CM was eating at Alam Jaya, n i was on my way to skol -.-ll he sumore can so late go worh...den reach liao sumore don wan go up -.-ll
left me alone...i set everythin liao den oni YL wan come up -.-ll
haiz...biao kin larh...
Den after assembly go into own unit...learn kwd today...okok lorh...but after dat learn de history of PBSM...for de Palang Merah wan larh...DEN HERE COMES DE DRAMA!! -.-ll

Pn J was announcing dat every unit BBU hafta prepare a gift for de teachers on Teachers Day...So everyone was being blurr n juz listen to her larh...den when she went n sit down..A told her dat pn R ask to split de gift...one from morning n one more from afternoon larh...den she started shouting at him...walao...i was rite in front man!! dat happens everytime!! haiz...dat day when PSS kena marah oso i was in front!! deng!!
Den Pn J say larh...y u all wanna pisah2kan everything?? har??!! she kip shouting...i felt lik slapping her man...it was all pn R's plan larh...we're juz informing her bout wat pn R say...
Den she say wat larh...u all muz chg ur attitude...den she say ok fine if u all wan pisahkan everything..den she wont include us in de pameran thingy...n also wont register out keahlian at de jabatan...damn her!! PN S is way better den her!! too bad she shifted!! argh!!
den she say larh..ok hari ini guru sebelah pg xde kan...so skarang semua ahli sesi pagi boleh buat apa2 shj..suka hati kamu larh...den she sumore say...ok nota d hadapan ni nota yg disediakan oleh guru sesi petang...so semua nota di depan hanya sesi petang saja boleh salin...all morning session pls stop writing!! walao...she damn....!!! argh!!
Anyway, i don care wat she say larh...v planned to take de PM lik damn long liao...since last year dude!! now don u dare ruin everything u lady!! haiz...
WTH...she say v morning session din contribute....contribute by cutting off ur head larh!!
ishh!!

Sumore wan waste time in de room worh..teacher alredy at de assembly calling PBSM...haiz...
den go APD lepaskan all to CM...duno wat he mumbling there...but i know is command larh xD
haha...
damn glad skol finis after assembly..don wanna look at de damn teacher's face anymore...damn her...
Reach home...watched tv..hmm...den tetido...every sat de couch sure is mine from 11am til 1pm..hehe...either watch tv...slp or polish there...today started polishing at 12 lerh..cos cudnt slp..duno y...felt nervous bout sumthing...but duno wat -.-
polish de belt damn long man...haiz...i think i repeated de same thing lik 4-5 times...haiz...den went BB at 2.30 today...go early better larh...den ask Lynn do haversack for me lerh..i duno y i sudd forgot how to do..haiz...den normal lorh...drill nice xD
get to run...long time bo run liao...lack of stamina...50 pumps juz for laughing?? xD DISCIPLINE MAN!! xD
thnk gudness i was serious during drill xD
walao...ZY ASK ME TO LIE!! rly feel guilty!! confession here i come!! haiz...
den today came bck late...waited for Alicia...Felicia waiting for Alicia 0.o lolx...
haha...when reach home oredi 6.15...suppose to leave hse at 6.30...haiz...aiyoo...my gor arh!! rly gets on my nerves!! i come bck wanna bathe den he go masuk de bathroom!! when im not around he don wanna go bathe...den ok larh...den rush rush rush...btw, i din eat lunch..i only ate one 'yau char kuai'...haiz...drill time tahan gila2 xD
luckily reach church early...ended liao damn hungry...went to neighbour's hse to eat...weird merh??
haha...no larh...cos got baby there full month ma..ma go lorh...hehe..eat a lot lerh xD
den finis lorh...haiz...still em gam sam lerh...stupid stupid stupid!!

*anyway i passed TARGET EXAM!!*
hehe...damn hepi...finally can get one badge from BB...according to anita i got highest!!
followed anson n cm geh footstep!! thx guys!! i mean gals =x

Heres wat Sir wrote for me...

Pte. Felicia Kok

Congratulations, you have completely passed your Target Award!

Thank you for you hardwork and may you receive a lot more awards in the future!

I believe you have a lot of talents in you and you need the courage to use those talents. Do not let pride stop our service to God.

My prayer is that you will grow in character and spirit like Christ, and to lead His kingdom one day.

May God bless you and your family!

Sincerely,

LT. TAN CHEE HONG!!! xD

Wah, today a lot happen...both hepi n sad...lolx..
lets start from de time i wake up..
Hmm...
woke up at 7.40...get ready for church den bertolak at 8.45...wah, damn sleepy lerh...ytd nite cudnt slp...cos de weather too hot liao...haiz...
biasa larh...no aircond...too miskin liao =x
Mass started at 9.15 n ended at i duno wat time...din bother to look at de time...den straight went to peel road to eat yong tau fu...not i suggested ok...my dad...n he blamed me for it...juz cos naik harga liao -.-ll
On de way home...v were juz toking in de car...my gor say when he reach home...he wanna juz sleep den evening go play bsb...so i asked him larh...where he gonna play...he said sumhing lik...Wen Ya or sumthing...i cudnt und wat he said so i ask 'huh?' larh...den he repeat...den i say huh again xD
wah, it happen lik for more den 3 times xD
haha...
den sudd my mum started laughing -.-ll
den i oso rasa pelik..so asked her larh..y??
she say u 2 very funny larh...huh?? funny?? wats so funny??
WEIRD!!
den she say larh...one say wen ya...one say huh...lolx..
duno larh..she say damn funny xD

Den reach home liao...mum n dad went to de laundry to do sumthing...gor go in his room play comp lorh...me?? as usual lorh...went in my room, on de laptop...went online...chat wit dar xD
until around 4pm i think...den sleepy liao...slp...ngam ngam hou my parents came bck...yer..they at 'chong' din call me oso T.T haiz..

When i woke up..i rasa pelik larh...y everyone outside so bising wan...den i went out wit a blurr face...asking my mum wat happen...den i saw de tree outside lik botak liao de...den i rasa LAGI PELIK!! lolx...rupa-rupanya dat day when de 'astro man' came to do de astro thingy he say de tree blocking de satelite signal!! BULLSHYT MAN!! wasted de damn tree!! i feel so sori for de tree -.-ll den my mum called up de astro guy..he say if he come again n do he wil charge rm50!! zadao!!
den my mum say nvm...v wil fix it ourselve...walao..when my mum was tokin on de fon n i was standing bside her...sudd my bro screamed from outside...i thought he cut himself -.-ll lameee...
lolx
rupa-rupanya my dad go lepaskan de branches on my bro's leg...yerr...kesian my gor!! T.T
den i so lazy to look at them cut or even fixing de astro dish larh...i saw de pc in my gor's room on..so i go use larh..since can on 2 windows messenger ma...so i was chatting wit cm...n here comes de drama...

'AH GIRL ARH!!'
'COME HELP US LARH!!'
'HELP US C WHETHER DE TV CAN WATCH BO'

so here m i running to de living room...haiz...juz looking at de tv -.-ll
den can liao...so i went bck into de room..thought i can cont chattin..den here it happens again..

'AH GIRL ARH!!'
'COME HELP US!!'
'HELP US C DE SATELITE SIGNAL!!'

aiyoo...nvm...juz sabar je...den go lorh...click click click..ok liao...soo..went into de room again...
den it happen AGAIN!!

'AH GIRL ARH!!'
'COME HELP US ARH!!'
'HELP US CLEAR ALL DE BRANCHES!!'

haiiiizzz....so i went again...to clear de branches!! damn lame man!!
haiz...my dad larh...haiz..oways calling me to do all de workkk...
haiz...
den after finis everything...today my mum took back an old printer...so v tested it at my laptop...tis TREASURE im using xD
test test test...my dad duno how to install cos don have de cd...so went online to find...so installed d...plan to go to lm...to buy mcD ice-cream...cos today labour day...got discount...one ice-cream, rm0.50...hmm...my mum larh...
den ok lorh...go lm rite...buy mai my calculator larh...
my dad was sooooo delaying all de time larh...he wanna do tis n dat -.-ll
so v left my hse at 8.30...wah damn late...
den str8 go Popular bookshop...buy calculator...saw Wei Yeen..my dad was so worried i wil buy de wrong calculator n waste his money -.-ll so i ask Wei Yeen lorh whether its de rite wan..haiz...
bought correction tape, pencil lead n calculator...walao..rm6+ nerh...
den went to c de cartridge...my dad say too exp...not worth it..sumore dat wan old printer...my mum say later buy new wan...
den went n look for hp -.-ll boring part...cos not looking for mine oso...my dad n bro wanna buy new wan...
aiya..knew it...sure wont buy de larh...so went to mcD...wooohooo!!
bought cheeseburger n mcflurry oreo for me!! mcChicken value meal n sundae strawberry for my bro...n 2 sundae cone for my dad n mum...
went home...eat eat eat lorh...hehe...damn hepi lerh!!
but too bad i havent finis my hw..now gotta do it!! haiz...

APA PUNYE HOLIDAY INI?? WHOLE DAY SO BZ!! haiz....

HAiz...again wit de memory lost thingy larh!!
Lets c.....hmm...
Woke up lik normal...go up bus damn semangat but slp -.-
terlalu biasa liao xD
reach skol liao go apd...erm...den start assembly...pn kamarizai gave sweets?? 0.o ??
lolx...
MIC CACAT!! haiz...wat larh...after dismizz....
Den after dismizz bio..din wanna miz bio..go call KEX...den he settled everything larh...i went for bio...haha..i und wat de teacher was teaching!! hooorraaaayyy to me!!! xD
after bio..went eng...okok larh...teacher juz ask to read...DE ARTICLE WAS ABOUT PIMPLES -.-ll
den during recess...me, hem, ang, gin n ky sit at de red carpet n tok tok tok BOUT FOOD!! xD
haha...
den start eng again -.-
den est..hehe...no teacher...i was doing...ermmm...eng??? 0.o
haha...do eng worh??!!
den Bm teacher came in lorh..she teach how to do de format thing all...den rumusan oso...kinda sien larh...den she ask me for de krngn paper!! cm!! haiz...

Bell rang...FIND CM!! ppl say he at padang..i fast fast go padang find him...NO PPL THERE!! -.-ll
Den kip asking around lorh...MANA CM???!!
lolx...den saw him..ask for de krngn...rush to blk ketua bidang..take de krngn...run to bilik guru...gave pn melati de paper...den run out of skol...ginny was suppose to get de place at de chinese shop -.-ll
when i went out she wasnt even there yet...nvm lorh..me, hem, shagee n pavi sat there...eat...den wan go liao den oni gin, ang n ky came to de shop...
den go to pss...din do much oso larh..uruskan de money stuffs...hmm...den went n c de rocket lorh...den had netball..had a short game..teacher say who win get present worh...my group won!! OBVIOUSLY!! =x
haha...no larh...juz so ngam v won larh...5-4
den wait for sheryl lorh...while watching rocket...
Den go home liao...online...sien...walk outside...slp xD
aiyoo...y today damn normal de?? sien lorh..

Decided to blog early today...
cos i have to much in my mind..don wanna kip it til tonite...
now muz empty my mind to refill it up tonite...haha..
k...NAVEIN IS CALLED BARBEQUE LIPS!! xD
HEres wat happen...
today at ketua bidang..me, irfanah n brig were juz hanging out...obviously brig was looking for her 'ehem' n irfanah was looking for her 'ehem' too...haiz...they r sooo desperate!! -.-
den v saw brig's 'ehem'...so she say here come my hot sumthing..i forgot...den saw irfanah's 'ehem' den brig say there irfanah, ur steaming sumthing...haiz..i forgot...den i say ur barbeque ribs..i have no idea y i said dat...den irfanah 'huh??' lolx...den brig say..wat? barbeque pigs?? irfanah tot i said barbeque LIPS!! den me n brig were looking at each other n both said NAVEIN together xD
dats how navein's nick was created!! xD

K den class started...maths bored...sj sumore boring...b4 teacher entered class brig was telling tis ROMANTIC STORY!!
its rely romantic!!
Heres how it goes...
Theres tis guy n gal who is having their one year COUPLE anivesary...FYI, not even married yet...
de gal din know wat to buy for de guy larh..so she juz bought a normal t-shirt...thinking dat de guy wil mayb do de same thing too...so here comes their anivesary nite...de guy took de gal out for dinner at de hollywood restaurant...so when it was desert time...de waiter came wit hand full of roses, a card n also a small cake if im not mistaken...den when de gal look at de roses, she found a ring inside...de guy stood up, took de ring out n knelt down...in front of de public...he told her 'pls forgive me for all de wrong things i've done...I love u very much n i wanna b wit u forever'...i guess everyone gave him a big hand...haha...its so sweet larh...n guess wat...de gal is now f5 n de guy is only 19 -.-
they r not even getting married yet...
n de gal felt embarassed cos she only gave him a t-shirt while de guy gave her so many things...his dad even gave her a few blouses...such a sweet guy!!

Den cont wit no pj...recess...bm...no addmaths...n miz a part of physics!! T.T all bcos of de pbsm thingy larh...thank gudnezz i don need to go for it -.-
den go home...waited for de bus damn long..til lik 2.15 -.-ll
rupa-rupanye both de back tires punctured -.-ll
no wonder larh so damn late..haiz...uncle, go tukar bus larh!! damn old liao de bus...

Come home late...NO LUNCH!!
haiz...everytime i don stay bck my mum wont cook..when i stay bck she cook -.-ll

27th APRIL!! Kinda a nice day for me!! memorable..don wanna tell y yet...later on u all wil know xD
haha...
hmm...
today 28th liao hor...haiz...exam coming lorh...sudd so semangat wan study!! xD
actuali gud oso larh...at least i have de mood to study n mayb pass my exams wit flying colours...
weyh brigs!! ur virus spread to me lerh -.-ll ur spelling probs larh...
Today had fun in skol!!
First go skol do apd...haiz...kex damn blurr lerh...duno wait for wat...JY again din come up!! i wanna kill him liao!! argh!!
Den after dat was english...sien arh...me n hem kip laughing...de bad thing bout it issss....after v laugh liao v cant write!! duno y larh...when genggam de pencil felt funny at de tapak tgn -.-ll
i know its weird...both of us so damn similar xD
Den after dat maths...haiz...teacher taught how to draw graphs b4 liao larh...how can i forget -.- make her angry nia xD
Den after dat was umm...sj...first open de buk damn semangat...den slowly slowly eyes closing xD
sumore i sit in front teacher...siao larh...
Rehat!! hehe...curi hem n lynn's food xD
Den sumore got canteen buy foodd!! wah i eat a lot xD
but not pao oso...haiz...
den chem...teacher gave sum tips on wats coming out xD
walao...come to think of it...phy, chem, bio all 3 papers nerh!! T.T duno how to pass!! fail ez nia xD
Den BM...yay!! get small n cute note buk!! APPLE!! hehe...yer, hem wan so nice lerh...she oways get all de nice nice de T.T
haha...nvm larh...wah, me, brig, pavi n hem get..hehe...
Aiyo...cm's fault larh i din hand in de krngn!! =x
haha...no larh...haiz...my dad's fault larh...din buy printer!!
Den moral..bo teacher...cm all go launch rocket sampai stuck on de roof...walao...de pipe stuck on de roof -.-ll
haha...cm say when rain den sure leak into de bengkel -.-
play sumore larh...c lost 1/4 of de rocket liao xD
all go lepak at pss during moral xD
Shagee found a few dumb jokes!! but funny man!!

Aiya, i lazy write larh...wan c de joke go ps read up larh xD
haha...i whole day sit at ps read buk nerh!! so khan lek!! xD
no larh...all read useless buk wan...haha...at least i got read rite...
Den come bck lorh after tugas...wanted to slp but i thought...if now slp den tonite canot slp...den don wan slp lorh...started doing revision..ADDMATHS nerh!! ishh...so nerdy!! xD

Today i tumpang cm's car home...his dad say don walk alone...
Last year i wanted to quit ps bcos of dat matter larh...i din had transport so i wanted to quit...write letter all d...hand it to teacher liao de...den teacher gave some lecture...
my reason was dat my parents don let me take de risk of taking public bus everytime i had to stay bck for duty...den de teacher say larh...if everyone wud to think lik u...everyday, everyone wil stay at home...no one wil b daring enuf to walk out of their houses..den i tot of it...den i tot dat wat she said was rite larh...everywhere in tis world is not save...u can even get rob rite in front of ur hse front gate!! correct or not...haha..
I always blieve dat God sent his Guardian Angel to protect every single man on Earth...if God rly wan u to die..u cant stop it...
So y not take a risk??
Blieve dat God wil always protect u from any danger or evil...de more u blieve in him..de more secured u wil feel...haha...
i damn hepi today!! duno y...

Today had SS...
I was suppose to wake up early to wash my hair today...
k 1st i woke up at 9am...my mum washing clothes...so i slpt back...
den woke up at 930am..she still washing clothes...den slpt back -.-
den wake up at 10am...canot wait liao...muz go bathe d..haha..
bathe liao...den eat...COOKIES!! hehe..
wah, today damn sleepy lerh...SS time lik wanna slp d...sumore today session damn sien wan...duno wat de teacher say oso...i only know de last part is next week de session is wit Fr Andrew...he ask to go read up on Baptism n Confirmation...
sumore i din do last week's hw...i forgot everything lerh...damn it larh...
Wat m i suppose to do arh??
hmm..nicene creed, wat de Eucharist means to me...hmm...de phrase i did jorh...need teacher to confirm nia...den sumore wat arh??
dats all gua...

Came bck at 1245pm...haiz...damn sleepy nerh...Hp bo credit liao T.T
sori to those whom i din reply...
den came online...til lik 5 sumthing den too sleepy le...terus slp xD
at 6 i woke up n off de laptop rite in front of me xD
den cont sleeping...til lik 7 sumthing...y i woke up???!
there, dat noob sms me lorh -.-ll
de hp so bising...haha...den bathe n eat lorh...yer, today's dinner not sedap wan T.T
i need to find some gud food larh...

Haiz...i still got essay to do...lazy nerh!!

Hmmm...
hehe...went for physics extra classssss!! =D
At last i und sumthing -.-
after extra class makan nasi lemak!! xD
haha...
den on pc..yay!! sang a few songs...all i have n also when it all falls apart...damn nice larh dat 2 songs...haha...
den polish polish polish!!!
i used de toothbrush!! din work larh....haiz...

I duno y today i get redy for BB damn early...damn nervous bout both fellowship n also exam..haiz...
sing time canot hear my voice?? hmm...rely??
haiz...got dat soft merh??
Haiz...nvm larh...

EXAM!!
Aiyo...of all de words i spelt SERGEANT wrong!! T.T
first i put sergeant de...den i stupidly go chg -.-ll
Other den dat all ok larh...

After dizmiz...str8 rush home...again, no time to sit...go bathe...no time to eat...take de food into de car...ate a few cookies...den tertido in car xD
den reach liao...
today mass quite nice larh...not dat boring...
thx for Fr. Eddy Rayappan!! go Fr!!

Den after dat go Giant shopping again -.-ll
tis time buy cookies !! hehe...
den go buy food...yer dat char kuey tiow damn yucks larh..not lat n soooo tasteless!!
dats all lorh for today..nth nice larh...damn sien wan...gotta find dat phrase!! where to find?? haiz..

FIRST AND FORMOST!! I WANNA WISH VANESSA HAPPY SWEET 16th!! =D

Well...according to my frens in skol...they say they planned a burfday party for her...well i werent there larh...duh!! i said according to my frens!! xD
So hmm...went skol early in de morning lik normal lorh...
den help angkat all de things...den went pss...yorr...class teacher ask to find all de marks...haiz...
den after dat go bck class...study lorh...de sien part -.-
den go ponteng again!! xD
go apd...lepak2...walao...ha mi su wa em zhai lu lang uh zo party dua Lab ha peng eh...bo lang ka wa kong...shuen lorh all lik dat de...haiz...
em song lorh...den me n mana juz buy de popcorn n gave it to VANESSA!! lolx...
she was pretty hepi wit it!! dang, dat feels gud!!
haha...
YES!! tmr got extra class for physics!! wooohhhoooo!! xD
haha...
den after skol walk home...c han chin =D
den go home...eat maggi mee -.-
den go sd...n also song practice...wah, today no mood chiong go...sien dao...zzz
everyone lik xde semangat nia...last week damn nice larh....
den go home lorh...
i dun know y everytime walking home from BB sure take damn long time de worh...
walk there time take below 5 min...i walk home time more den 10 min -.-ll
haha..
i walk damn damn damn slow de...

Haiz...
sori for de late update...
actually i wrote my blog dat day...
but de internet sot sot so din post...

*tears running down my face*
I duno whether its exhaustion or wat...
I juz feel so down...these few days...actually i think its from monday....i juz have no idea wth is happening to me!!

sumthing rely brought me down today isss...
during bm, teacher ask me to take bck my karangan buk n type it n print out...she ask me to stick at de back of de class n she told de whole class to read it...n she say she wanna fotostat n pass it to de other classes dat she is teaching...haiz...
N U THINK IM HAPPY FOR DAT??
yea..actually im happy...but it reminds me of de first exam of de year...wat happen??
heres wat happen...well i got an A for my BM...while most of my classmates got B or sumthing else larh...n wat i heard was....'ALARH, LAST YEAR PN MELATI TAUGHT HER CLASS BM SURE PN MELATI WIL GIV HER HIGHMARKS DE LARH!!'
zadao...i rly hated dat!! i cant blieve those words came out from my own frens' mouth...
haiz....
im going tru so much of stress now i duno where i am on earth!!
wat am i suppose to do next??
where did my self-esteem went??
haiz...
juz sitting n listening to songs make me cry....
afraid to fail my parents n teachers!!
they look up on me!!
how m i suppose to face them if i fail in any of my midterm test??

Now i can rely c whose de real frens n de fake frens....
fake frens r those who leave u bhind n don take a damn wat happens to u after they leave u...
they don even bother to look bck n c whether u r following bhind them...
they juz walk off wit their new found frens...
when u ask them to do sumthing...they do it hafway n leave de rest for u...
when u get scolding...they juz leave u not even bothered to stay n get de scolding wit u...
not lending a hand when u need them...
not being there when u cry or in trouble...

While real frens....
try de hardest to cheer u up...
they don wanna c u sad...
don wanna c u cry...
even if they hafta b a dumb clown....they try to make u laugh...
they stand bside u juz to lend a hand when u need it...
always walking bside u...nvr in front or behind...
they wil never leave u behind...


Sumhow...i think i found a fren lik dat....
sumone dat wil always b there when im down...nvr leaving me behind...


Im juz so exhausted larh...i don wanna do anything...i havent even started doing revision...too many things to do...n also to read T.T


lazy to write larh....

Luckily v got it done today!!
erm...did they lik finis it??
haiyoo...im so wori dat it wont finis larh...yorrr...
ytd called lik so damn many ppl...all also say bz larh...got other things to do larh!!
wasting my damn credit jek...
end up only me, mana n irfanah...wats de point??!!
its a group work larh!!
i alredy say x cukup kaki tgn...wth, no one wanna help??!!
haiz...
fine larh...b dat way...next time got anything v not gonna include u all...
sumore got 2 ppl juz come in ps den juz look den terus belah!!
walao...ppl ask to help u juz look...u help by looking merh?? -.-ll
rly damn angry lorh...haiz...if u don wan help better not come lorh...u show ur damn face den u juz walk away...damn u!!
den who de heck go n stick GREEN color salotape??!! haiz...
buat ssh us je...muz go restick black wan on top of it!!
haiz...
Sumore belum finis alredy rush home...i rly wanna thank mana, irfanah n shagee for helping larh...haiz...others sooooo ...!!! argh!!
geramnye!!

Wooo....Lynn came to my hse today!! hehe...had fun polishing together...omgosh...aiyoo...
how to say it..
i duno how to polish my boots larh xD
juz use water nia...but still so shiny xD
was kinda late for BB today...but y larh...everytime i go at tis time sure start parade liao de...but today so late de...kk nvm...den as usual lorh...stand bside mel..i hope he c me tis time...last week he say he din c me...n i was standing next to him -.-
saw sir tan checkin all de loose thread b4 parade..faster faster go cut...
malangnye missed one thread!!
kene pump 5 kali!! haha...eh i damn lil liao lerh...walao, anita kene 25 times???!!
haiz...floyd 40 times??!
den sing sing sing xD
ppl say i sing damn loud..omgosh so malu *blushing* xD
haha..
but i cant hear anything xD
i only hear de musics nia...cant hear anyone singing oso...
den after dat bible class...hmm...wat did v learn arh??
sumthing bout de good tree bear gud fruit de...yesh, correct!! xD
den after dat revision....more lik sir giving all de tips for exam -.-
haha...yorr...passing mark 80??
walao...i scared i fail nerh...
can pass gua...hmm...
den drill...no comment...KENA PUMP BANYAK KALI!! xD
haha...
yorr!! din go mass shud come n fetch me late marh... yorr!!
den i can hang out in BB longer...yorr!!
haiz...
den come home liao so hungry lerh...actually during bible class oso hungry liao de...
cos de char kuey tiow not nice...so eat lil bit nia...
den go shopping hunt for de junkfood...
dats all lorh for today...nth much...
n i forgot dat i have hw!!
haiz...

Ok...
lets c...
hmm..
Aiyo...during skol time...oways walk here n there...haiz...
DE YELLOW CARD LARH!!
masalah oni...
den after skol stay bck AGAIN!!
tis time damn fun!!
PSS meeting...teacher was damn pissed off...i have no idea y!!
Aiyoo...y muz my name b in so many list??
perasmian n apd??
ok larh...at least i have time to do both...
but meetings at de same time??
how m i suppose to split myself into 2 to attend both meetings?? xD
haha...
den at last pn juraiza ask me to go apd meeting..
pn sakinah was talking to me hafway eh...haiz...
but in de end i helped both teachers do sumthing larh xD
hehe...
Hmm...
Aiyo....reports...reports....yay!! tmr do experiment xD
no nid study...woohoo!!

Hmm....i cant rely rmmbr wat happened today...
hmm...STM xD
haha...
aiyoo...
wat happened today????!!
K wait...erm went skol...k its coming bck to me...aha....den take de damn BKK...sumthing stupid happened...dun wanna tok bout it...its so damn stupid...aha.. xD
aha....hmm...den erm...today pn nooraini's bdae...HEPI BURFDAY MAM!! xD
so hmm...after maths was sj....i hate sj anyway...its so damn boring...eventhough de teacher's nice...juz opening de damn book make me slp xD
den after dat was PJ...erm...actually was nth...haha...den RECESS!! my fav subject...no wait...my fav subs if BALIK xD
den after dat was Bm....bm is ALWAYS, i repeat, ALWAYS fun...nvr boring unless its some useless presentation for komsas from some groups...
so den after dat was addmaths...yea, it was kinda fun oso...den physics...my other fav masa!! xD
altho i don und a thing...but i still enjoy entering physics lab xD

After phy was balik...i din get to balik tho...stayed bck for pbsm meeting...haiz...
Soooo......
erm....
nth much happened larh...
i thought of sumthing dat happened juz now b4 i write tis...but unfortunately i forgot xD
aiyoo...i hafta rush n finis tis damn moral module larh...its so damn lame!! T.T

K lets c wat i did today...
hmm...
Morning go skol lorh...
I TOLD irfanah be at skol BY 7am!!
Haiyo...went there bo ppl de....den she came at 7.15!! zadao!!
den...waited for pn noorsiah daud...she oso came at 7.20...y everyone so not punctual wan!!
aiyo...den hor...uruskan all de mic thing liao hor...APA I LUPE???
de damn songs!! haiz....
i totally forgot bout it...aiyo feel damn guilty larh...
but teacher say nvm larh...so fine lorh...nvm lorh...
Den din go for all de pbsm activities...walk around skol lik org gila...first take de paint...den find de broom...den find de pengikir or is it pengikis??!! haiyo...en zafran is soooo funny!! wakaka...
Den after dat did de mural...first scrap off de paint...was scrapping den sudd all de ANTS came out...yerrr...so damn geli man!! i kept jumping up n down lik crazy monkey!! xD
den after dat nth happen liao...den went mamak to buy food...ishh...dumbass there...ask to belanja pula...
-.-

Den came home at 11am lorh...i eat...til lik 12 xD
den watch tv til tetido...haha...den...erm don wan tell larh...
lolx...
den at 240 went BB...yerrr...kene tukar sq!! T.T
im missing sq 4...lynn, jess!! miss lerh...haiz....
den today got COOKING test!! haha...sir say mine nice!! wakaka...Josiah ate mine btw...den got song exam lorh...yerr...singing time damn nervous til wrong..everyone laugh...damn 'yu'!! T.T
haiz...but nvm larh...write time can ma enuf lorh xD
den went home at 615...missed sq activity again!!
haiyo...
erm..hmm...hw.....haiz..duno how to do eh...

Den went for mass....came bck at 8 sumthing...eat...den now online lorh...nth much larh..tmr going uncle's hse...duno got wat to do...haiz...

T.T

too many things to do...too little time!!
i duno how eh....
EXAM coming le....havent study a bit....as i've said b4...bio n sj still damn slow for me...havent have time to go tru it T.T

Lets list down all de things i nid to complete in tis month....

1. Get de APD key tis sat...from pn noorsieh daud...havent figured out who is dat...hmm..
2. Minggu PSS....tugas on monday....n also de FOOD!! ^^ Eventhough its my fav but not for me de...humph!! n also explorerace larh...
3. Finish de APD tugasan board...
4. Finish moral 3 more tugasan harian...
5. PBSM...menguasai all de first aid thing...well, im de ketua...gotta teach ppl okay!! xD
6. Drama props...gotta finish it tis month...next month exam lerh...
7. Read BB handbook til finis...eventhough i read it...but forgot le...
8. Netball....REMEMBER to kutip de yuran larh doink!! xD
9. Try to menguasai BIO, SJ, ADDMATHS, CHEM n also PHYSICs!! i rely suck in it...

other den dat...i have a job...a rely how to say...not unimportant job...sukarela-ly i voluntered!! damn it...hafta take de kedatangan for all those who wear full U on every wed!! haiz...

I duno whether i wil have enough time to rely concentrate on my studies or not...now oso flunking all my test d...haiz...
n its not even following de SPM format T.T
rely gotta get loose from all these things!!

Everything in tis world is happening so fast dat i don even realise it passing...
I don rely get from wat i go through...haiz...
theres so much to say!! i duno where to begin...haha...

1. KES BULI!!
-HTK, MCM, NKC, NBJ buli FKJP!! HATE HATE HATE!! but fun oso xD

2. KES CHAKI!!
-DAMN NICE!! lolx...awww....i had a thanks in return for my gudnezz!! I cant blieve she chged target...so lame man....A is better den M...lolx...HEM, i agree wit u!! xD

3. PBSM!!
-FUN!! FILL WIT ADVENTURE!! n also charisma training!! woohoo, i can teach!! haha...RELI!! i can teach!! thought them HEIMLICH MANUVER, all de kes-kes n also recovery position...i wanna teach CPR xD i taught trasportation oso...sori BJ i hurt ur MY xD
she go hit her head on de floor lolx...

4. Lit..
-Yesh!! gonna giv in my poem!! yay!! lolx...finally!!

5.Career..
-Hafta chg my target after SPM...canot hse wife anymore...pn muhairene teach dat every single woman is tis world hafta have their own career...nvr depend on HUSBANDs....nvr bergantung on guys...YESH!! xD
anyway, im juz thinking twice...mayb 3 times nia xD


wat do u think of....when a guy likes a gurl elder den him???
i think its so weird larh...haiz...
anyway, leave it larh...im bored of handling all these stuffs larh...N IM NOT GUD IN IT!! honestly...i always screw everything up n end up depressed lik hell for nth...damn it!!

6. Studies!!
-cant catch up in BIO n Sj!! haiz...2 stupid subs...actually bio is nice larh...but sj is juz a waste of time...

7.Family..
-everything going smoothly...nth's up....everything's calm...

Other den dat nth's up larh...i got so many things in my mind but when im writing tis everything juz go under de brain n hide...nth seem to b clear...haiz...

I rely think my life is getting fun n more excitement...relly getting tru everything dat doesnt relly matters much...juz getting on wit my normal yet unique life!! xD
^^

Hehe...cut hair jorh...
de first time...cutting hair in skol....n sumore in de dark!! =D
damn funny larh....de hairstylist damn cute!! actually is both ok...not de anime guy only...
^^
Mine is sweet...lolx...
haha....
but de result = same lik last time oni...juz bhind short...so wats de diff?? nth...lolx...
haha...but damn fun larh today...missed de bus...got on sheryl's bus den sudd bus came -.-
den stop at de traffic lite n switch bus...so lame...

wow....damn tired!!
Today had fun...yay!!
Morning SS...aiyo...Jacky made us sit wit de guys...well Benjamin is okayyy...lolx..
But de group is ssssoooo dead!! haha...
ok nvm.....wats wit de meet u in HUKM??? weird larh all those ppl xD
moving on....erm....after dat went to carrefour...hmm...bought some nice things for me!! hehe...drinks!! xD
den had netball!! AT MONT KIARA!! wow...dat was rely rely rely fun...met new frens...Shabita n Trishna...i kip forgetting Shabita's name tho!! xD
haha....bcame GA today...
wow...all entered!! argh...damn hepi xD
haiyo...now m bck home...findin time to finis all those nonsense (homeworks xD )
haha...

CAUGHT RED-HANDED!!!

Haiz.. i duno wat to say...no comment at all...not surprise oso!! haiz...
He's such a freak larh...can't he juz grow up to b a normal kid lik me xD
haiz...y muz he do sumthing dat hurt others' feelings??? dont he know dat de world loves him n he shud love de world back?? instead he spoils himself..!!
don he know dat others care bout him a lot???!!
wth is wrong wit him???
argh!!
I duno wat m i suppose to do....
Can i juz let it b??
It's a waste dat he's de opposite if me....
He oways complain dat i get everything n he's left with nth...wake up boii....u r de one getting everything n im de one being left behind!! grow up larh!! u r more important to them den me...im juz lucky to b smart n getting all de attention cos u r not...
U R smart....juz dat u r not showing it...n u r not using it to gain attention...instead u think of all stupid things to get attention from them....
is getting a warning letter better den getting a slip with str8 A's???
It's sad to know dat all de relationship between us b4 is finally wearing offf....
v use to b so close dat v talk to each other every single second...i rely miz dat time...i know v r growing older each second, day n year... but its just not fair dat i care bout u n u don take a damn bout me...
I rely wish dat one day u wud get out from ur own world n face reality n know dat education is way more important den entertainment!!
i know im juz wasting my time being concern bout u when u juz wont chg...not even a bit...
i know dat u don know dat im concern n sumtimes i juz cry for u....
y is it so hard for u to und dat everyone is concern bout u???!!

Haiz...
i duno larh wat to do...

Anyway, watched de movie music and lyrics...nice larh...
nth to do...damn bored...a lot of hw to do!! T.T

Great escape!! xD
Today i knew sumthing was wrong larh...
All wear baju pj wan diminta stay in tapak perhimpunan...there...sure lecture wan...
saw pn kama...ask her to hide us...us(brigs n me)...so v follow her up to 5 progre...lolx...hide for a while nia...den go down apd bck...walao..i nearly cried!! pn kama came down n say dat miss maha gonna send all those nvr bring skol U bck home xD
Brig faster faster chged her skol U...den i sesat...
v juz walk..she blocked me...den walk bck to class...i duno whether they got kene surat saman bo...aiyo...i got no mood to tok bout tis larh...

Today quarreled wit dat stupid KY...
he's so dumb lar....


k lets chg...
Is frenship more important den gf or bf??
Duh, of cos larh....
I hate u i hate u...i rely hate u...
bcos of her u r treating me lik dat...
wat do u think i am??
ur mangsa??
when she gets angry u ask me to tham her..n u put de blame on me?? wth??
who do u think i am??
ur kuli or wat??
even my mum doesnt do dat larh...
chg ur attitude larh come on...
Wheres ur commitment?? life isnt only bout love larh...
u think u r de only one falling in love n de world becomes urs arh??
think larh...its reality larh...in heaven u all can live happily ever after larh...but now u got a lot of work to do...

Anyway, lets move to de hepi part...
en zafran having extra class!!! haha....
lolx...
haiz...so many reports to do...so little time...
T.T
f4 is hectic larh!!

Juz woke up from my precious nap!! hehe...after a long time dis is de only time i get to take naps in de evening..argh....my presious nap!! xD
Came bck from skol, chg clothes, terus baring n zzzzzzz!!!! haha...

Had de weirdest dream...dadadada... xD
I sms my fren name D one nite...simply asking D wat u doin, trying to start de conversation xD
den D was lik...im chattin wit P...den i ask larh wat u all chattin bout...den he say larh...'eh don wan chat larh, im arguing wit P bout sumthing...damn fun...not lik chattin wit u...v nvr fite bout anything wan...damn sien..bye' walao...damn hurt!! xD
haiz...
ANYWAY, i cant blieve im dreaming bout sms!! Im a freak!! wakaka...

Btw, i slpt at 0245pm if im not mistaken...den i sudd woke up at 0532pm...I RARELY TAKE NAPS IN DE EVENING!!! I REPEAT!! lolx....so den i look out de window...which is at de dining room n i saw bright lite...i mean de sky was bright larh...all sunny...so i thought i was late for skol..i was lik, SHYT, im late AGAIN!! i was late many times d FYI...so i reach out for de small clock beside my pillow n look at de time...de small clock shows 0532....hmm...i was thinking, how can 5 sumthing in de morning b so bright....so den i try to figure out...i look at de clock again...owh, it's written there PM bside de numbers -.-ll den to confirm i looked at my clothes!! xD
wah, i was damn blurr larh...so woke up n open de gate lorh...
tis time when i was sleeping, i was lik dead...i cudnt feel anything...de way i slp was de way i woke up...WEIRD!! TOTALLY!!

k lets get over to other things, shall v....Haha...
today did 2 experiments in skol!! yay!! fun larh...at least no need to study xD
experiments r fun....but de bad part is v need to do reports...haiz...IRRITATING!!
BM teacher din come today!! kaka....nvr do karangan...dats y larh i hepi =x

Ehh, wait!! i rmmbr y i sudd woke up...dat zi en larh sms me...got nth else to do...haha...jkjk...he sms me...had vibration...cos i put my hp at de side of my pillow...wit a soft toy, de small clock n my mp3..hehe...so i woke up larh xD

Anyway, our skol drama team wont!! But v left de pole in de bus!! sad....lolx...nth much larh...

Sumore, EST folio done...HEPI!! =D

*y is de monitor screen turning yellow?? ouch, it hurts my eyes!!*

Hungry larh...today i din eat lunch...got nth to eat n i was damn tired...so i skipped lunch..hehe...
k...hmm...i think dats all rite...I MISS PHYSICS!! xD xD
haha...

Wah nowadays after 5 days den only update blog..haiz...
everyday...its either no time...or too exhausted....
not bcos of too much hw...i duno wth am i doin larh...sumhow im bz...hehe ^^

Hmm...lets do some reviews...hehe...
Last thursday wasnt a holiday for me!! Hafta wake up early morning to go for netball frenly match in HFK church....haiz...wow!! v won against them larh!! NICE!! hehe...
den after dat was SLEEP!! my hobby!! til lik 4pm den went out wit parents..came bck den went church at 630pm....
De next day was friday....hmm...took de RM200!! yay!! had fun doing props...but was damn sleepy dat time...den went for service...ehem....*simplay coughing* xD
Den here comes saturday!! My fav day of de week!! Morning erm...was...all comp....den was BB...rely had fun...games...AND ALSO GOT UNIFORM!! hehe...BUT BUT BUT i spent almost RM100 juz for everything T.T n havent even pay for de boots...haiz...my own money!! T.T de PMR money larh...thank goodness v took it d...if not jia lat lorh xD
After BB was church!! Easter Vigil...ehem...*simply coughing again xD *
wah....de mass was lik from 1030pm til 2am...damn long...haha....played candle ( sumone say wan ) haha...no larh....not playing larh....
Den went home!! PARTY?? nah!! sleep lik a piglet!! xD
Wanted to go for Easter Mass.....hehehehehehe....my dad told me no nid go cos slpt late...hehe...so den do hw lorh....dats all larh for de whole holy week!! yea...

Today's monday!! Yepz!! One of de most busiest days in my life!!
Hmm...
Went skol...had drama full dress rehearsel...so went up to de last floor to get all de props ready n erm....watched de drama....after finis was FOOD TIME!! hehe....den after dat was continue doing props...was SOOOO i mean SOOOOO kelam kabut larh....haiz...sew sew sew!!
Den..........erm.....wth larh...everyone juz left de props up there...on de 5th floor!! do u expect A GAL LIK ME to carry all down?? -.-ll
Den....thank goodness Hakim helped!! de other guys all SISI!! argh!! wah i damn lazy to write wat happen lar...too many things happened!! Amazingly i helped 5 teachers in a day!! woohoo!!!
im supergal =x

0ne week of holiday finally over le!!
And now is de results time...haiz...first exam itself oso all de results damn cha d...haiz...
real format time duno how i gonna die...
mayb b4 exam commit suicide liao!! T.T

So far only got bm, bi, ma, mt, phy, chem n bio...others all havent get...walao...beta so many ppl fail in moral...im scared i oso gonna fail larh...haiz..
Omgosh...dat day v sang dat witchdoctor song in chem class...was sooo fun larh...i love chem teacher...as a fren not as a teacher...cos her teaching kinda sux!! omgosh...en zafran in sooo funny xD
haha...en remi oso...luckily he din scold larh for de marks...haiz...y larh y??? soo damn low larh my marks!! wanna cry jorh...

Haiz...all tis while i don blieve in dat thingy...wats it called?? i forgot...watever larh...but it rely happens lorh...happening to me!! haiz...sudd sudd no mood!! haiz...

duno wat to write larh...damn tired...everyday stay back...no mood for anything!! tmr netball practise!!! *cries*

For tis first holiday in form 4...
one word to describe it...FUN!! xD

Haha...

monday - went skol for props...after skol go lm...watched 10 000bc...de movie was only OKAY larh...not very interesting oso....but ok larh dat day...hunted for 3 bdae presents!! in de end of de day...PK!! xD

tuesday - REAL HOLIDAY!! Rested de whole day...erm...online de whole day i mean xD

wednesday - Again went skol for props...haiz...tiring wan larh...but fun oso...

thursday - Heres where de fun part begins.........haha...NO PROPS today!! wakaka...early in de morning went to lynn's hse....erm...den v wait n wait...she told me her dream larh...dat was soooo funny....she dreamt dat de guys dat went out wit us wore singlet n shorts to jusco -.- haha....den v waited for ginny...den erm...went out lorh...went jusco at around 12...reach there oni str8 go mcD...everyone was hungry!! eat eat eat!! wakaka...den when eating de guys came lorh...v saved de table next to us but they din sit there...den erm....went buy tickets for movie lorh....so blurr larh duno wanna watch wat movie...coss....lynn's sis was wit us so v cant sneak her in de 18+ movie...de others can act xD macam larh aku nmpk mcm 18 thn xD de movie starts at 320 but dat time was lik 1....so juz walk walk around de shopping lorh...so damn sien wan...nth to c nth to buy...den went arcade lorh....lynn n ginny played...aiyoo...i wasnt in de mood to play all those games larh...i was erm, kinda bored xD den finally it was 315...went to de cinema....aiyoo...lynn damn bad wan lerh...i hafta sit bside de guy larh...y cant she sit bside them -.- anyway nvm larh...not first time oso wat =x haha...wah, de cinema was DAMN COLD larh...rely...it was rely cold..thank goodnez lynn brought sweater for me larh..sumore i was wearing sleeveless t -.- i was shivering lik after de mid part of de movie...haiz...but de movie was nice larh...den when de movie ended v pisah wit de guys lorh..they go their way v go our way...went toilet larh wat else xD den me, lynn n her sis hafta go home larh cos her dad waiting outside so left ginny in de toilet xD den sampai rumah....hem came...my mama xD den ate dinner n went to pasar malam...walk walk walk, hujan -.-ll haha...lucky drizzling nia...so v walked faster n went home...luckily walking distance oni...when reached home str8 went up to de room...chit chat larh wat else...lolx...aiyo hem n lynn kip smsming i got bored so started singin xD lynn was damn hepi...yea~ glad she's hepi larh...she was lik hugging hem??? ok, yea~ lolx...den when it was around 11 sumthing hungry!! lolx...went down...hem did de milo n i was suppose to cook de maggie ( de pig say not gud xD ) den omgos...had one big ugly cockroach by de name of Bob (de name lynn gave ) was at de stove!! aiyooo...how to cook...tis time her kakak wasnt there to de rescue...v had to save ourselves!! it was damn funny larh...hem was recording all this...which v ask to...lolx...k den afta dat eating time...i was holdin de camera...soooooo RECORD RECORD RECORD!! xD it was all so funny larh...3 vids was recorded...it is kept savely!! no one shud ever c it...unless gud n de bestest buddiez...den terror strick!! lolx..jkjk...hem erm...sumthing happened larh...den finis eating went up...BRUSHING TEETH time!! woow!! xD
hem recorded me n lynn brushing teeth...v were doin de same actions...it was so funny dat v din rely brush our teeth properly...btw, its brushed larh -.- den here comes de screaming from her dad asking us to slp early...yea...went in de room...u think v wil sleep arh?? lolx...chat larh of cos...chat til 5..lynn fell asleep!! haiyoo...den v din cont larh..but still cudnt slp til lik 530am!! de alarm was 630!! omgosh!! 630 hem was de first one to get up..i was shivering for de 2nd time!! i hate aircond!! den she went n took her bath den call us(me n lynn) lynn din wanna wake up larh (she sleepy pig) den i went n bathe first larh...den eat breakfast n walked to skol...all de way to skol...everyone was complaining...IM SOOOO SLLEEEPPPYY!! xD in skol oso damn sleepy larh...haiyo...den finis skol...went home to our own houses...i reach oni chg clothes den terus baring on de bed d...don care!! din eat, drink or watever....juz slp!! haha...until 3 sumthing...den woke up...sms larh...haiz...got nth else to do...cant go online dat time cos my bro was sleeping..de pc is inside his room...i got laptop but de wireless modem my uncle took d...haiz...listen to music n sms lorh...til my bro wake up..yay! get to use de pc!! haha...den finis lorh rite..til here...me writing tis lame blog!! xD

Wah, today so early i update blog jorh xD
Got sumthing happen ma update earlier lorh...

Today holiday ma rite...so ma no nid wake up early lorh...normally at home i wil b de first to wake up de marh...so afta i get redy den i wil on de lite so dat my parents wil wake up n my dad wil get redy for work...so today i had my holiday...so i was sleeping til lik 645 cos wanted to go to de water closet...when i look n de clock, my dad normally leaves de hse at 630 though..So he din wake up in time to go to work..de fon rang...no one pick up...wat larh...i hafta wake them up -.-
haiz...in de end they put de blame on me cos i din wake them up when i went to de water closet instead wake them up when de fon rang...hello!! how was i suppose to know dat daddy wasnt on leave -.-ll
n i was de one to blame??
haiz...watever larh...HOLIDAY JORH!!
xD
hepi....

YAy~
Finally exam over lurr!!
Merdeka for now T.T
one week holiday!!
wat to do wat to do??
slp??
gai gai???
duno larh....
yerr..tis sun sumore got netball practise..very sien larh...X MINAT LANGSUNG!!
its not practise...got frenly match wit assumption if im not mistaken..sien lorh!!

exam review...
1st day...
bm-krngn time damn blurr...duno wat i wrote..tata damn confusing xD
chem-ok larh...can answer...
addmaths-erm erm...sux!! gonna fail teruk2...
svk-din read oso can answer larh...lolx..
2nd day...
bi-aiya, lexical luxury din hafal oso can answer larh -.-
bio-wah, siao...dead jorh..
est-ok larh...kinda ez..
sj-i duno all de subjective T.T
3rd n final day!..
maths-quite ez but alredy know 2 q wrong le T.T
physics-ok gua~ quite ez...wont fail xD
moral-aiya...wet wet water =x watever larh...don fail enuf jorh xD

dats all lorh...haha...my mum's comment 'fail ma fail lorh'
so i ma follow lorh...no nid read so much larh..fail ma fail lorh...
xD

haiz...now holiday...i duno wat to do...hmm...i wanna go for de steamboot!!!!!
T.T

anyway i forgot everthing dat happen...de sad wan larh...now juz hepi go lucky...go wit de flow...
eventhough it still remain...it remains a secret!! xD

I LOVE MY LIFE N FRENZ!

Im So Nervous!!
-.-ll

Im scared!!
tis coming saturday is sport's day...3 competition!!
1-kawad pps...muz win!!
2-running 4x100m...erm..tis wan got chance gua xD
3-running 400m...lose oso nvm larh...anyway no chance oso...enter for fun xD

plan plan plan...after sports day go BB?? tired lerh...next week exam lurr!! T.T havent study yet..i duno how i m going to fail!! xD
teruk larh tis time...no time to study...
today NOT suppose to stay bck but i stupidly went n stayed bck...wanted to watch brig they all practise drama but end up sleeping by de side xD xD
damn tired larh!!
still got physics report to do..n i have no idea how to do it!
Argh!! don und addmaths!! n also chem!!
haiz...

Finally my inspiration is back again xD xD
I'm so happy...i thought my talent was lost forever!! argh!! damn happy!
So heres my first poem after recovery xD xD
I have no idea wat title to put...any suggestion??
So here it goes...

Hiding everything from the world in front of me
Not knowing that it is getting worser day by day
Faking a smile and hiding a tear
Hoping that it will get better the day after today
Forgetting is hard
Forgiving is not
Breaking is easy
Fixing is not
Laying down my head to go to my dreams
Only to wake up and know that its fantasy
My heart smiles when i meet you eye to eye
My brain freezes when a word comes from you
A secret will remain a secret
Until one day it will not remain a secret
The day will come for us to know
That everything was just a ticket
A ticket to grow and finally know
That friendship and love will finally glow

Nice marh?? xD xD

Today went SS...it was quite fun...sat in de std6 clazz cos our clazz they use to watch video...anyway...today's topic was injustice...its injustice rite not unjustice...
sir nelson ask us to giv example of injustice in our life...so i said families...parents dat r sumtimes berat sebelah...they pilih kasih...no one else talked bout family except me...
it was weird...dat he kip questioning me bout y i said parents...
everytime he call names follow register...he wont rmmbr me!! argh!! he kip asking whether im Francis's daughter..everytime oso ask...he miss my bro ( anak tauke babi =x )
haha...last year's confirmation camp xD xD

I duno wat to think about now...everythin seem to be going wrong...
I love myself..but everything dat is happening to me make me kinda hate myself...
What i wan i wil nvr get but wat i don wan wil always b there...even if i rely hate it!!
Can a relationship b save if everyday they fight??
how does their loved ones feel when they c dem fight?
wil their hearts b broken if they rely split??
don they care bout wat others think?
wat can others do to avoid arguement n bickering?


Is divorce a common thing in this era??
have u ever met sumone with divorced parents?
how were their reactions when their parents got divorce?
how, as a fren..how did u make them happy?
did u lend them ur shoulder or juz left them alone?
r they happy now?
or still in pain?
r u a gud fren?
how gud r u to ur fren?
were u there when they were sad?


R u in love now?
DO u love ur family?
ur frens?
a special person?
how does it feel if they ignore u?
or betray u?
treating u lik u r sumone useless...
not knowing dat they mean a lot to u...
hurtin u lik a thousand time...
when ur heart sumhow juz cant take it no more...
letting it all go in tears...
wishing she was on de mountain screaming out all she cud..


Can a normal human being juz fail in everythin??
Love..
studies..
family...
bizness...
frens???
how perfect can a human b?
can a human b hepi every single second?
wil wealth bring u happiness??
or wil ur loved ones bring u joy??
wil u ever forget de person u forgive?
How does it feel when sumone stab ur bck?
how does it feel when sumone breaks ur heart?
how does it feel when sumone says they hate u?
izit possible dat u wil forgive n also forget?
Y do humans cry?
when u r happy, u cry...
when u r sad, u cry...
how do u know whether dat person is happy or sad?
can crying help u solve every prob u face?
y muz probs n circumstances exist in a human being's life?
wil there b life after death?
y r some ppl so racism?
y do v have diff religions?
don everyone come from de same way?

LYING!!
Y do ppl lie?
it is a sin to lie..but y ppl still do it?
sum ppl juz don do wat they say..
once ppl told me dat watever u say, u muz do..
but wat i realise was...in reality no one follows dat...
u say n den u forget...


i once had de power to c things in my dream...my mum once hid a secret from me...den one nite i dreamed bout it n asked her de next morning...she was shocked dat i knew it...i told her i dreamt bout it...
but a few years later i stop dreaming bout things lik dat...i thought my life was gonna b perfect...
now i wish i cud dream of things dat i rely wish to know..i m rely curious of wat my life is gonna b when im an adult...wil i still b alive til 21??
those questions running in my head!! everytime i lay my head on de pillow...all thoughts come rushing to my mind!! everytime im walking alone after BB...de same thing happen...

Happy thoughts..where r u??

Family Prayer

God our loving Father
Bless our families with a sense of responsibility
That each one of us may do our part
In making our family a home church
As the holy family at Nazareth
Like Nazareth, may it be a center of faith, hope and love
A home of prayer, peace and commitment to your kingdom
Guide our lives
Direct our steps
And sustain in all our undertakings
Lord, we ask u to bless our every endeavour
To evangelise ourselves and your people
As we journey in brotherhood and love
May we like St Peter
Inspite of our limitations
Remain a faithfull companion and witness to Jesus
In confidence, we earnestly entrust to you
The trials, affliction, joys and events of our family life

When You Love Sumone

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved him for so very long,
You would think he could do no wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That he would always stay this way.
He treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
He started putting you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to him was dirt.

He started ignoring you and you wondered why,
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night he was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Two days later he was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

He thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things he said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry him some day,
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.

Now it has become a very huge issue for me in skol...every single fren of mine trying to protect me from any danger dat approach me...lik im a God! jkjk ...im a special fren...

Haha...bodyguards here n there, surrounding me...wah...its so funny larh....pls cut out de act..it wont work...lolx...anyway thanks a lot for always being by my side n helping me out for everything...
special thx to all de guys! xD

ze, kex, jy, bj....eventually ks knows bout it @.@ blurr!! xD
Brigss too!! haha...she sacrificed her eye-seeing time to help me avoid ehem ehem...omgosh i cant blieve tis is happening in skol!! xD

Brigs + Sumthing Wrong??!!
Sumthing's wrong wit her!! xD
Brigs + Function??
lolx...
Brigs + L??
Hello...he's mine...
Brigs + KB??
Erm...not interested!! wakaka

Me + pinky??
Damn...he's taken xD xD
anyway..jk nia...xD

rely love my frenz a lot!! Brigs rely lik sumthing wrong larh!!
She's so in lurve with him...cant believe it!! she don even talk to him....she looks so cute when she c him den she get so excited...

Last year was pavi...being all over de coconut tree!! xD
dat was a real joke larh...she kip chging target lik chging her clothes -.-ll

I cant forget today recess larh...its so so funny....it all happened so fast i didn't even haf time to realise wat was rely happening...haha...

I guess de same thing wil b happening next mon, tue, wed, thurs, fri....yea n so on...til everything is over xD
haha...i rely hope it ends lik tmr xD xD

[[*Betrayal / Bei Pan*]]

Yu bu ting luo xia lai
Hua zen mo dou bu kai
Jin guo wo xi xin guan gai
Ni shuo bu ai jiu bu ai
Wo yi ge ren
Xin shang bei ai

Ai zhi sheng siu wu nai
Wo yi zhi bu yuan zai qu cai
Gang qin shang hei jian zhi jian
Yong yuan dou jia zhi kong bai
Que le yi kuai
Jiu bu jing cai


Chorus:
Jin jin xiang yi de xin ru he say goodbye
Ni bi wo qing chu hai yao wo shuo ming bai
Ai tai shen hui rang ren feng kuang de yong gan
Wo yong bei pan zi ji
Wan cheng ni de qi pan
Ba shou fang kai bu wen yi ju say goodbye
Dang zuo zui hou yi ci dui ni de ni ai
Leng leng qing qing dan dan jin hou dou bu guan
Zhi yao ni neng yu kuai


Xin you yi ju gan kai
Wo hai neng gou gen shei dui bai
Zai ni guan shang men zhi qian
Ti wo zai hui tou kan kan
Na xie pian duan
Hai zai bu zai

Today's schedule was real tight...
In de morning went for church den SS den my grandma's hse...
den rush home to go for cpt ball practise...
haiz...tiring larh..

Ytd one of my fren ask me...y ur blog got so much secrets...when in skol u don even talk bout it..
My reply to her was...its not a secret actually...im a kind of gurl dat if u don ask i wont tell...cos i know being sad at sumthing is rely a waste of time...today in church i learnt dat in life there is no PAUSE button...so live it to de fullest if can...who knows tmr u mite not b alive anymore...

I went to my grandma's hse today...she told me n my mum everything dat happen to her n her siblings....i felt sad at dat moment..haiz...all tis while i duno wat happened to them larh...haiz...

Well...don care larh....another thing to fan about...my church!! haiz...black n white...wats dat larh???
haiz...u don let me join church games juz cos of dat?? haiz...de story began 2 years ago...i wasn't chosen for de church netball group...was kinda disapointed...de reason - cos im short!!
den one day tis women in de group fell n hurt her leg...she was badly injured so i was in de group larh...so since den almost everyday v had practises...played at nite....even when de sun wasn't up...was a tiring week b4 de games...
so den came de real game...everyone joyfully entered de bus to go to seremban if im not mistaken...so v reach de place...found a nice seat for all de supporters n players...
game after game started n ended...i was all de while sitting in de supporters seat when my name was in de players list...all de while i was thinking when do i get to play den sudd de coach called my name...felicia go in n play....so den i happily walk in de court n started playing...trying to play my best din care about any injuries i mite face ahead....there was it...v won dat game...den again i was in de supporters seat again...waiting for my second turn...when there wasn't even another turn for me...stupidly waiting for sumthing dat wasn't even there....haiz...
den when i return home i told my mum everything...actually i din mind dat i only played half a game although there was lik 7 games if im not mistaken...but sumhow deep in my heart there was tis not satisfied feeling...my mum she influence me telling...yea larh all oh hia...where wil let us play de...all also their own ppl play de larh...den since den in church i have tis hatred towards dem...i duno y...since den i seldom go for netball practises...haiz...i duno y all her words seem to have a lot of effect towards me..haiz...den now de thing dat i fan about iss....sandra ask me wanna enter netball or football for goodwill games...my interest is surely in netball but i know eventhough my name wil b in de player list but surely wont get to play...cos i havent grow an inches since de last time...so i only can enter football...haiz...im so confused larh....my mum encourages me more to join BB activities den my church activities...church too many conflict jorh...haiz..

My life is now at a junction...its whether go left which means making my own decision or right which is my parents' decision...i have too many choices in life making me feel lik sumthin without an option is way better!! haiz...decisions make me confuse...

I duno y every sat after come bck from BB sure very hepi de...
=D

Hmm...review review....
Today went n do de uniform...
Haha...hui min belanje jelly xD xD
Den damn funny larh...her first jelly fell on de floor...lolx...
den she went n bought another one...den fell again xD xD
Den she malu to go buy another one...ask me to go buy for her...
luckily de third n fourth wan nvr fall xD xD
So long larh for de man to finis taking all de ukuran...gals first ma..den v all waited lorh...
Den Jason's fren ask me how old am i...i said form 1...den he ask me y so short worh..
if i say i f4 den ma cham..haha...
den another jason ask me y my english so gud..
dat time in front of sk bt 9 ma...den i ma say lorh...i went to a very gud skol...dats y my english so gud...
den he ask me wat skol...den i pointed to de skol larh...den he ask me...dat skol not haunted wan meh...
den i say yea larh....i went to a gud skol...de ghost taught me eng dats y so gud...
Dat joke was dumb n lame larh...not even funny...

Anyway...went bck to church time...LUCKILY i din run man...haha...all those dat ran bck kene pumping...hui min n i was nicely walking bhind!! lolx...n because of dat v din kene denda...wakaka...

Aiya missed squad activity again!! wat larh...thought today ok larh...can join...haiz...nvm larh...
today no rush cos my dad got dinner to attend...den after dismiss gave present time xD xD

Den walk bck T.T
duno y today i walk damn slow larh...haha

Omgosh these few days in skol is soooo chaotic!!
i remember one day...b4 recess had bio den english...she left de BKK in de lab...omgosh...
den when last period which is addmaths, en remi(discipline teacher) time den oni she remember...den dat time i wanted to go to de water closet larh...den v went to de lab...anyway alfa was in there...lolx...brig was finding for de BKK..den v went to Beta...to find my pants cos sumone borrowed it for sesi fotografi....den i went to de water closet...den went to chem lab to ask for chem teacher's signature...den rushed up bck to addmaths clazz...dat time all de f2 coming in d...so shifted clazz to 5 kreatif...omgosh dat was rely rely tiring...den i sit alone T.T den cm came n sit wit me...lolx...den not lonely liao...

sumore wat happen arh...hmm...nth larh...cant recall bck anything...

btw, i cant make up my mind larh...go for which?
skol or BB sports day??
my mum n teacher say its lik once in a lifetime to go for de price giving day...n BB sports day is lik once in a year...xD
how larh??
both clashing larh de time T.T
i oso think dat price giving for PMR result is lik once in a lifetime larh...
haiz...
but i wanna go for de sports day too....

Frenz Forever..

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives,
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25.
I keep thinking times will never change,
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back,
No more hanging out because were on a different track.
And if you got something that you need to say,
You better say it right now because you don't have another day.

Because we're moving on and we cant slow down.
These memories are playing like a film without sound.
And I keep thinking of that night in June,
I didn't know much of love but it came too soon.
And there was me and you and well we got real blue,
Stay at home talking on the telephone, with me,
We'd get so excited and we'd get so scared,
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money,
When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school,
Still be trying to break every single rule?
Will little brainy Pavi be the astrounat girl?
Can Hema find a job dat makes her smile everytime?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye,
Keep on thinking its our time to fly,

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end,
And suddenly it's like we're women and men.
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round,
Or will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep, keep thinking that its not goodbye,
Keep on thinking its our time to fly.

And this is how it feels

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
from whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever

Haiz...
today valentines day....

anyway, i regreted coming online ytd!!
haiz...stupid larh....
T.T

De feeling of guiltiness after rejecting is much worser den knowing dat sumone v lik, lik sumone else...haiz...
i duno wat he's thinking larh...haiz...eventhough i don lik u...juz accept larh...
at least i still reply ur sms rite...unlike sumone i know...
haiz...
y cant v juz b frens??
is it so hard arh??
normal frens r still cool ok...
v can hang out together larh...
haiz...
even b4 this happen v were frens...its ok wat...haiz...now wat am i suppose to do?

Aiyo don wan think so much but haiz...duno larh...trying to forget bout it..

De journey to penang wassssss............kinda fun...xD xD

Started at 5am...was sleeping de whole way til v reach setapah...or setapak ??
haha...den my dad went to de *water closet*...others were in de car...i was nicely sleeping til my mum woke me up...saying look at de cat in de car next door..omg de cute was ssssoooo cute man!!
Den continued de journey...fell asleep again...den .......de tire puncture -.-ll
wth....stop de car...den called de AAM ppl...den de AAM ppl ask to call de PLUS fella...haiz..den call de PLUS fella lorh...den ok jorh...continued de journey...

Stop at sumwhere near JAwi to chg de tire...wasted a lot of time!!
Den oni reach...haiz....

Haiz..misses de prayer..only get to eat xD xD
my fav hobby other den sleeping..lolx...

Today damn funny larh...after recess i went crazy d..started taking de laughing pill...everyone went crazy...during maths i sat with hema..kip comparing tis n dat xD den after dat had physics...teacher ask to do exercise in de exercise book...den i open de book n think...wat i forgot??
i think i forgot my pencil box..was thinking where was it?? i told hema dat i left it in de maths room...haha...went n find in my bag but i rmmbr dat i din even put it in de bag...den hema walked to her bag n return wit MY PENCIL BOX in her hands!! xD xD
Den de whole crazy thing started larh...tis angela larh..wats wit de pink pills gal?? since when u started kipping it??!! kesian ginny larh..haiz...
den brig started larh wit her exercise book...buku bersenam..hema was blur but den later her exercise book started exercising xD xD
dat was funny larh....den wit de water part....duno wat to say...haha...de whole physics time was damn damn funny larh...den when going bck time ask teacher to do correction on de test paper...den i ask paste in which book..den sudd he say maths 2..im lik teacher err v r studying physics...den he sudd say...alamak saya dah gila??!!!
omgosh...he called himself gila...den he say...ye larh...mcm mane x gilar...ajar maths, addmaths nagn physics...haiz...

haha...duno larh...even de teachers r crazy!!

Think back wat happen today...hmm..
Morning nth happen larh...yor these few days oways de fon wake me up de...haiz...
Went for cpt ball today...physical training less jorh geh...y lerh??
Yor de place there so slippery larh...oways feel lik slipping xD
Erm..yor..everytime oso kene rain wan...
Havent even enter de hse..kene tegur d...he says..
He: Woi y nvr answer ur hp arh??
Me: I so wet how to answer de hp??
He: I'm calling u now...answer ur hp..
Me: I'm so wet how to answer de fon??
He: Y din u call me to pick u up?
Me: For wat wanna call u...my fren n i walk home together ma...

Haiz...dat time i was juz opening de damn gate lerh...haiz...oso kene marah d...yor yor yor...hate it lorh..
After dinner...str8 stat doin hm...argh!! so much hm...siao d...everyone oso rushing to finis it...cm damn blur larh...all de hm oso duno de...den sumore don wan ask -.- haiz...luckily at 1030 finis jorh =D
dat time feel damn relieve...yer...next week no BB...no cpt ball training...haiz...go penang...but no angpau oso de...haiz...

no new clothes not fun larh...damn tired larh...im so in de holiday mood jorh...no mood to study!!

haiz...same thing happen again...rush rush rush!! haiz...every week miz squad activity lerh...haiz...dats de nicest part...cos get to fool around...ish..rushing to go bck til boots oso forgot to take...swts larh...haiz...today drill time kene rain den go church time oso kene rain...wat larh...at nite so so tired lerh...haha...hepi hepi hepi..duno y lerh...wakakakakakaka...

Drill time damn funny larh...i duno y...today whole day kip laughing...tie shoe lace time oso kip laughin..haha...aiya...din stay til dismiz...thought wanna pay lois de *kaching kaching* haha...sien larh....sleepy!!!

today mass i rmmbr wat de father say...talk bout de 8 beatitudes...he repeated wat v learned in BB last few weeks ago...wah sien lorh...listen to de same thing...haha..

Haiz...today damn stupid larh....haiz...wat larh...de stupid minyak angin kene curi...wei ape larh...dat oso wanna curi arh...stupid....they r born stupid...wat to do =x

Den when wanna lock bilik rawatan suddenly inside got ppl geh...so menyusahkan wan -.-ll haiz...sibuk oni...who de heck let them in larh...sumore today finish skol late...hafta rush...den write note for pn jaclyn lor...duno whether v wil kene marah or not...or mayb only me wil kene marah...stupid larh...haiz...so now juz can wait n c wat happens tomoro...haiz...

Tmr muz go open de door...den wait for de petugas...haiz...

Skipped sj n bm..n also bi..wah damn nice man...haha...in bilik rawatan time...kc kene tegur..wat love sick all...haha...damn funny larh...den tk say sy giv one kiz den ok jorh...den pn chng say after giv one kiz den he bcome dad jor xD xD so wat larh...

I Will Be

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, coz you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Coz I will never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Coz without you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I’ve got, you’re all I wantYeah...
And without you I don’t know what I’d do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever (forever)
To get you through the day
And make everything okayI will be, all that you want (I'll be)
And get myself together (get myself together)
Coz you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I’ll be with you forever (all my life)
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Haiz...leg damn damn damn pain lerh...not only de wound pain...de whole leg pain...lik damn heavy lerh...walk up de stairs oso cham...sumore today walk so many times up n down T.T
start skol go up once...den rehat go down go up...den go library, down n up...den maths room, down n up...den go lab, up...den down...den go library...up n down T.T wah can die man...i think i lost weight! xD xD

Erm...anson shifting skol lorh...luckily today not his last day...den tmr i can have my book back xD

hmm...don wan talk much larh...don wan advertise wat im feeling now xD

so dats all larh happen today....

Wah...tired lerh...y arh today morning so x semangat go SS wan...haiz...go there lik wanna sleep only..haiz...den after SS use de new laptop...wah de connection oways dc wan...sien lerh....den play til no time to get redy for CB...haha...den when de clock strike 3.45 kelam kabut jorh xD
dah larh i duno wheres de court xD den got find larh...find sumone dat know lorh...

den go CB...aiyo de physical training lik siao...so long time din exercise so much liao...always training oso run nia ma...haiz..tired lerh....
yer so malu...dai ga jie fall lerh...haiz..all mui mui oso din fall T.T but overall ok larh de practise...fun lorh...not sien...everytime de goal den i start cheering...first first no one follow me lerh...so malu...den later yee lyn n anita follow me cheer...y others so serious de...have fun marh xD

den at 7 go bck lorh...walking time drizzling liao...den sudd saw son yeng's mum on de road...tumpang larh wat else xD den reach home...bathe den go eat Bak Kut Teh..yay! lolx...

den come home do hw =x

Haiz..today tired lerh...BB din even stay for de ending part....rush home...str8 go bathroom bathe...den get redy...str8 go church T.T din even have time to sit...got larh...in car time get to sit =x

wah...during mass my stomach was growling...lik how many years d din eat...lolx...but all de songs wan fantastic...at least i know all xD den can sing larh...if not....

nice lerh drill...i love kawad...duno y..hehe...

Reschedule...

Monday - Go skol...stay back for PSS duty...come back...bathe, eat, watch tv, do hm...sleep..
Tuesday - Go skol...stay back for latihan rumah sukan...come back..bathe, eat, watch tv, do hm...sleep...
Wednesday - Go skol...no stay back for now...come back...eat, nap..do hm...bathe..eat, watch tv...sleep...
Thursday - Go skol...stay back for latihan rumah sukan...come back...bathe, eat, watch tv, do hm...sleep...
Friday - Go skol...come back...eat...watch tv...nap...do hm...bathe...eat...sleep...
Saturday - Evening go BB...rush home...bathe, go church...dinner, sleep...
Sunday - Go SS....come home...sometimes got cptn ball practise...going gua...come back...bathe..eat...watch tv...sleep...

Cut out wat lerh from last time wan...no tuition xD YAY! teacher found a new job T.T sumore cut out band practise cos i lazy to go...
dats all larh...after BB sports day den can start going for swimming again =D yay!

Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about itThis is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant,
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away,
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it,
don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe,
not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

Haiz...normally ppl wil say de future is in ur hands....guess wat..my future is in my dad's hand...i cant even suggest anything...everything...even universities he say muz go...haiz...i duno wat to do...i hate being a doctor...he even say i have to learn all those science subject...now he is alredy finding scholarship for me..n now im only 16...wth!! haiz haiz haiz...i feel so useless larh...canot stand up for myself...i hate bio i hate bio...don wanna b a doctor...i have FOBIO looking at blood...he don know dat??!!! argh...

Y cant i go to a better skol?? its my rite larh...so wat use a bit of ur money...when im old i giv u back larh...stop complaining larh!!

U r de one dat wanna send me to U...y muz u complain bout de fees???!!! i din say i wanna go...i can live juz wit a SPM degree....argh!! T.T

haiz...juz leave it larh...forget bout it...n juz follow de way he open for me..

Yesterday my uncle thought me add maths...rite b4 going for mass at 4 sumthing...i kip getting all de answers wrong...my uncle kip asking me to concentrate on my homework...n he claims dat my mind is not there...i duno wat i was doing...mayb my mind rely wasn't there...i duno larh...
I shudn't b thinking bout it anymore...cos wit skol works...haiz...im 24 7 doin skol work other den coming online...juz to relax a bit...everyday staying bck in skol make me feel exhausted larh...i duno how last year i can coop with all these activities...its killing me...

In de other hand...i kip having probs with him...haiz...its either i ignore him or he ignores me...haiz...n de next day i ask him not to b so siu hei n juz reply my msg...den he say he was lazy to reply mymsg...u know wat dat means...im not dat important in his eyes...im juz a normal fren...n i thought de relationship grew a bit...dumb...

tis week din go BB...haiz...aiyo...SS rely rely annoying larh...every week also got assignment to do...im not dat free larh...den sumore if don go more den 3 days den canot get confirm...haiz...better juz go RCIA...haiz haiz haiz....

skol rely sux!

Anyway...yesterday was my bor's confirmation...congrats to him! =D after mass had fellowship dinner n a few presentation from de f5s...haha...damn funny larh...wow Leonard can dance! xD he dance damn funny larh...with de sunglasses on n his shirts out...wow dat was nice...den Gab acted as a gal...dat was FANTASTIC! haha...part of de act...

Ray : Erm Gab honey...i wanna tell u sumthing...
Gab : Yes dear?
Ray : Im meeting sumone else...
Gab : Damn u!

Wakaka...damn funny larh...all de words Gab used...he's a pure actor or i can say actress! xD
My dad got a new Godson...so erm means i also have a new Godbro?? He's cute xD

Wah today whole day not at home...wake up at 9am...den went to shop to buy books...alone T.T den came home wait for hui jun to come..den at 1.15pm go band...juz c c...haha....de instructor ask to join...learn trumpet -.- den at 3pm start BB....ok larh...wah parade time damn hot lerh...den got worship...bible clazz...dont tell my dad bout it...its a secret..if he knows bout it, he wont allow me to go xD learn de 8 beatitudes...learned in cathecism when i was in f2 -.- den got target clazz (i think)...ok larh...den break into squad...aiyo..y ppl canot remember my name de??? haha...dat guy called lyn , mei lyn...lol...den go back lor...

Den wan bathe...ok lorh...go in de bathroom...den sudd no electric...haiz...was kinda scary cos in de bathroom i only hear de water sound n canot c anything xD

aiyo tmr wan go de seminar or not lerh?? haiz...lik no time lerh...sumore got cathecism...haiz...tmr sure teacher Nelson again...very sien =x teacher Sandra nicer...ala...sumore canot go for netball....DIPAKSA quit =( haiz...luckily my dad let me join band...

ish..monday til sunday schedule all very tight...
monday - go skol..den stay back for tugas...come home eat, bathe, homework, slp..
tuesday - go skol..den stay back for meranti..come home eat, bathe, homework, slp..
wednesday - go skol...come home slp...yay!! only for now larh...later in March got koko -.-
thursday - go skol...den stay back for meranti...come home eat, bathe, band practise...errr...no hm??
firday - go skol...come home eat, slp 4 a while...den tuition....den can do anything d larh..
saturday - band, BB....den do anything...
sunday - go church, cathecism...come home homework...



-.- all so cham....thursday where to slot in homework time?? hope no homework on dat day larh...

Haiz...now KY angry at me..he lau gai!! haiz...who say i don blieve u wor...ish...
wat happen today arh...hmm..
T.T cm beat me...i tell my mum...wawawa T.T
hehe...no larh..juz joking...stupid larh...y today muz rain..haiz...kene rain jor..headache..haiz...
Yer i don lik do essay and karangan...yer...very fan larh...duno wan do which wan first...ish..tis sunday got cathecism..i don lik larh..haiz...sumore de teacher so strict...haiz...haha...today got many funny thing happen...

BJ BJ....lik means lik larh..wan say don tell ppl sumore...stay same hse...sumore bank acc oso same..wakaka....
today kene rain damn tired...come home oni eat den slp liao...FYI im not a pig..

Wah all koko also got jawatan...siao meh..how many work i muz do wor...haiz...sumore in netball bcum bendahari..im not good in counting $$ larh...aiya....very fan...very very fan...

Today do blog a bit early...
first day go tuition...ok lar...fren teach fren lik normal lor..haha...but understan lar...haha...
den come bck go online chat den wan do homework...haiz...one hour only wrote 'A Portrait of Myself'...lame larh...i have no idea wat to write xD haiz...wat to write???
y last year everytime teacher giv essay sure got idea...but tis year lik so blank wan...haiz...
den don wan do liao...tonite oni do...den practise piano...WAT HAPPEN???!!! all kelam kabut wan -.-llll very cha lerh....haiz...

wah today super duper tired...b4 recess got all de mesyuarat agung stuff...den after rehat go take pics la...damn dumb wan...den after dat take book...wah tis part paling cham wan..good MEI YIN oredi take all de books for me ar..all new wan..den gor ask me giv back wor..he say wan take all balut d wan...den ok lor listen to him lor...den MY say in de spbt room bo books liao..wah siao...say wan take books for me but in de room no books liao?? how can tis happen to me??? den me n gor go spbt room lor..got find books...haha...den wan 1 pm le...go bck clazz take his bag for him T.T damn heavy!! den at 1.20pm run to PSS...walao meeting lik 5 min den all can chao d..haiz..wat lar..den run bck to spbt room..help gor take books up..aiya a bit oni lar...haha...check everything lor..den run bck down take bag...saw PBSM mesyuarat agung down there...walao PN SAROJA SHIFTED???? wawawa T.T wth am i gonna do??? die la me...wat la pn rosminah oso duno she shifted meh..sumore ask me go c her..damn it...how lar?? aiyo..now got big prob liao....where can i get de keys?? whose pn Jaclyn...argh!!! im so stupid lar..y last year din find all de ppl n solve de prob b4 it was 2008?? haiz..nvm lar...haiz...den go out wait for bus lor...wait til so long..but luskily lar uncle din go without me..haha...den cum bck sumore hafta cook for myself T.T den after eat wah very tired d...sleep terus..

wah got ppl wan kau me..duno hepi or sad lerh...wakaka...haiz...i forgot wat i wanna type liao...chattin n smsing together...walao...everythin forgot -.-ll har got sumore...wat lar..i die lor...everytime lalu de stairs got ppl call me ll...haiz...

Haiyo..at nite oways sleep late lar..in skol damn damn sleepy...haiz...
Sit in between brig n thanusha can go crazy..haha...thanusha keeps telling me en remi is cute xD he is ok lar...Brig keeps talking bout sumthing Rong..actually i duno wats his name lar..duno wat larhh...bla bla bla...den ginny oso..haha...they fighting for him...damn funny...yay..thursday holiday can sleep til late late...lol..yer...i wan 2gas wat day lerh??? haiz...everyone oso don wan 2gas wit me...y lerh???? haiz...

Nvm la..got shagee...haha...sien lar..everyday cum bck oso so tired d...slp den don wan wake up d...den at nite cannot slp xD wanna take tuition ar??? ala..nvr go b4 oso...good meh take tuition..ma oso same oni...got ppl go tuition oso din get all A...i don go for tuition oso get all A...so wats de diff???

In skol oso can learn wan ma..same oni...if i can have one wish now....

+____i'll wish i can go back to 3 patuh...be in last year's clazz wit all my last year's clazzmatez!!
miz them so so much...especially de singing part...lol...not boring wan..everytime oso got sumthing to do..haiz...

haha...same day do 2 blogs..nvm lar...

Aiya when SOY starting again??? miz de peepz there lar...well i duno much ppl oso lar..wat lar..sure gurv bocorkan my secret wan...if not how brigs noe i say brandon's cute..ish...

Ala...tmr got cathecism...i hope tis year can confrirm d den no nid go anymore..haiz..when la when la when lar...wil know dat thing??? leave or not to leave??? hmm...hard decision...

Hmm...mood kinda down now..y ar??? i oso duno...no mood la...don wan write...aiya still got hm to do...haiz..

K lets c wat happened today.........hmmm.....todays perhimpunan damn long lar...all fai wa!!
Dat pengetua kip repeating de same thing over n over again...haiz...she think v pekak wan ar...BM was fun...yea...get back same teacher sure fun lar..but sit in front in her clazz erm i don think its fun cos she oways ask de person in front of her question..well my brain now on vacation wat...so how to answer....

Haha...chat wit TK today...ok lar..but no credit d..aiya nvm lar...lol..both hp oso don have credit..siao...n he thought i became smarter tis year...but i m de same blur person from last year...aiyo...damn dumb lar...haha...TK do not tell anyone wat happen...n i do not look smarter!!
n don tell bout de bf thing..haha..damn funny...

yer..next week muz wear pbsm shirt...i don lik la..wear black wan or white??? hmm...muz think...ish i don have black pant..sumore cannot wear pj pants...wat lar...lets all wear skirts!! haha...

Yeah to day first day of skol...so hepi lerh...lol...wat happen ar???
muz think back lar..holiday too long d..brain went on vacation...lol..ok wait i crapping again..haiz..

Haha..brig ketua kelas..wat wil happen to our clazz?? nvm la..it wil be so so so much fun-ner!! yeah!!
wat la de teacher came in for a while den went out til after recess...lame lar!!
den wat sumore ar..hmm...eh i not yet take my skol magazine lar..ish..wheres pn asfariza??
oh my goodnezz, pn melati gonna teach us BM...arh damn hepi..she's so damn nice lar...den pn muhairene gonna teach us EST..yeah!! they rely rox lar...i love them so much...

I finnaly understand how it feels when sumone says i hate u......it breaks my heart to a million pieces to listen to him say i hate u...eventhough he said he was jokin...i rely feel it..he always has his own excuses not to reply my msg..everytime i hafta start de conversation or else v wont b talking to each other...
i know theres sumone out there dat likes him too..but i don wanna giv him up..although i know there wont b even 1% of chance for us to b together..im juz wasting my time thinking wat is he doin..how is he n stuff...haiz...mayb its time for me to juz forget my dreamz n juz concentrate on my studies..haiz...felicia don kip sighing lar..
oh well who can i share tis wit..haiz..who else wud understand tis feeling??? next year gonna meet face to face every single day...haiz..wat m i suppose to do..i cant avoid him..

everytime i msg him...yea, he'll start wit wat happen den when i start wit wat happen to me, he stop replying...haiz...m i dat unimportant to him..he say he loves me lik every other ppl does..it means v r frens rite..

FREnz...yah...but i think v r juz normal frens...he use to say v r close frenz...now its juz frenz...haiz...i rely rely hope can faster pass my undang2 exam den motor test..haiz..den can go anywhere i wan at anytime...last year (2007) was a very unlucky year for me..been heartbroken twice..well no one noticed it..im a great actress u know...lol..n a great singer..bangga la ckit..hehe..ala..tis year my taman no carolling..miz it a lot la..

1 more day muz go bck skol le...haiz..duno hepi or sad ler...haiz..

hmm...tis year muz c got competition for 16 years old n above or not..den can go take part..hehe..but i got stage fright..haiz..ape lar...